RADxQU0TEZ's Xanga

Friday, April 13, 2007

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 20:52:26 GMT

just got back from the hospital.. really tense right now; so id figure id post some quotes to get it out of my system..

you're not best friends with someone if you "gossip" about boys,
wear your hair the same, have matching flip-flops, or because
you can recite each others wardrobes;;
best friends means when she smiles, you always know why,
when she cries, you can feel her pain & cry with her,
& no matter how many times people have betrayed you,
she has all of your trust. no matter what.

i dont care if i dont wear the things you do,
i dont care if i cant trust those i used to with my life,
i dont care if i speak my mind while you keep it inside,
i dont care if i dont live up to 'your standards',
i dont care if you dont like me.
ive stopped living life the way you want me to.
sorry; but ive found better things i need to do.

she cant believe the same people that used to
be called her 'best friends', now were her
worst nightmare.

i hope your life eventually takes
a new direction;
because the path your on now
will lead you nowhere.

people dont realize that life-changing things
really are life-changing.
it never goes away, it never leaves your mind,
its with you in everything you do,
& everywhere you go, its something that
stays with you forever; whether you want it to
or not.

i cant get back up on my own
i cant help that im too weak
but your fake support is old;
your 'comfort' always bleak

..wrote all of those, give cred where cred is needed.
whatever, leave comments.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 16:19:43 GMT

ugh, sorry..
i know its been a while
but ive been busy with the lyt site
& everything..
thinking about quiting this one
actually.. juss cause
its a cycle of quotes &
its not really as fun as it used to be

i might start a new one
only with poems by moi
but im not too sure on that idea
cause i dont like people
reading what i write..
too personal; dont ask..

blah, tell me what you think<3

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 02:07:56 GMT

SUBSCRIBEE<3

[1]
truthfully;
we might as well be strangers..

[2]
part of going for what you want
is losing something else

[3]
when your life falls apart
remember ill always be there
to pick up the pieces.

[4]
heres the truth about the truth;
it hurts; so we lie..

[5]
i want to be the kind of girl
that leaves an everlasting impression..
i dont want to be the type you'll forget in a week<3

[6]
she types "ill be okay"
as tears run down her face..

[7]
you're the reason i gave up
but also the reason i held on as long as i did

[8]
keep your head up;;
there are people that would kill
to see you fall.

[9]
theyre the kind of friends
that if my house was burning down
theyd be making smores &
hitting on the firemen

[10]
im not broken anymore..
ive moved up to damaged

[11]
you have such a pretty smile;
its a shame the things you hide behind it.

[12]
the reason shes so strong
is the same reason shes so vulnerable</3

[13]
its so hard to fix what you broke
& even though it was years ago
i still feel it when i cry around you..

[14]
youre waiting for someone
to put you together
youre waiting for someone
to push you away
theres always another wound to discover
theres always something more you wish hed say..

[15]
we were all given this life
because we're strong enough to live it.

Monday, January 29, 2007

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 22:02:33 GMT

obstacles are put in our way
to see if what we want is
really worth fighting for..

everyone gave up on her
so she finally decided to give up on people..

in the end.. everyone becomes
the person they swore theyd never be</3

judge me; ill prove you wrong.
tell me what to do; ill tell you off.
say im not worth it; watch where i end up.
call me a bitch; ill show you one.
screw me over; ill do the same, but worse.
call me crazy; you have no idea.

she just has a broken heart
that the world forgot..

should i trust my heart or my mind?
why is truth so hard to find?

sorry there arent alot;; more tomorrow maybe

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 23:32:01 GMT

like every moment and love every day cause before you know it,
precious time slips away..

failure is divided into two classes: those who thought and never did and those who did and never thought.

they get me smiling even when it hurts;;
nothing measures to what true friends are worth.<3

11:12;
11:12;
11:12;

maybe there's a reason you always miss it..

just once i want to be the one someone looks at different than the others.
i want to be the one someone cant stop thinking about.
i want to be the one someone loves with all their heart & lets me know it.
i just want to be the one.
--muah

i do forgive, but i won't forget..
i hope you know you've lost my respect.

if you always walk with your head down
you'll never see the beauty in the sky<3

it was sad, because i realized that once certain people
are broken in certain ways, they just can't be fixed..

& i'm sorry for blaming you for everything i just couldn't do..

girls are like phones;
they like to be held, talked to,
& if you push the wrong buttons
you'll get disconnected.
:]

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Saturday, January 20, 2007

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 01:07:08 GMT

knowing is better than wondering
waking is better than sleeping
& even the biggest failure
beats the hell out of never trying.

she looked at the night sky
& realized how much things change..

it's one of those days again,
when music is your only friend.

hm.. so quotes are getting sucky on xanga anymore.
so heres some little tid-bits of my poetry
that ill put on here for your liking. :]
please please pleasee give credit if you take them.
like i said, theyre my poetry, which i love with a passion.

one voice, one sound
is all you pray to hear
"i love you & i miss you,
i wish to hold you near"..

this paper bleeds of pen
& my clouds have all turned gray
i tell people that im fine-
but i lie everyday

i walk away from tragedy
like its nothing to me
but the truth is shes everything
that ill never be

she laughs & she smiles
but its just all an act
shes just trying so hard
to hold it all back

feel the blood, soak it in
weeping willows cry of sin
freezing air, broken hearts
some lives happy, some falling apart

dark gloomy rooms with shadows things cast
the old squeeky floorboards werent noisy in the past
this house seems as quiet & lonely as i
its simple things that hurt the most, like saying goodbye

like i said; credit pleasee.

<33

Friday, December 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 00:32:03 GMT

only 146 subscribers?? =[
come on guysss =D

she's an artist;
painter actually..
see that 'smile' on her face?
well it's her most famous piece.

right now is what matters;
not tomorrow, not yesterday,
not 20 years from now..
what matters is right now.
-muah

don't deprive anyone of hope- it may be all they have.

&& i know it sounds confusing..
but at that moment, i just wanted to
walk out of the room i was in,
sit down in the middle of the hallway,
& cry. just cry.
-muah

the difference between physical attraction & love
is the ability to see the same person at their best
& at their worst and still desire them
without one false step..<3

all it took for me to finally realize
who was always there for me..
was for my whole life to completely fall apart
to really know who was there to put it back together..
-muah

she lies in the grass staring up at the sky
wondering what happened to her life

one of the biggest mistakes you can make is to
drift apart from someone you once had
the time of your life with.

lets make a thousand & one more memories.
tell me what youre thinking.
let me in. let it all out.
tell me your problems & ill just listen.
confort & support me & ill do the same for you.
because thats just what best friends do.
-muah

screw everyone i thought i knew
screw everyone i thought was true
-muah

rock bottom is when you've had it up to here,
you're mad enough to scream, but sad enough to tear..

the saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions:
could have, might have, and should have.

<33

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 21:07:11 GMT

sorry for the lack of updates..

but yea i had 3 more seizures on thanksgiving & school's just been a nightmare =/

but here ya go =]

i've noticed that being with you ;;
i smile a little more often,
i get angry a little less,
the sun shines a little bit brighter,
& life is so much sweeter.<3

charlie brown: I think Im afraid to be happy.
lucy: how can you be afraid to be happy?
charlie brown: because whenever you get too happy, something bad always happens

&& all she wants to be is the "i love you" in his profile..

mm__ sorry bout only a couple today__ =/

..more later?

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 19:44:27 GMT

so.. the day before yesterday during lunch at school, i had a seizure.. everyone flipped out & i had to go to the emergency room.. of course it was spirit day, the pep assembly, and the day of the homecoming game.. but i was in the hospital for about 9 or 10 hours.. luckily i didnt have to stay the night & got to go home really late that night.. then yesterday was homecoming & i was allowed to go, ive never gotten so many hugs in my life haha =P but yea, sorry for the major lack in updates & quotes, but gimme a break lol =P leave comments & whatnot to make me feel betterr =)

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 02:03:44 GMT

well now what do i do?
im going nowhere fast
im over the present
i just cant get over the past..</3

i think what messes us up the most
is having the perfect picture in our minds
of how things should be

theres only one raincloud
in the entire sky
& its raining on me..
somehow im not surprised
-eeyore

sometimes its the words
that are unspoken
that need to be heard the most..

so many ups & downs
i dont know where to start
so many nights i cry
life is breaking my heart</3

& next time when she says shes cold
dont be an idiot & say "me too"

its so hard to keep it together on the outside
when you're falling apart on the inside

maybe theyre right.. maybe i did
get my hopes up too high,
maybe i was in way over my head,
maybe im the stupid one
for ever thinking he cared,
or maybe, just maybe, im tired of being alone.

sometimes you look at me a certain way
& it feels like we're playing this game
where we won't admit it
but we both know we should be together..

its like you dont want to be with me
but you dont want me to stop loving you
well sorry, you cant have it both ways

we always fall for guys
who give us pretty words
with false hope</3

if you look into my eyes
& listen to what i say
you'll know i'm the one girl
who will never walk away

dont wait for the perfect moment
instead;; make the moment perfect<3

sometimes i wish i was
in kindergarten again..
when the biggest drama was
when your friend stole your snack..

everything will be okay in the end
so if its not okay;; dont worry;;
its not the end.

blah so theres some for today..
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