So lately I've been focusing maybe a little too much...that just proves how much of a freak I am. For example, I've had sooo much more time since the break-up and I think, at first, I was just trying to find things to fill it with. Like if I just got really busy then I wouldn't have to think about it or deal with my emotions. Obviously that didn't work out. And I've got this crazy idea in my head that I need to get into an amazing college like Columbia. And it's good to have ambitions, but that isn't all that realistic. So I've been trying so hard to keep my focus on God. It's hard to not get distracted by all the other things in life that you wouldn't necessarily think are bad, and they aren't always, but they can distance you from God. So I've really been trying to humble myself A LOT, because I've found that I'm really not a humble person. And I'm trying incredibly hard to just be the person God wants me to be and to prepare for whatever He is going to use me for. All of that is definitely easier said than done, so I am tremendously thankful to all of my family, friends, peers, teachers, and church members that have provided me with such a wonderful example and an extraordinary amount of encouragement and accountability.
Soccer starts in 5 days and I could not be more stoked. I don't think I've ever used that word before, but it works. And if I could marry Michael Buble's voice, then I copletely would.
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