Willie & Jojo's Wedding Reception
Sunday 7th September

mel mel is a close family friend and also a cute little girl from my SS class! ^^  this sweet girl kept coming up to me throughout the night.  i love her like a little sister. =)  i hope that she will grow up to be a beautiful woman because of her beautiful heart for Jesus.

i love simeon....'s tie! ^^  choo choo, thankyou for attending with us. =)

family photo!  haven't had one of these for a long time! =)  haven't attended a party with the whole family for even longer.  i love my family!  hehehe... mummie is so beautiful! ^^  my "little" brothers look so... different... wearing formal. o.O

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 HAPPY 16 MONTHS!!!
Wednesday 10th September

just reflecting on the response song for RICE this year (the one that was sung during the altar call)... i really love this song.  from day to day, we go through so much pain, whether physical, emotional or spiritual - our dreams are broken and our tears seem endless.  i remember my past and i cry.  i look at myself in the mirror and i cry.  i imagine my future and i cry.  i'm crying for new life.  and this song reminds me that I ALREADY HAVE NEW LIFE!!!  Jesus, my King, has promised me new life, and it has already begun!

i don't belong to this world.  I DON'T BELONG TO THIS WORLD!!!  i HATE this world.  i hate Satan.  i hate sin.  i hate death.  i hate pain.  I HATE CRYING.  i hate sickness.  i hate murder.  i hate idolatory.  i hate adultery.  I HATE ENVY.  i hate greed.  i hate pride.  i hate lust.  i hate rape.  i hate abuse.  I HATE PORNOGRAPHY.  i hate broken relationships.  i hate lies.  i hate injustice.  i hate oppression.  i hate hunger.  i hate war.  I HATE MTV.  i hate beauty contests.  i hate depression.

i belong to Jesus.  I BELONG TO JESUS!!!  i hate all these things because i belong to Jesus.  so i surrender this world, my life, my all to Jesus.  He will take me home where i will live my NEW LIFE to the full - with Him, with all those who love Him, in the New Creation.  Jesus, i love You.  i surrender all to You.  i can't wait till You bring me HOME to You!

Surrender

Marc James

I’m giving You my heart and all that is within

I lay it all down for the sake of You, my King

I’m giving You my dreams, I’m laying down my rights

I’m giving up my pride for the promise of new life

And I surrender

All to You, all to You

I’m singing You this song, I’m waiting at the cross

And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss

For the sake of knowing You, for the glory of Your name

To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain

 thankyou to God for always hearing my prayers! v^_^v
and thankyou to everyone for all your encouragement and prayers!
and a big thankyou to choo choo for coming all the way to surprise me with flowers!
silly seedy SHOCKING simeon, you are too lovely! =)  mummie calls you my "antidepressant"!

CHOO CHOO, GET BETTER SOON AND WE'LL PARTY ON SUNDAY... HEHEHE!!! v^_^v
*sigh*... i should get back to studying for real property exam tomolo... =(

i don't know if my self-esteem can get any lower than it is right now, but i'm certainly reading the right book - "Captivating" by Stasi Eldredge.  and it introduced me to this song which sings out the pain in my heart...

Beautiful

Bethany Dillon

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep 'cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it’s killing me

Does someone hear my cry?
I’m dying for new life

I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart

And be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won’t You help me back to glory?

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart

And I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love

And beautiful

Engage Conference
Friday 29th to Sunday 31st August

hehehe!  YES, we met the amazing evangelist PASTOR MARK DRISCOLL!!! v^_^v  i got 2 of his books signed by him as well! =)  his talks were SO SO SO touching and inspirational, and i admired the way he rebuked honestly where rebuke was needed.  i have to say his Q&A time on saturday morning broke my heart and left me wordless for most of the day, but it also made me come to Jesus in humility again to ask for forgiveness.  i learnt a LOT of NEW things from his talks as well!  after my exam this saturday, i will sort out my sermon notes so that i can share what i've learnt.  sadly, due to utter exhaustion, i slept through both of Don Carson's talks... oops! =(  i also really enjoyed the fellowship with the older 5pmers, although they weren't really that much older than me!  i really wished choo choo was at the conference with me, but oh well...

Joanna's 21st Thanksgiving Birthday Party
Sunday 31st August

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, MY BESTEST FRIEND EVER!!! v^_^v  this was a really, really meaningful 21st party.  not only because jo's my best friend, but because i could really see how God used the night to display His love and His glory even in the midst of so much brokeness and hurt.  although most of us were really tired, i believe we all enjoyed the party heaps and were encouraged by jo's love for others and her big heart for Jesus.  and of course, who could forget... WONG!!!  hahaha! =)  that was SO hilarious, especially when isaac wong was accused!  hehehe!

i love choo choo candle.  hehehe!  thankyou SO SO SO much for helping me SO SO SO much these past few weeks, despite being busy, stressed and tired as well.  thankyou for helping me with the RICE welcome packs, for setting up the photo presentation at jo's 21st, and for your never-ending love, joy, patience, forgiveness and encouragement.  i miss you too much. =(  and i won't be seeing you for a whole week. =(  and it sucks. =(  but i'm really looking forward to having fun with you at the wedding banquet this sunday night! ^^