I cant believe it summer is over and school has already started. This summer was flippin amazzing....going 2 greece, going 2 the beach with julinaa and the houstons and meeting Seth<333 It was depressing going back to school, but at the beggining of the day it was so exciting getting 2 see everybody haha. I missed everyone so much but it sucked cuz i was always in a hurry somewhere so i could only just hug them and leave haha...i guess the real reason i didnt want summer 2 end cuz im afraid the memories will fade...sometimes i wish i could just go back and freeze time.

ok wow its been a long time since ive written in here. Yah well nm has really been going on. Yesterday i went to the movies with carter, freddy, steph and some other cool peoples. I cant believe this year is coming to an end, its gone by so fast and been filled with so many memories, some i wish i could erase, some i could never forget.

Freshmen Retreat- Probably one of my favorite memories at Gc so far. Sreph wass in my community and she introduced me 2 maddie, it was the three of us till we all went to the chapel. Then we were all assigned this project to write to our troops in Iraq, while me and maddie were trying to decide what to write all of a sudden we heard this huge rip, steph and torn aparat her card and this kid next to her couldnt stop laughing, his name was john. Then this guy in front of me started making fun of my drawing and we were freinds since his name was Nick, that day was so much fun we all got to know eachother and now couldnt wait for school 2 startFootball games- I could never forget my first footballl games...getting ready with Steph, Tiff and maddie meeting up with John and evan, shawn and pat always sitting on teh grass on teh opposite side, talking never ever really watching teh real games. I never missed a football game and im glad because i really would have missed out. Homecoming- I had a great time at Homecomign with John. Going to the Outback, meeting up with Evan aat the school, being attacked by the camera because of my mom. Favorite moment of that night was being caught by Mr. Handler, i could neer forget that amazing night, even though it never worked out with John, i always remember how happy i was that night.

My first sad memory at Gc- my best friend i had made so far had 2 leave- maddie, i couldnt stop crying that day she always told me she wanted to go to St. Andrews, i just didnt think it would happen so fast. But shes happy now and though i miss her more then anythign im glad shes happyMoved into my new study hallk- My 2nd of the 3rd study halls ive been in this yer, and this was def my favorite. Danny- wow it started off weird between the two of us, and now we are pretty much the best of friends. Sam- the only other girl in my study hall, wow she saved me so many times. Gary- me and sam persuade him 2 write love poetry, and i debaate with him over everything, writing stories about my life, wow good tiems. Stephen- the sweetest guy ive ever met, he was always there 2 help. Jim- though it didnt wwork out with us, he was always someone to talk 2. John- we got in trouble with Mrs. Boudreou every day and spent the whole tiem passing notes.Freddy- haha first time i ment him i heard his life story. man great times Flight plan- Started off just going with Molly, then we met up with Tony, Wes, Julianna and Reginga.Me and wes hit it off and it was the beginning of our 3 months 2gether.Mixer- Me and molly went 2 meet maddie because i promised the day she left that i would get her a ticket to the gc mixer! It was a fun night spendign it with them tony, wes, victoria and a lot of others. Our first mixer ever i could def never forget.I could never forget the day i thought Victoria was leving and i thought she would never be coming back. I coulnt believe someone else i had become so close 2 would never come back without any notice. She was my best freind and i couldnt deal with her leaving i was so happy that day in the caf and everyone started screaming, she was back and been filled with amazing times in religion class.Winter formal- haha julianna was pretty much my date for that ngiht, Got ready with her and spent the whole night playing with becah balls and just walking around having a good time i figure its better 2 go with a good friend then with a date. Blue lunches/Gold lunches- Haha i could never forget blue lunches with Juliaanna (Ethopia) and ALi (kibble and bits/ double mint) I loved our walks and our nicknaming games u girls are amazing. Also who could forget gol lunches with steph, victoria= life, ali, tony, john, liz, gary, john c, freddy, danny, jim, allie, david, man good times!!!

Even though through all the lost friendships, bad interms/report cards, and reltationships turned bad these memories will always stick for my first year at highschool!

I<3 THIS QUOTE

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something &wishing you hadn't? or saying nothing & wishing you had? i guess the most important things are the harded to say. don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. if you do, they might break your heart.. if you don't you might break theirs. have you ever decided not to become a couple cause you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? your heart decides whom it likes &whom it doesn't. you can't tell your heart what to do. it does it on it's own & when you least expect it, or even when you don't want it too. have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afriad to let you? too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much.. for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? we tell lies when we are afraid.. afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. but everytime we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. life is all about risks & it requires you to jump. don't be a person who has to look back &wonder what they would have done, or could have had

<<This scece was so sad...what is lucas gonna do without his uncle/bestfriend/ dad

 --- I miss Kieth so much :( made some oth videos also on you tube im me if u want 2 see them

I still miss myspace :( wow im a quote freak and i collected all these and i wanted 2 put them somewhere so yeah here they are!!

Dance like nobody's watching,
Work like you don't want the money
Love like you've never been hurt
Live like there's no tomorrow.
- Mark Twain

 Y0U KEEP TRYiNG S0 HARD T0 BE
EVERYTHiNG Y0UR N0T .. Y0U`LL MiSS
EVERYTHiNG Y0U WERE MEANT T0 BE

a friend that means the world to you. a friend that
you put all your trust & faith in. a friend that you belived
in from the start. a friend that took the center of your heart.
a friend that you'd die for. a friend that you wanted to cherish
for a lifetime.
a friend, a good friend, a best friend.

&& tonight
no tears will run
down her cheek
the girl`s in love.

love is like standing on wet cement  '
the longer you stay ;; the harder it is.              
to leave && you can never let go with                 
out leaving your foot prints behind <3

somewhere between laughing for no reason stupid
arguments, long talks && making fun of eachother we knew
we'd never stop being best friends

 Fate determines who enters your life ;;
your actions decide who stays

look at all the pictures of the past
thinkin of how the years went so fast
the dances - the parties - the pix - the laughs
the shoulders to cry on and cute photographs
the ppl i've known since way back when
the new kids came every now and then
the friendships you make come and go
but theres always those few you'll always know

play in the pouring rain, dance when there's no music, walk barefoot
in the sand, lay under the stars,
love like no other, share secrets with friends, laugh until
it hurts, && remember every minute of it

she’s scared  because
she’s finally realizing
how much he really means
to her

I never thought id risk the chance
of getting hurt again...but for some reason..
when im with you it all seems worth it

it's amazing how one day someone walks
into your life and then you can't
remember how you lived without them

And he said give me another chance
and she said why
and he said he promised things would be bettter
and they were...

so lets dance under the stars
kiss in the pouring rain
cuddle at the movies
&& stay together forever

you know you truly care
when you have to try and
convince yourself you don't..

If you don't take the
chance, you'll never know
how perfect something
could be

 
She broke up with him and he was heartbroken
He realized what he did was wrong..and wanted her back
she said she didnt love him anymore
but he said: the look in your eyes is a diffrent story

that`s what love is about.
recklessy hurting each other.
&& insanely loving each other

 Dont let anyone ever promise you that they won`t
ever hurt you because at one time or another it
will happen. The real promise is if the time you
spend together will be worth the pain in the end

 She said she hated him,
she listed all the things wrong with him in his mind
but when he came to her, begging for a second chacnce
she realized "O god i still love him."

says she hates you, she'll say she
never loved you. she'll say doesn't ever,
want you back but deep down inside  `'
the only possible way she could mean -
this is if her fingers we're crossed __ <3

Hold on to what you love
Stay true to what you know
take everything you dream of
and never let it go <3

As u grow up, you learn that even
the one person that wasn't supposed to let
u down probably will. You'll have your heart broken,
probably more than once, and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love
for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing so fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures,
laugh too hard, and love like you've never been hurt,
because every minute you spend mad or upset is a minute of happiness
that you'll never get back. <3

A true friend is someone who'll ALWAYS be
 there for you.They'll always be there to give you
a smile, to have a good cry,to give you a hug or to be
a shoulder to lean on when you scared.true friends are the ones
that'll skip the party to stay home with you when your parents won’t
 let you go, the ones that you can stay up all night & laugh till you cry,
or the friends you call when your home alone & keep on hearing scary noises.
True friends will ALWAYS be there for you

eventually well learn the differences
between holding hands
&& seriously falling in love
we'll learn that kisses
wont always mean something
promises will be broken
just as fast as they were made
&& sometimes good-byes
really are forever

N e V e R]
give up if you still want to try
[N e V e R]
wipe your tears if you still want to cry
[N e V e R]
settle for no answer
you still want to know
[N e V e R]
say you dont love him
if you cant let him go

Life is about trusting your feelings & taking chances...
losing & finding happiness...
Appreciating the memories & learning from the past
& realizing that people always change.

if we're meant to be with each other,

we will be with each other. maybe not now,

or tomorrow, but later, and i can promise you that.

oh yes the past can hurt,
But they way i see it, you
can either run from it, or
      learn from it.
                      - Lion King

there are moments when I can`t stand what we go
through. but then there are moments when I can`t
stand  the thought of     * [ not having you ]  * <33

time goes by so fast--people go in
and out of your life. you must never
miss the opportunity to tell these
people how much they mean to you

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances,
you just have to live life to the fullest. laugh as much as you can, spend all your money,
 tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dare to be different,
dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep
watching the sun come up, stay up late, && smile till your face hurts. don't be afraid
to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because when you
look back someday, knowing you have no regrets its going to be what makes you smile.

Memories are what we hold on to when everything seems to be changing

in the end, lifes all about
the hearts that were broken
the lessons that are learned
& the memories that came along

A womens heart is an ocean of secrets- titanic

*our laughs --»  LiMiTLESS
  *our memories --»  C0UNTLESS
 *our friendship --»  ENDLESS

Life is a mixture of sunshine && rain, laughter && tears,
pleasure && pain, work && play, so when the clouds hide

as we grow older things must change
but they don't always have to end.
even though it is different now, you
will always be my best friend

Love is something you can`t describe
Like the look of a rose
The smell of rain
Or the feeling of forever.

 there are things that you don't want to happen
but you have to accept
there are things you don't want to know
but you have to learn
& there are people you can't live without
but you have to let go
the sun and your skies are dull and grey,
just remember I am only one phone call away.

There’s a point in your life
when you realize who matters,
who never did,
& who always will

people say 'why do you still love him?'
and honestly, i don't know . but
theres just something about him and
i just can’t let him go

 but inside shes unhappy
& she doesnt know why. she lays in bad at night
& cries

Shes living the dream but things arent always what they seem

When people don’t express themselves,
they die one piece at a time.

and fate will only take to you
to a certain point after that
it's all up to you to make it happen

Im trying to find out if im in love with him
or if im just in love with love<3

they say school is supposed to educate you
well to be honest the only thing i've learned
is how to pretend like nothing's wrong

Nothing is forever, forever is a lie,
all we have is the time from hello to goodbye
you do what you gotta do, know what you know,
hang on until you can't anymore, & then learn to let go

it takes a silly girl to lie
about the dreams she has.
But it takes a lonely girl to wish
that she had never dreamt at all

You know it's changing & it's breaking your heart..
There's nothing you can do except watch it fall apart

Learn from your past, move on, grow
stronger.   People are fake,  and your
trust last longer.    Do what you have
to do; but always stay true && never
let anyone get the best of you

nothing hurts more than realizing two
people who were once the best of friends
barely speak a word anymore..

sometimes the ( two) people
that are ..meant to be..
are the last ones to realiize it

You can try to hide your feelings
But they won’t disappear
If they don’t go away
There’s a reason why they’re there

Sometimes people play hard to get, because they need to know the other person's feelings are real.
 - One Tree Hill –

People Change... yea i've heard that b4, but did u know that
includes people u thought u were gonna b friends w/4ever...
and that once sumthing happens that person turns in2 the exact person
 they use 2 hate, the exact person you still hate, and now what?

we go to school for thirteen years
& the one thing they never teach
us is how to say goodbye..

the hardest things bout growing up is
that you have to do what's best for you,
even if it means breaking someones
heart, i n c l u d i n g y o u r o w n<3

life is an oppurtunity - benefit from it
life is a beauty - admire it
life is a dream - realize it
life is a challenge - meet it
life is a duty - complete it
life is a game - play it
life is a promise - fulfill it
life is a sorrow - overcome it
life is a song - sing it
life is a struggle - acceot it
life is a tradgedy - confront it
life is a adventure - dare it
life is life - fight for it

"Our lives have taken us in so many directions since we
first became friends, and yet our friendship had remained a lasting
bond that keeps us from drifting too far apart. We've been there for each
other in good times and bad, with support and sympathy, laughter and love. As
I think about our friendship, I realize it is one of the things I cherish most about my life...
And today, I just wanted to make sure you knew it too."---Leah!

The biggest regrets in life are the chances you never take."

"I think i noticed when things started to change. the hugs were quicker,
 the phone calls shorter, and they weren`t everynight. we didn`t hurry to the
place where we said we`d meet. the "i love you's" felt more like a forced routine,
 and really had no meaning. when we saw eachother, the smiles weren`t as bright or as big.
our thoughts weren`t only of eachother. we seemed uninterested.
 we felt unloved. we had too many doubts."

  
"There is no such thing as failure.
Mistakes happen in your life to bring
into focus more clearly who you really are."
-oprah winfrey

"Have you ever heard a song from so long ago
with so many memories tied in to it that it made
you cry? & didn`t you wish you could go
back into time when everything seemed so much
simpler and carefree? those are songs that are
the soundtrack of our lives..the ones that bring back
childhood memories, best friends, first love, first hearbreak
& all the memories."

"In my opinion.. one of the worst feelings
in the world is wondering how things
could have - would have - should have been."

Always tell someone how you feel
mean wat u say [n] say wat u mean
even when its hard - - » because
opportunities are lost in a blink of
an eye * / * but regrets can last a
 . : L . i . F . e . T . i . M . e : .

& slowly as the years go on,
you lose friends, you never
thought you would

Through all our fights.
All of the laughs and jokes.
We have drifted apart.
And neither of us wanted this.
But new friends have come.
Oppinoins have changed...
and the bond between us has broken.
Even though we're not inseperable..
We will always have those memories.
And the parts of our pas we'll never forget.
Thats why I love to look back on what we had.
&; Be glad we shared something special.
Even if it didn't last.

 each & every day that passes,
i realize more & more that boyfriends
aren't all that important. it's the
best friends that REALLY matter.

 ll the r e m e m b e r whens : &
whats going on tonight ?
uncontrolable laughter : &
even stupid fights : but
nothing in this world could tear us apart :
you've become more than my best friend ;
your my sister * my heart <3

 
goodbye hurts more then anything
especially when deep down
you know you're never going to say
hello again

i could conquer the whole world
with one hand. as long as you
are holding [my o t h e r one]

We always use to say Best friends forever..
we said it with a meaning..
I mean afterall we grew up together..
We thought nothing could break us apart..
But a little less talking, a few less sleepovers..
And our daily phone calls missed..
Its obvious were slipping apart..
You once being the one I could trust..
The one I could tell anything to..
We were the ones who shared clothes..
Helped each other with stupid boys..
And we nearly did everything together..
Now we fight more..argue about more things..
And we barely talk..or barely see each other..
Yeah¡¦its inevitable..our friendship is slowly ending..

im so sick & tired of acting like i'm fine because t
ruthfully, im not. i cant even talk to you without being so incredibly sad.
 you were the one person who was always suppose to be there for me.
my best friend, my everything & you ruined it all in that moment & i acted like
 it didn't hurt for a while, i didn't think it did. but the tears are here &
 now i realize that it hurts more than anything in the world

As I look through these pictures,
I start to cry because I'am finally realizing times can fly by.
I can plan for the future but I can't change the past.
I just wish some of the moments I had would've last

Letting go doesn't mean your weak; it means your strong enough to let go

Letting someone go isn't a one-time-thing,
It's something you have to do everyday,
over and over again<|3

Letting go of you was the hardest
thing I've ever had to do..

I loved you,
I still do,
But it was time to let go

When you lose a part of yourself to
somebody you know, it takes a lot to
.._ L E T   G O.

One of the hardest parts of life
is deciding when to [ walk away ]
and when to [ try harder ] * <3

I HOPE iN THE END - -
WE CAN LAUGH && SAY
iT WASWORTHiT ...<3

live for today - pay for tomorrow because who knows
what could happen then. friend's leave. relationships
come and go. scars heal but the memories last forever <3

The first time you fall in love it changes
your life forever & no matter how hard
you try . That feeling never goes away.

I love you he whispered
& without hesitation
she turned & ran,
tears streaming down her eyes
she just couldnt take it anymore
she was sick of his lies.

Yes, losing your hearts desire is tragic, but gaining your hearts desire?
It's all you can hope for, this year i wished for love..to immerse myself in someone else
& to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted & if having that is tragic,
 then give me tragedy, because i wouldn't
 give it back for the world.. -- One Tree Hill --

o24.
A boy sits in his room. With unseen tears running down his face.
 Not about to end any time soon. He sits on his bed, and reaches under his pillow.
He pulls out that hidden notebook with the pages filled. Page by page he rips them out,
 the memories of her, good and bad. The only person he ever loved was this girl. He kept
tearing at the pages, trying to let the feelings go, trying to forget the girl who just s h a t t e r e d
his heart into pieces.       Not too far away from that boy's home. Sits a girl, all alone.
With music blaring and tears not heard. Her head is down, actions speak louder than words.
Her hair falls down, all over her face, so messed up so misplaced. Unheard tears streaming
 down her face, as if they will never end. She understands that things will never be the same.
 She takes out her notebook and a pen. Starting to write of anythign that comes to mind.
She tries not to think about the boy...because the only pain worse then having your heart broken
...is breaking your own.

 To truely love is to have the courage to walk away & let the
one who wishes to be free go, no matter how much it hurts..

They pass each other in the halls,
as if nothing was ever there.
But they both know that those memories will never be forgotten

Y0U'RE iN MY HEARt
WitH0Ut AN END. Y0U'RE
MY SiStER, MY LiFE, &
MY BESt FRiEND

The fate of your heart is your choice,
& no one else gets a vote.
* This Lullaby *

Thanks for being there when I was down. Thanks for showing me the
right way in life. Thanks for giving me the courage I need. Thanks for
loving me the special way you always do. & thank you for bein my best friend

In my opinion.. one of the worst feelings
in the world is wondering ;;
how things could have - would have - should have been.

here's a little something that everybody should know...it's okay to
 hold on but eventually you just gotta let go