Sorry Sorry Sorry its taken me soo long to update! I just never have the time any more... but i hope you enjoy this one --

suck on my fingertips
until you kill all my prints
so your girlfriend has no clue
of how much i've been touching you.

crisp leaves,
coffee shops,
and long,
plaid scarves
autumn winds,
photographs,
and starry nights.
our hands laced together 
and you squeezing me tight
i can't remember a fall ever feeling so right.

and i've become content
with this life that i lead,
where i drink to much
and don't believe in much of anything,
and i lie to myself,
and say it's for the best,
we're moving forward,
but holding ourselves back,
and we're waiting
on something that will never come

Condoms are cheaper than guns;
make love not war.

After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here’s what I've decided: there's no such thing as a grown-up. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own. But the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us....We get bigger, we get taller, we get older. But, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in.

You know it's love when the tiny details
about another person.. the ones that seem
insignificant to most people seem
incredible and magnificent to you.

look in my eyes. if you think that i'll let you go... you're out of your mind

Life is an awful, ugly place
to not have a best friend

it's over.

and i want you to be with me.

++

you can stay if you want to,
and i'll write to you and tell you how
you've always been so special to me.
you can stay if you want to,
and I'll try.



no i don’t know to hold you
without shaking.
no i’m not aware of how i could possibly
love you
without aching.



if it’s not too late for coffee,
i’ll be at your place in ten.
we’ll hit that all-night diner
and then we’ll see

my eyes find your smile
and in those moments,
it's ours,
the sky and everything
it's holding.

hop the wooden fence,
run past the sleeping hens
if you had any sense,
you'd meet me here at dawn.

and i said:
"your so cold,
i can hear it when you breathe."
and this house is the same
every time  you leave.

there's so much i want to know about you
as the questions flood into my head,
but all i can say is "goodnight"
for i can't bring myself to get closer
when your so far away



sitting here counting the hours
waiting for the sun to kiss the sea
paralyzed by the fragrance of the flowers
they remind me of you and me

she's gonna make it and he never will
he's at the foot of the mountain
and she's over the hill
he's sinking at sea
and her sails are filled
she's gonna make it, and he never will

we can go for months without talking,
days without seeing,
and at the end of the day,
it'll still be me on your mind,
even though you're with her
it's the spark you're missing.
the one you have with me.

last night,
when the room and your mood was dipping
and last night,
when the ropes were pulling you in,
you said,
"Hey, how could you love me this way?"
you said,
"Hey, but I think we're all ready."
i think we're all ready

haven't laughed this hard in along time.
i better stop now before i start crying.
go off to sleep in the sunshine.
i don't want to see the day when it's dying.

crisp leaves,
coffee shops,
and long,
plaid scarves
autumn winds,
photographs,
and starry nights.
our hands laced together 
and you squeezing me tight
i can't remember a fall ever feeling so right.

so just go and talk to someone you really adore.
i'm getting pretty used to being
the one you always ignore
when somebody wants you
i've seen it before.




what i used to be
will pass away.
and then you'll see
that all i want now is happiness
for you and me.



suck on my fingertips
until you kill all my prints
so your girlfriend has no clue
of how much i've been touching you.

time trickles down
and i'm breathing for two.
squeeze so tightly.

i thought the way that he moved meant the
way that he tasted, i could rip the seams
right through his lips. a captivating experience
that left me here with that intoxicating
kiss.

let's start out by starting over.
what did i expect? you're no good
at lying and i'm no good at comebacks.

colors invading sight. i think i've found my new
a d d i c t i o n
tonight.

Teenage love songs,
there isn't such a thing
cause fucking is only fucking
when you're just sixteen.

Fate of elegance,
Cold hearted whore,
Your salting my wounds
Yeah you enjoy nothing more
I bleed confidence
Deep within my guts
Now I'm the king of this party
With my jewel encrusted crown.

Well, what am I supposed to think?
You're like the king of mixed signals.
One day you can't stand me.
The next day you can't get enough of me.

i don't need company
in the company of you
i don't need love
cause your love will do
and i've got you
and you've got me
and that's all we need

maybe we were made,
we were made for each other
is it possible for the world
to look this way forever?

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

I wanna overdose on his kiss
Leaving me like this
Will you be my drug, drug?
Yeah, be my drug, drug

The stars, they lay across the sky so perfectly
They remind me of
All the times, when we used to sit underneath them, those summer nights
And fall in love <3

Shes scared because she’s finally realizing
How much he really means to her <3'

My heart is breaking.
I'm lying here.
My thoughts are choking
On you my dear.

im so over being blue, crying over you.

if the world runs out of lovers
we'll still have each other.

Why be alone when we can be together baby?
You can make my life worthwhile,
I can make you start to smile.

you may not remember, but that night when all
we did was lay there & you brushed the hair
out of my eyes. that was the night
i fell in love with you.

all the things you'll never remember
are all the things i bet i'll never forget

its the little things that count.
like the way you make me laugh,
the way you keep tickleing me after
i tell you not to,
because you know i really like it.
the way i can just lay with you
and its not akward at all.
the way i could look into your eyes all night
the way i find my lost half, in you.

walk a little closer to me
feel my heart beat
i'll show you who i really am
you'll be on the edge of your seat

i've been searching for an unexisting happiness.
i've been looking in all the wrong places.
trying too hard to get your attention.

Once again, I find myself trying to be okay
with the fact that we're just friends,
but then you grab my hand and then,
well, I'm not okay, I'm floating.

My computer has been down... i'm so sorry. right now i'm at the public library. eck! lol...

but you can expect a lot more updates from me! comment... <3

Here's to the nights that turned into mornings & the friends that turned into family.

& Something has to be right about us being together because if it wasn't... I don't think I would feel the way that I do when you hold me.

You drink to laugh & you drink to cry.

Heartbroken && softpspoken. So go on baby, walk right past me... I'm used to it.

The runway lights are the deepest blue like the colors of your eyes. So close them tight and kiss me one last time.

so here we lie in this beautiful mess
of tangled sheets and beads of sweat.
with my heart in your hand
and my neck in the other,
should i be scared or
should i come closer?
but it's still beating and i'm still breathing.
you haven't hurt me yet.

&& this right here
is the exact reason
i never gave up on you
when everyone said
to just stop trying

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling as you drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And, I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down

Aren't you so romantic.
Telling everyone how hopeless in love you are.
Wearing your heart on your sleave.
Darling, you're an excuse to get hurt

Lets put on a show for everyone too see
i love you and you love me
when everyone leaves the masks comes off
& we become strangers all over again

&& i found myself thinking
you were almost sincere

& this bed could use a secret and these
pounding hearts could keep it

& this is so hypocritical
but you don't see us doing
anything about it, do you?

If you're stomach feels weak, then my work here is done.

you have enemies?
good. it means you have
stood up for something
in your life.

& after a while the jokes arent funny anymore |
there's nothing left to smile about | everyone begins
to look the same | lovers. lose .their passion | friends
become enemies, and the life we once knew . is gone

yeah so CONGRATULATIONS
-- you broke my heart

being happy doesnt mean
everythings perfect
it means you've decided to
look past the imperfections

if DRAMA was VODKA
everybody would be wasted.

she said "Where have you
been my whole life?" &&
he said," Looking for you."

lets hold eachother..
&& make everybody jealous
of our fantasy world

lets slow dance & be the couple
everybody wishes they could be;
lets look at the stars & kiss all
night, lets take it slow & then
speed it up... Lets take stupid
pictures && laugh till we cant breathe;;
lets be forever just
Y O U & M E

lets slow dance & be the couple
everybody wishes they could be;
lets look at the stars & kiss all
night, lets take it slow & then
speed it up... Lets take stupid
pictures && laugh till we cant breathe;;
lets be forever just
Y O U & M E

Someone should sue Disney
for planting the ideas in little kids's
heads that every girl has a prince
& everything ends up happily ever
after..

&& she's just a stupid little
little girl with her hopes too high
& feelings much to strong
especially for a boy like him

such a charming, beautiful exterior
laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
with perfect posture, but your barely scraping by.

but she cant fake it hard enough to please everyone

The most incredible feeling?
Knowing that I made you happy

Sugar and caffeine all around.
A.D.D for all the masses.
Heroin needles taken from the ground,
And we're sinking into the molasses.
New emotions leave my arms sore.
Candy tangs my willing lips.
A lollipop and I don't love you anymore
And I'm lost for a few more acid trips.

I look at you
&& motherfuckingassholeihopeyoufuckingdie
comes to mind

You're nothing short of my everything.

She's just the typical teenage girl..
angry, insecure, && confused.
I'd tell her that things will be okay..
but I don't want to lie to her

Dont you ever feel like...
If you were prettier...
Life would be easier?

&& i'm listening to all these sad love songs
because every single one of them
remind me of how much you hurt me.

it's a saturday night
&& she's all alone
she's hoping for the day
he'll be calling her on the phone
but night after night
she keeps waiting for that call
while the only thing that
will keep her company
is his picture on the wall

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me...

Oh, we're still so..
YOUNG;;
desperate for attention

put the lies down,
let's hear you say
what you really mean

We're too cool for love and romance, baby.
We don't need to spend a night under the stars,
or a bed with scattered rose petals.
Who needs a candle lit dinner, when you've got a drive-thru
and a back seat?
Because that's what we are, beautiful, we're the epitome of backseat lust.

Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings, always darker, emptier, and simpler.

&& he said:
you`re cynical & beautiful.
you always make a scene.
you`re monochrome delirious.
you`re nothing that you seem.
i`m drowning in your vanity..
your laugh is a disease.
you`re dirty && you`re sweet.
you know you`re everything to me.
& i want to tear down at your defences..
til there`s nothing there but me..
you`re beautiful when you`re angry..
your love is such a tease.
i`m drowning in your dizzy noise.
i wanna feel you scream.

You gasp for air. I'll see this through,
I'll see through you, your pale blue eyes.

and the softest smiles
turn to concrete

        love is kind. it                                does not envy,
         it does not boast, it                     is not proud. it is not
       rude, it is not self-seekinq,       it is not easily angered, it
     keeps  no records of wrong.   love does not deliqht  in evil
     but rejoices with the truth. it always protects  and   trusts,
      always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails. when i
       was a child , i talked like a child, i thought like a child, i
         reasoned like a child. when i became a woman, i put
              childish  ways behind  me . now we see but  a
                poor reflection, as in a mirror; then we shall
                  see face to face.  now i  know in  part;
                    then i shall know fully, even as i am
                       fully known . and now  these
                           three remain; faith, hope
                               and love . but  the
                                    greatest   of
                                        these  is
                                          love.

there's something i need to tell you.
i love you, you know that i do, but..
i am just scared of so many things.
i am scared of feeling this way, &
i am scared of being so vulnerable.
but most of all, i am really scared of
[ l . o . s . i . n . g * y . o . u . ]

if he`s the first thing you think of when you wake
up, the only thing you think of when your awake,
& the last thing you think of when you sleep, then
he is really something special..'`* <3


I saw him the other day for the first time in months.
I mean, I've seen him recently, but today i really saw him.
me looking at him, him looking at me, right in the
eyes & straight to the heart. & i could feel it,
i could feel him, & it was amazing. It's there between us.
I just wish he wasn't too afraid to see it



i am crying .. apart of me is dying .. & these are ..these are the confessions 0f a broken heart- lindsay lohan

a [s h a t t e r e d] heart hits the floor
&& the guy who did it walks -o u t- the door < / 3


you know im such a fool for you you've got
me wrapped around your finger.. <3


if you're not willing to
[   risk      it      all`  ]
then  you  don't want
it      bad enough ..



nobody understands how much i miss you. miss
how much we used to talk and miss all the things
we used to do. i try not to admit it to myself that
i still feel this way. nobody knos that i still wake
up think`n of you each day... i still think of you n
i really do miss you. i would give up everything i
have to be everything that we`re not


youu`re the one & i know it`s true
i`ve never felt a love so strong & pure.
that feeling when i`m in your arms. that
chill that goes up and down my spine
everytime youu say 'youu`re mine'.
your smile that lights up my day. in
my dreams, you`ll never go away
in my life i hope youu`ll forever stay.

You had me crawlin' so bad; got

me heels over head; you had me

easy. it`s too late to go back; to

realize what we had; we were

a l r e a d y b e a u t i f u l. «|3



Break my heart; make me remember why I’m so untrusting.



i'm sure you've heard these words before,
& i know it's hard for you to trust them once more.
You're afraid it all might end, & a broken heart is
scared of breaking again. But you've gotta believe
me ; i'll never leave you. You'll never cry as long
as i'm there, and i'll always be here.. <3



guys like you are reasons that girls fall in love



Go right ahead, rip my heart out, stomp on it
and throw around, punch it, smash it into a
million pieces then ask me if im ok


Everyone hates hearing me talk about you..
&& all of my friends call me s t u p i d for wanting to be with you.
they tell me that i can do a hundred times better than you.
but nobody understands how much i truely c a r e  f o r  y o u




don't know the exact moment when it hit me, maybe that's because it's always hitting me. i was sitting downstairs and i couldn't stop thinking of you and as i kept thinking about you my stomach actually flip-flopped and then i thought about what my life would be without you, remembered what my life was like when i thouight i'd lost you forever. and i felt sick to my stomach. bottom line? i'm crazy about you.




Memories :: No matter how hard
you try to erase them .
they never disappear. <3



she'll hold her head up high even
if her thoughts are way down low



I want a love that will be my sunshine through the bad weather...
a boy that'll take my heart and make it all better <//3







You know life is worth the struggle when you look back on what
you lost and realize what you have now is way better <3


 I wanna be his favorite hello and his hardest goodbye.<3


After all is said and done, I still think you're amazing. I still cherish every moment I spent with you, every smile you brought to my face. I'll be forever thankful that someone like you was brought into my life, even if you had to be taken away too soon. See, you were my
miracle. you were the fairytale I got to live. <3


you can't lie to your heart ..
no matter how hard you try


“since we have been together.. i have felt more uncomfortable, out of place,
embarrassed & physically sick then i have been in my entire life. but i could not have gone through that, i could not have thrown up 19 times in 48 days, if i was not in love with you”
+ ALONG CAME POLLY ;;


i rather fight with you than
have sex with anyone else <3
1121 <3


 i dont stop breathing everytime the phone rings
my heart don`t race when someones at my door'
ive almost given up thinkin your ever gonna call
i [ d o n `t] believe in magic a n y m o r e



the best kind of kiss is the un-expected;;` unplanned
ones that come naturally. like, in the middle of a sentence ..<



TAKE YOUR SWEET SWEET TIME
(( i'll be here for you baby anytime ))