as u reach for one last smoke u realize this lifes a joke is this all thats left for me ? this utter pain and missery first to smile last to cry flames dripping form the shores pain bruing in the souls aroma of cancer sticks smell of real love my father forgot me once in kindergarden so after about an hour of waiting i walked home i was scared all alone never done it before but i made it safely this was before i had the keys to the house so i took a nap on the pourch and a few hours later i hear his truck pull up before i have a chance to stand im in his arms hes crying and says he was looking all over the school for me he had gotten stuck at work and told me never to do that to him again but to wait in the office he held my close and i remember the tears and the smell of cowboy killers on his clothes i told him it was nothing not letin him know how terrorfied i was but in his arms i know he loved me real, true love he never forgot me again | 
