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| I was better for a while. Anorexia had finally left me. But now, it's back, and getting stronger. My new plan for everyday:
Eat 1 salad. 3 cokes a day (unless diet)
At a horrible 133. |
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| i've been eating more so i can finally get my period. the pain is just too much. i'm failing myself still though, and it really sucks. 130. :-\ |
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| i'm really feeling like shit. and i hate guys.
"You can't really understand being a guy though, guys in general are really really visual, and I'm very visual, and of course I'm going to notice attractive women sometimes, but that doesn't mean I want to run off and cheat on you with them, but I do have a penis, and I don't see you nearly as much as I want to, so off course there are urges sometimes, I'm not going to lie to you and say there aren't, and anyone who does say that to a girl probably is lying. But I'm in love with you Aly, and I would never ever cheat on you. If you really can only be happy with someone who doesn't even ever notice what other people look like, then you don't want a human."
i don't want a human. and i'm tired of trying to mold him into what i want. i just want a guy to think i'm the hottest person in the world. he says i am, but it's never really believable. so i'm going to starve myself until i die and see what he says about me then. |
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| i hate myself.
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