I need to say this again...because it is fun....

I'M GONNA BE A DADDY!!!!!

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A lot of working and a lot of things have caused me great busyness. That is why it has been two months since my last visit. Even though it has been a while there has not been as much to talk about but two cool things:

1) I have a new job that pays less but I get more hours so my wife and I can pay for our extra expenses (like replacing our vehicles because they are both dying).

and...

2) Just because X-mas is over does not mean that gifts recieved on that morning do not last for a long time, like the gift of finding out your wife is with child! WOOHOO!! I'M GONNA BE A DADDY!!!!!!!! Praise God for this blessed gift of life.

Just to be corny...peace from the soon to be DeJonge FAMILY

Shalom

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It's been a while....

...and a lot of moving has gone on in my life in the past two months:

Physically...my body has been acting funny as far as indigestion and small but painful acid reflexing. I have also been struggling with some things that I need to work through that have been weighing on me in forms of pain, guilt, fatigue, and stress. I have also been feeling a bit more emotional lately (but not of the bad variety).

Mentally...I feel spent. Even thought I haven't been as motivated as I need to be, I cannot seem to get myself going to find a secondary job to help support Amanda and I. It strains all the way to the far reaches of my mental capacity to the point where I feel no motivation, nor do I feel as smart as I should be (*little laugh*). Huge thing I need prayed for is a clearer mind to get my thoughts on the right path in more ways than one.

Spiritually...I have been and still continue to find myself in a valley of sorts. It feels more like I'm walking in a valley with semi tall hills continuously going up and down, up and down untill I reach the next mountain top. I feel it coming but it just isn't in my vision at the moment.

These three areas convey the understructure to my past two months, but for those who are looking for actual details here we go:

*My grandfather pasted away in September. I know he is in a better place, but you know, I do still get times of tearing up when I think hard of him.

*My hours at work have gone from full to almost fractional time, so I'm looking for a new job or a supplimental job willing to work me strickly mornings till 12 or 1 so I can still bartend at SLCC b/c I enjoy the people I work with there, then I can still use it for either getting a full income on my behalf or as extra cash to pay for bills/gas/ or save for the new vehicle Amanda and I need to be looking for since both our vehicles are going downhill.

*Also I have been struggling with a lot of things that I just need to put my foot down on that if don't get straight in my life I don't forsee them every getting done, ya know...that whole you can bargin with God like, "when I get to this point in my life I will deal with it." It will never happen if you continuously put it off.

SHALOM (that's as much for you as I know I need to hear it)

I come on a very serious note. I have a dilemma on my hands. I could sort of take a new job in management, but it would still be unsure, or do I stay where I am at where as far as I know my pay will continue to be the same, but there is too much unsureness--for me--surrounding the thought will I still have full-time come the end of the golf season. I know that God you hear our prayers, I know you are listening. I know there is nothing that you have not done in my life to keep Amanda and I afloat. For me it is much harder. I daily dive into your word because it empowers me, and most importantly, your words bring more comfort and security than the sweetest romantic whisper among mankind. I am only human, and it is only when you reach down into our lives that something happens because we are physically incapable of reaching the highest heaven's because of our fallen condition. Thank you God so much for the life you gave and the life you give to all. I am privilaged to still be loved by you even though I, as a minister of your word, continuously fall, and feel myself fail as a role model, husband, friend, and youth pastor. Thank you for forgiving us all who come to you wholly surrendered

"At the cross you beckon me you draw me gently to my knees, and I am, lost for words, so lost in love, I'm sweetly broken, wholly surrendered."