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Psycho5junglecat
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Name: Amanda
Gender: Female
Interests: music all sorts i love it all.......my friends....God.....mall Skating all of the arts (dancing,drawing,acting,and singing) i love acting playin guitar daydreaming social activities planning parties crashing parties lol i do it all im in it all i love it all!!!!!
Expertise: ummmm i play guitar....sorta lol... love talkin on da telly.....dance, theater and most of all i am the one and only expert on being me! but im great at everything i can solve all yer problems.........hah
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Member Since:
8/3/2004
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| damn twice in one month......xanga should feel special....well im out here for a very specific reason....to speak my feelings......and i know it will be seen by the pesron that matters the most b/c he's a xanga freek when he really should be on myspace...thats ok ....and this is a down to earth no sugar coating true feelings kinda post about boyfriends.....i dont want one.....i look at the guys around and im like yea he's cute or damn he's hot but that doesnt mean i want one in fact guys emotions are so hard to deal with i'd just rather not...i mean i like making out and havin fun and stuff like that but i'd rather have close friends like Alex that i can cuddle and not have to deal with what he'll think the next day at school......and recently i've been makin out w/ johnny b (no not blackwell) and to tell u the truth there's feeling there but not like feeling ya know? i've gotten to the point where there's no magic in holding hands with someone there's barely magic in kissing so y go ne further with him?.....it's pointles...if there's no wonder in the little things how can the greater picture be well great? it cant im not attracted to the guys i hang out w/!!!! this is a HUGE realization for me!!!!! i dont understand it they are alll great guys and im sure most of them would be great bfs but i dont want them ....i mean sure i'd like to find the one if there's such a thing but come on??? im starting to not belive in love...i mean i know its there...just look at my brother and suzie but for me? nah just take a look at my chosen profession...actress....famous ppl dont have solid relationships there are a few but no.....it hardly ever works out and yes i have been in love and i know how it feels so maybe thats y im not impressed with these acts of courtship from other ppl....and no my love for this guy didnt end up in heart break altho being apart from him breaks my heart......but ne ways the big thing is i dont feel ne thing (u know like butterflys or my stomache flip flopping) when i go to make a move i've become as comfortable holding hand w/ some guy as i would be with holding hands with joey.....and we all know joey's on the top meh best friend....so idk i gues that means there's no such emotion as love for me??????? basically wut im trying to say is.....i can't give u what you want!!!!!!!!!!!!(u know who u r) | | |
| oh wow it's beena while since i'vebeen out on xanga lol ne ways i guess im just saying for the most part i'll be on myspace but yea ocationally i'll be posting out here so boo yeah and for all of u looking for my myspace my e-mail addy is psycho5junglecat@netscape.net if u send me junk mail i'll fry ur ass bye | | |
| OMDude i hate riverside....errrrg y is it that the closer to this time it gets the closer it becomes to school starting and ppl are cramming into walmart and junk to pick up paper and crap like that the more screwed i get?....ok today i went to plato's closet (used to be one of my fav tores) and i try to turn in some clothes...they want abercrombie and old navy stuff and i have that and a few others ( mainly NB) and they say we dont take NB stuff ne more and im ok w/ that but like the abercrombie and old navy and the gap and the other stuff? nope srry.....im pissed i turned in a full bin of clothes and they had me a $2 gift certificate...i felt like saying shuve this 2 doller thing up ur ass! but im nice b/c they've been good to me b4 so *sigh* also i cant find the notebooks i want  on a crappier note...i got my schedual today......they fucked it up big time...usually im a nice flexible layed back cool kinda person but when someone fucks up what i delibritally told them NEEDED to happen i get pissed!!!!!!!! here is wut they gave me
U S history....bailey hahaha not first thing in da morning (xpecially for 90 mins)
hnrs in alg/ge...lupien...he's an awsome teacher but thats like intergrated 2?!?!?! wtf? thats not my math class....
dance 2 ....berberian...awsome one thing right...kudos
eng 3 hnrs....lance ...woohoo a few more brownie points for rightness
Combi Sports...chambers....Combi sports?!?!?! wut the hell is that? i dont even like gym im putting that offf till seinor year and wut the hell is it spost to be? this wasn't even my back up elective? all prior brownie points dissapear
hnrs earth and envi....means...good this is the only sci i havent taken ok cool
theater 3 woo hoo i love this class mrs strong rocks but i was also spost to get theater 4 instead i got combi sports.........
spanish 1....campos......(no comment) besides i have to take a language
ok thats^^^ fucked up.....this is how it's spost to be
US history , theater 3, intergrated 4 hnrs, spanish 1, hnrs english 3, hnrs earth and envi, theater 4, dance2 .......
now see wuts wrong? me 2 we need it fixed and im pissed we have to wait till monday to do it b/c now my weekend's gonna be trashed....i like results...and i want them now.... errrrg riverside sucks | | |
| iigh im totally crushing on this one guy....and i know he doesnt even think about me but thats ok it's just a crush and i guess sorta a goal that i've set for myself...u know kinda liek hey this year im gonna get a guy like this to like me....thats a pretty good social goal...and i have an advantage....i hang out with his sister... but ne ways hmmmmm im back from my trip yay!!!! lol it was ok i guess got to hang w/ ash some and get a tan but it ended with a hospital visit...john got hit in da head with a baseball and was bleeding all over the place and i had to take off my sandals(cant run in sandals) to run to get the emt's and i forgot that the parking lot was gravel and i cut up my feet but i got them and brought them to john and then johns dad fainted....by this time Jacob looks at me and says..."wow"...and im like *blink blink* "yeah" lol it was so funny b/c he summed up the sceane and wut i was thinkin about into one word and wut else do u say to something like that...well if it had been during happier times i would have said "yes u r " b/c he is HOT lol ummm but they're both ok and back at home now john's fine nothings wrong and his dad was just a little too overheated and under hydrated so yea interesting trip  | | |
| YAY im no longer madd at Thad...lol that rhymed... unless of course he doesnt call me back tonight then i'll be all eh again...b/c i still dont know if i can trust him er not so eh...oh well so im like woohoo and all super happy and i got to talk to justin ...but not for long....thinking bout going to youth group tomorrow and maybe seeing austin there hmmm family is going to be gone for the weekend at baseball thingie and we're not gonna be back till like the 24th *wishes she could see her thad* and the ppl that r at their homes when im not at their homes lol....did that make a lick of sense???? oh well i might just be drunk as a biscuit....NOT lol jason hmm im gonna miss him like crazymadd Patrick comes down here to move in on the 24th of august...the day b4 school starts and i offered to help him move in but yea he was all like its the day b4 school starts and was all u should hang w/ ur ppls | | |
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