Soooo...basically, Sunday kicked ass. Because I went on a date. With Bill. And it went....exceedingly well. Even with the little glitch with my mother. But now I'm confused. And kind of hurt. Because it's like....nothing's different. I mean, true, I wasn't expecting the whole world to shift and be perfect and sparkling....but I was sort of expecting that he would atleast, like, acknowledge me differently. But....I don't know. Maybe he's not really interested and it didn't really mean anything. I don't know. I'm just so tired. Anyways. New poem. Don't really know about....anything. So. Stuff. Enjoy, I guess. It's not great. But it's not dreadful (I hope). "Searching" And so with gentle padding Soft-spoken footsteps that none before could hear You listen into the darkness For the one who promised to let you near The crimson lies of the past slink silently away You watch them go with no regrets This is a new chapter, one with no boundaries You lay down your money and make your bets She’s watching you with a sweet, velveteen allure What it is that dances in her eyes, you never were sure. Everything that you’re not, everything that you might grow to be Is shining through her soul, like light through the leaves of the tree. Shadows are cast, but you no longer fear their enigma They are a part of the scenery, passing you swiftly by Shedding the weight and burden that sunk into and poisoned your skin Mollifying its livid touch forged new wings that encourage you to fly. Seasons change and the rosebuds unfurl in gentle waves The same that lap at your toes in the saffron sand Never before have you dared to bring someone this close To watch as you gingerly held your heart in your hand And that she wraps her fingers around yours And closes them back around to hold it ever more You know that she is the one from your flailing dreams The one that you’ve been searching for. | 
