hey everyone... wassup... nawtin much here.. wow.. its been a fast week.. gosh jp called me today while dey on da way home from nationals.. it sux .. we got fourth.. but its straite cuz we noe we da best anywaiz.. gotz my report card on frid.. woo hoo.. no c's finally.. gosh ... my weekend was aite.. didnt do much.. but i got to drive.. wow.. new experiences..

it turns out dat im not gonna be in dat debutant ball thingy in MD cuz its too far and dey gonna have practice every weekend.. and well i cant make all da practices..but yeah.. so sad...

hows everyones love life goin.. myne.. it sux.. well ryte now i dont have one... jd asked me if i still love jun.. of course i do... but rite now.. i dunno. i just feel that he deserves someone better... i wish i could explain .. but i cant... but yeah.. it doesnt matter cuz he confuses me.. his away messeges seem so cruel and towards me.. even if he says its not bout me.. i still feel they are.. so yeah.. i tried talkin to him yesterday.. but he wouldnt answer.. wuts up with that... maybe we should both let go.. after all i sed. i meant it when i sed i wanted to come home.. but lately it seems like i fight more with him den ever before.. i was such a bad girlfriend to him.. why does he still love me?? i dont understand it.. why couldnt i just appreciate wut i had.. i did in a way.. but i guess not enough... *sigh*

spring time is here ... and so is alergy season... ugh.. i hate it .. sneezing and watery eyes.. errr.. one more 9 weeks.. yaye skewl is almost over.. YEAH!!! but then again... wow.. dat was fast.. everything is passing by and i noe im gonna miss it... the way i miss all my friends.. even if  they werent really my friends.. i still considered them friends.. but yeah.. aite well i gotta go now homeworkz ta do.. err..

~rae

hey everyone.. how u guys doin.. meeh im aite.. better than usual... ive decided that i need to make use of my life.. so yeah.. imma TRY to stop procrastinatin.. but as u can see im not doin dat cuz i wouldnt be on xanga rite now.. imma TRY to stop cursin.. and imma try to diet.. LoL.. we  all noe i need it *sigh* anywaiz.... i was sent  a letter from the National Young Leaders Confrence.. and they sent me an application to go to DC!! i wanna go.. but dat ish is expensive.. so ya noe if yall wanna contribute to my funds... ya'll  be greatly appreciated.. LoL... hmmm lets seee.. wuts new... i have new pictures... yaye.. just got to pixtrail.com and look up Raesharon ... ill update da pix more later.. i got to drive this weeekend YAYE.. im not scared anymore haha.. yeah im a dork but hey u noe how teenagers are now a days... sheesh... i dont want to die like dat.. id rather die in bed... marica's birthday was saturday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GURL! LYLAS!! *sigh* i wish i was dere to take her on a funfilled birthday.. but no they had to cancel every thing... errr.. i hate making plans.. ok enough bout dat.. anywaiz.... life is getting better... is urs.. i kinda wish i was at landstown cuz i noe my grades would be sooooo much better there.. but i unno.. i prolly wouldnt be accepted dere... *sigh* i guess i cant say i dont have friends anymore.. cuz now i realize dat i do.. and they are all great.. special thanx to:

JEANINE, DIANA, HOLLY, RACHEL, KELLY AND MEGAN, ANNA, KATIE, DAN, CHRIS, MIKE,  NICK, FRANCIS,  JP, VINCENT (IF I FORGOT YOU IM SORRY... BUT LET ME NOE AND ILL ADD YOU)

 all you guys (including da ones not listed) are really great friends.. uve beent there for me no matta wut and i wanna let you all noe im here for u too.. and i hope dat our friendships will last forever.. i realize dat not all friendships last forever and that we might lose contact with eachother.. but never forget that each and everyone of you will be in my heart.  

ok u guys.. take care.. luv you all ~raesharon

hey you guys.. well this week was iffy... my dad is sick.. he has namonia.. how ever u spell it.. and im scared cuz of that new viral thing dats goin around.. ... but yeah..

well we have note cards due for our research papers  so the past few days, the library has been swamped by pa students... lol.. so yeah... hmmm... wut else..

oh before i forget..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOJO!!!

ok... i was supposed to go to MD dis weekend but my plans got canceled. so i get to stay home and do projects yeck.. well hey.. i have to do hw now ttyl.. bye

hey everyone.. wow.. well its been a long time since i updated dis ish.. but yeah... last time i updated i was too pissed to metion dat i finally got da guts to get my permit... so drivers beware.. lol.. so yeah... [happy belated birthday JEANINE!!]my daddy came home on sunday from the PI! this week was really great.. all my grades went up yaye!! ok.. then my dad let me drive on thurs.. yeah i learned how to park haha im a dork... friday i went to da movies with my dad.. we watched the hunted.. it was aite.. but it was very violent and had a very weird ending... then i went to the mall... i saw diana, nick, chris, holly, jackie and carmen.. my dad was starting to get tired so he went to the car and sed he was gonna pick me up at 930.. so yeah.. then diana nick chris and i went to the tuxedo place cuz chris needs a tux for ring dance.. [ i want to go to ringdance]. it was funny cuz diana was sitting on a stool and nick was on one knee.. and she was like get off ur knee ..or something like that.. but yeah.. anyways.. then holly left.. then jackie and carmen.. then diana... it was just me chris and nick left and i was gonna leave too.. nick was like "rae u want to pimp us?" so i was like sure why not... i saw jun and he came up to us. i think he got the wrong idea.. but its straight.. but yeah my dad was waiting for me in the parking lot.. he asked me if chris and nick were my "boyfriends" as in more than one lol... but theyre not..

then when i got home i got pissed.. people keep assume crap and its pissin me off.. my away message sed "out roamin da streets" cuz i thought i was gonna drive.. when i got home there was a messege sayin " oh roamin the streets"..."I see you're probably out with other dudes" so yeah... people need to stop assumin..

i had a weird dream that nite but yea.

newayz.. so yeah  saturday.. went to an auction for skewl.. it was fun.. got some things.. then went to the mall.. with my mom this time...i saw JP and linda.. bought some things and yeah went home.. and i cleaned my closet out at 1130

had another weird dream...

today woke up at noon.. went to the library to do someresearch for da english papers.. went to walmart.. that place is so busy.. talked to linda while i was in line.. and yeah now im home.. tryin to do some hw. but i cant resist the comp lol... aite well now i have to do hw.. take care everyone.. oh and check out my pictures http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=6&uid=885114&

much luv ~raesharon

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you try to let someone go to save them the pain dat u might cause them... but in da end it always comes around and bite u in da ass... he sed  "good bye" .. da words he sed hed never say... well i guess it really is good bye... i noe i did him wrong... i cant change the past... but i did try to change me... for him.. but it wont work out ... and im sorry.. sorry to everyone...

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wut a day... shit... i thought life was gettin better... but obviously its not...people have to jump to conclusions... first people who only talk to me when their cousin/sibling has problems.. then family tryin assumin shit as alwayz.. when does da torture stop? gosh... i just want to crawl up in a place where no one can find me.. dat wouldnt be so hard cuz no one would come look anywaiz rite? rite.. its not like anywon carez.. yeah i have a lot of self pitty rite now... considerin how life has been.. me bottling up every feeling i have towards life.. its gettin pretty close... pretty close to death.. how do people do it? go through each day.. i noe i cant.. i noe "im beautiful in every single way".. and "words cant bring me down" but words are startin to penetrat through my shield... and its becoming harder and harder... life is so crappy.. *sigh* i wish i could be better... maybe then ill be accepted in life...