Currently Reading Confessions of a Shopaholic By Sophie Kinsella see related

yeahhhh sooo, i don't really have much to say at the moment. i messed up pretty badly yesterday. i freakin taco salad from taco bell at like 9pm. what the hell was i thinking?! yeah, i know i wasnt. but uhmm, i've been pretty good today. && i'm going to stay that way. i found some good excersice that i can do later. but right now i'm babysitting so i can't go for a run. i'll have to do that later tonight. i think i'm going to take the kids and go for a walk. just to be outside, i don't know. it'll burn more calories than just sitting around. but it probably won't burn much. OHHH! i was thinking last night, i think i'm going to purchase myself a trampoline. i could burn a lot of calories during the day && then go running. cause i won't have to leave. yeah, i think i'm going to do that.

INTAKE
breakfast: 6ounces of light soy milk [37.5calories]
                 1 Special K Snack Bites [90calories]
lunch: 2 large eggs hard-boiled [154calories]
           7 Triscuits [120calories]
           1 Special K Snack Bites [90calories]
dinner: TBA

Currently Watching Thumbsucker By Lou Taylor Pucci, Tilda Swinton, Vincent D'Onofrio, Keanu Reeves, Benjamin Bratt, Kelli Garner, Vince Vaughn, Allen Go, Chase Offerle, Ted Beckman, Arvin V. Entena, Tyler Gannon, Dakota Goldhor, Walter Kirn, Kit Koenig, Sarah Lucht, Eric Normington, Nancy O'Dell, Lanette Prazeau, Bob Stephenson (II) see related

yeah so i was thinking last night while i was on the internet and talking to my friend at 2am that there are 4 parts of my body that i would really really really like to fix.

#1-MY BOOBS: they are just to big. i wear like a 34B and i really want smaller boobs. them being this big just do not help me at all. i'd be a better runner without big boobs. i wouldnt have to worry about finding a bathing suit top to fit my boobs either. ughhh, and i feel like their huge but people keep laughing and making fun of my saying they shrunk during track. whatever, lets see what they say when i get where i want to be, which happens to be so flat-chested that i barely have to wear a bra. that'd be fabulous. but anywayyyy, i have no idea how to achieve this. does anyone know of any workouts or any tips to make my boobs smaller? it'd be greatly appreciated thanks.

#2-MY STOMACH: yeah that's just not going to work. before it was like skinny yet muscular but i havent done an ab workout in, oh my word too long, and now i just feel like it's flabby. i have a bit of muscle underneath but not as much as i used to. and now i've got a hell of a lot more fat to go on top of it. not going to workout. going to have to fix this. i want my hipbones to stick out. that would be amazing. i want them to stick out to the point that when i wear pants, there is a space between the pants and my stomach. ohhhh god that's what i want!

#3-MY BUTT: it's just discusting and too big. people think it's great to have a butt. i just don't see it. i want it gone! i don't like it! it's one of the main reasons that i can't fit into like size 1 jeans. i have to much "junk in my trunk" that will have to be fixed, like immediatly. i don't like it at all! i want to fit size ones && zeros so badddd. so that way when people ask me what size at them i can smile when i say it. i mean everyone wears a 2/3. & it sucks cause it's just so closeeee to that 0/1, but no cigar.

#4-MY LEGS: so my legs hmmm, well not my entire leg just my thighs. i don't have a problem with my ankles cause i get told all the time that i've got skinny ankles and i like that =] && my calves have like no fat on them. they are bones && muscle. what i have a problem with are my enormous thighs! they are discusting! when i put my feet together, i do not want my legs to touch each other at all. [this looks great in skinny jeans by the way.] i want them to be as far as they can be away from eachother. i want them to have shape still but i just want them to be skinnier. like i don't want my calves and my thighs to be the same size cause then your legs look like hotdogs cause it's the same all the way down, i don't like that.


*sighhh* so i'm going to achieve these goals. my ending date will be the first day of winter track. which is sometime in november-ish i'm going to say. that would be the perfect time to put myself to the test. i want to be skinny but yet be able to run well. && i havent decided yet which one is more important to me.

INTAKE
breakfast: slept wayyy through.
woke up at 12 =]
lunch: a peach [60calories]
dinner: sdaofjasdflkasj!!! failed. taco salad form taco bell. going to blow someone's head off.

i'm going to stick taking in as little as possible esp. for the next month.

Currently Listening Hot Pink By Pink Spiders Modern Swinger see related

 you know you missed me.
it's really odd how people can change your mind.
wow, track really did it. track kept me away from ana.
but i keep coming back. and now it's in full swing.

oh god, it's happened again...