The update is coming, sorry its been so long.

So, the other night I'm with my best friend, her.. boyfriend  i guess, and this kid named zach. We are sitting in the Walmart parking lot because thats all there is to do in this town besides getting drunk. So we were sober, in the parking lot.. Sean pulls up, im pretty happy and stuff, 11:11 wish came true.. you know, that kinda thing. Zach asks what Seans been up to, sean says dont worry about it and we go on with the night. Well the next night we go to the movies with the best friend, the boyfriend, me and sean. We're in Wall E and Sean goes, do you want to know what i really did last night? "yea sure", he says ive been talking to my ex girlfriend... in my mind im saying, ok they did date for a while, thats understandable. he shows me a text she just sends him saying "Yay! birth control made it feel so much better" i said what the hell. he starts laughing and i say your an ass, dont talk to me. he was like bec calm down, it was a joke. I dont talk to him for like 10 minutes, I cant stay mad at anyone, especially especially him. so i ask him if she was serious, he says no, she was kidding they just like messing with her boyfriend. im like ok, whatever. he wraps his arm around me and i lean on his shoulder, hold hands... that kinda thing. After the movie we get in the truck and i tell him im sorry for being mad, and hes like no its ok. so we're riding around and im like i really am sorry, i feel bad. and he says i understand why you were confused, here i've been with you alot lately, then i show you that. i was like exactly, i dont know what to believe. and he said well i dont have any reason to lie to you, it didnt happen. i say ok, i know it shouldnt bother me since we arent dating or anything, but i really do worry about things your doing sometimes, because when im with you everything feels so right and im terrified of that feeling.

So idk what im supposed to believe.
His best friend is my best friend's... boyfriend i guess, and he said that Seans not a good kid by any means, he's got into his share of trouble, but he's definitely not an asshole, and he said that Sean wouldnt hurt me because seeing me hurt would hurt Taylor, and then Taylor being hurt would hurt him, and since it all leads back to sean, he would be the one getting hurt worse. I love my friends, they're always looking out for me =] 

Anyways, there will be an update soon... probally tomorrow.
There were barely any subscribers this one though, so that needs to get up please =]

thanks.

  well, my best friends gone. I havent seen sean in like foreverr, but we are hanging out next week, which im wayy excited for =]

Comment & Subscribe....

1.

all i'm really asking for is that you'll
kiss me in the rain, hug me from
behind, give me your hoodie sometimes,
and be my everything <3

2.

Just promise me you won't hurt me.
Tell me you love me, and can't live without me.
I know it'll all be a lie.
But it'll feel good while it lasts.
(c) xStillCaringx

3.
Fine; I`ll admit it:
I think of you every second of every day
you`re my favorite subject to talk about.
when I hug you I wish I was allowed to never
let you go. most of my dreams have you in them.
I always get excited when I get to see you again.
& I`ve completely & totally fallen for you

4.

There's a shine in your eyes, & a twinkle in your smile.
I should probably let you know, I want you around for awhile.

5.

The best friends are the ones that you
don't have to talk to everyday, who understand
why you didn't take their advice to not call
him or why you keep going back to him again.
The ones who call you at 4am to let you know
they're drunk, who listen when they've heard
the same story a thousand times, the ones who
call just to say hi. & whether you're dancing
on the table or passed out drunk, they'll turn
and say, "hell yeah, that's my best friend."

[that describes us definitelyy =) ] 

6.

he has the most adorable eyes I
could ever fall for and the cutest
smile. he has the ability to make
me laugh everytime he speaks
and takes my [ b r e a t h a w a y ] 

7.

He's loud and he's truthful,
and he sees more in her than
she's comfortable admitting to.

8.

The best moments in reading are when you come across
something, a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things
that you'd thought special, particular to you. & here it is,
set down by someone else, a person you've never met,
maybe even someone long dead. & it's as if a hand has
come out & taken yours.

9.

Sometimes when you're around I can't breathe. not because I
don't know what to say, but it's
like you give me this overwhelming
feeling and I admit, I love it

10.