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Name: GABRiELLe`
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Gwinnett
Birthday: 3/30/1989


Interests: God, Theatre, God, Theatre, Singing, Meeting new people, planning events, Doing hair, God, Acting, Taking pictures, pretending I'm a rock star while I thrash around my house, Making movies and writing scripts, writing in general(Like stories and things.), Debating&Winning, Making things, cooking, eating, eating, eating, dreaming, day dreaming, Walking around my house in outlandish clothing no one in their right mind would wear (Nothing naughty. :D ), Music, music, andddd MUSIC. :D
Expertise: Oh, I'm good at everything, dollface. ;]
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

Words are very unnecessary

Yes.

It seems to be the theme of the week, and many things have served as a catalyst for this....but...Actions DO speak louder than words. Don't say I'm you're friend. Show me. Don't tell me you love me. Do it. I don't care about your words. If you can't follow through, you have no business harvesting powerful words like that in the bowels of your mouth waiting for the moment to say it. It should come natural to do and say. Your apathy truely contradicts your words.

And before I say anything else. Don't take this as an emo post. I'm not sad. Don't get it twisted.

I've decided...People have got to start looking up. I know...I should be the LAST one to talk. But today...we were talking about senior superlatives and who would win what. This girl was talking about best smile and how she wanted to be it but she'd never win. Truth be known...she could win...she has a gorgeous smile. However...she never shows it. She's so wrapped up in wallowing in her misery that she never shows her smile. And ironically, she's always sad about no one ever noticing her. I must admit...I don't really have any desire to go up to someone who always has a frown on their face....and I realized I was thinking about myself. Lol. Plus. So what if life is unfair? Who ever said it would be fair? Just because it's not, doesn't mean anyone needs to go moping about. Work with what you've got and it'll get better. I'm sure. I've done it too much...it's lame and it doesn't make you feel better.

And what's with everyone trying to DENY the fact that they're two faced? EVERYONE is two faced deep down whether they like it or not. Yes, you too "Mr./Mrs./Miss. Holier Than Thou", You too. I go to a good friend of mine and vent to her about you; then I go up to you and talk and treat you like a friend. That makes me a bad person? No.You vent too AND I've seen evidence that you're just as two faced as me. Also, if I vent to someone about how I can't STAND a certain someone...and then they come up to me and try to make small talk and you're waiting for me to put my hand in their face and tell them I don't want to hear it...don't hold your breath. It's called common curtesy and manners. Mmmk? And on a more general note, just because you don't say something, doesn't mean you don't feel that way. What's the harm or difference in venting about how much you dislike the way a certain someone always treats you like dirt in comparison to others and thinking it in your head? If you have someone to do that with that you trust, it's basically the same thing. And I trust the person I vent to. I trust her a lot. Spreading malicious rumors that aren't true...or that are, is a different story. However, merely VENTING doesn't. And the fact that most people like to persuade OTHER people into hating someone they hate makes it a pseudo hate for the person being swayed, because if you'll look at exhibit A, you'll see that when you try and persuade others to hate your enemies...they will briefly and then when they're in the presence of that SAME enemy...things change and they're friends or nice. Don't get mad. When they were with you it not impossible that they were simply sympathizing with you. Flase feelings due to persuasion only last temporarily. Kind of like going to see a scary movie. You're scared when you're in the movie and when you first get home and that night...but after a week or sometimes a day...it's out of sight and out of mind. When they're with them, they see that that person has done nothing to them and they have no reason to dislike them just because YOU do. Don't pick your friend's friends. If you feel ever so inclined to hate the person because your friend does because they hurt your friend and that's a blow to you, then that's fine. You're a good friend and I'm not knocking that. However, don't try and do that whole... bad friend by association thing. Seriously.

All charges against you have been dropped on the accusations of you being two faced...and I mean the sneaky...mean...lying...backstabbing...gossiping...excluding...using...fair wheather...making-fun-of-when-they're-not-there-to-defend-themselves kind.. I don't care anymore. I'm stopping. If you try and get someone in trouble...someone that you call your friend...Shame on you. Karma's on speed dial and you just pressed the button. She's on her way, I need not waste my time.

 

Stop being lame.

Stop holding grudges.

Stop holding peoples mistakes against them. They're flawed. Yes, you've made it painfully obvious for everyone. But, what's this? So are you. The past is the past. Stop looking back.

Stealing=Lying=Twofaced=Mean=Bullying=Superiorizing yourself=Excluding=THE SAME DAMN THING.

Your bad is no better than their bad is not better than the next person's bad.

And as a side note. Get a friend like mine. I can trust her when I need to vent and she usually feels the same way. Even if she doesn't, we're honest with each other and help each other and don't let the other get too off track and I love her. :D . Lonelieness leads to gossip. If you don't have a friend you can trust to tell all the bad things too, you'll tell anyone.


Monday, April 24, 2006

I'm so tired.

I feel like I'm constantly on watch for something that'll never come. I'm waiting for things to start looking up. My social life is getting better...like I'm trying to communicate more to my friends instead of ignoring them. Lol...I want to go out with my friends...I like having fun. And I always seem to when I'm with them but I don't know what keeps stopping me from hanging out with them more than at school. They're so great to be around...most of them at leat.

 

I need to build different relationships with other people. I think I stick with most people because I think they'll come around. Chances are they won't. That's okay. They can be stuck in their ways doing the wrong thing to come up....but I won't be here anymore. Sorry. :D You can start making an effort to be my friend now instead of stepping all over nerves to get to be friends with other people.

 

So I'm trying to be not so weird anymore...Yeah. That ship has sailed a long time ago.

Geez. I'm still tired from wrestling around with Ryan, Darin, Gerhardt, and Abba. Well not really with Abba. I mainly tried to help her get her shoe back. The me and Ryan danced around to the faux jazz porn music that the tech lady was using to demonstrate with. But that's another story.

Anyway.

Anyone want to hang out...some day..soon? YES?!

Yes. :D


Friday, April 21, 2006

Let me not to the marriage of true minds admit impediments

Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds

Or bends with the remover to remove

Oh no! It is an ever fixed mark that looks upon the tempest

and is never shaken

It is the star to every wandering bark

Who's worth's unknown, although his height be taken

Love's not times fool though rosey lips and cheeks

within his bending sickle's compass come

Love alters not with it's brief hours and weeks

but bears it out to the edge of doom

And if this be error....and upon me proved

I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

 

And fade to black.

-Sigh-

 


Thursday, April 20, 2006

SO yeah.

 


Sunday, April 16, 2006

&Que Tears

So, I think it's time for a good cry.

It's like no matter how much I cry...which has been a lot lately..for some reason...I haven't got it all out of my system and I can't figure out what's bothering me to make me want to cry at the drop of a hat. Maybe it's my raging hormones (FREAKING GROSS) or whatever. This isn't a depressing "ly life sucks" kinda post...just a...weird one. Besides the fact that my GPA is slipping with my grades, my relationships with my friends could be better, and I feel really lost as far as what I want to do in life after high school...besides all of that..I still feel like there is something wrong...but I'm pretty sure it has to do with my grades and GPA...also...I'm having really bad health problems...like I've been feeling terrible plain in certain spots...like my lower back and the right side of my stomach and in the palm of my hand. My stomach has been hurting a lot lately also...I don't know what's wrong with me but I would really, really like to find out.



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