I am in LOVE and I don't care who knows!

Well what can I say? It has been a whole month since I have updated and i might add that ALOT can happen in a month!

Not much happend in the month of October except for Halloween which was fun . . .I went to Kelsie's and helped her hand out candy to all of the little kids! It was really funny because this little boy showed up and said trick or treat and he was dressed as scooby doo so I wanted to take a picture of him. Let me tell you that was not that good of an idea! He got scared when I told him I wanted to take a picture of him and he ran away. It was really funny but I felt bad.

Well that weekend I went to Bismarck with Taylor, Evrett and Evrett's family. That was alot of fun, spent most of the time with Taylor and Evrett then the rest of the time I spent with my family. Evrett went down there to buy a truck and I was really excited for it because he told me it was orange. Well I guess I didnt really think it was going to be orange. It is literally bright hunter orange and I had to ride back home in that thing. It sucked because they would not let me sleep and EVERYTHING in the truck rattled!

The weekend after that I had my doctors appt. in Bismarck for my hip, so I went back to Bismarck. My hip is officially healed! I get to play basketball but I first have to do this treatment that lasts three weeks, so i can play after that. . .or so I thought! I now have another problem but I will tell ya about that in a bit! I also got to go hunting down in Garrison and Parshall again. It wasn't as much fun this year probably because I didn't want to be there. . .I really wanted to be with Taylor, but I couldn't. Well I finally got back home and got to see him so it was ok.

Then this weekend let me tell you it was probably one of the worst weekends I have EVER had!  It all started on Thursday night. . .we didnt have school on friday. Well the volleyball banquet was on Thursday and my friend Jenna was on her way into town and she ended up rolling her truck. Well I seen what had happend and I rushed to see her in the hospital and they were sending her out to Minot so Roach Sam and I all got in a vehicle and drove down to Minot to be with her. Well she had to have surgery on her back on friday and everything is ok now and she is home, that was very scary! I am soooo glad she is ok now! Well then on Saturday I went to the movie with Taylor and after we went to Blakes house and that was fun. And now for the reason I wont be able to play basketball right away. . .on sunday I layed in bed all day and remembered I had to bring Blakes movie back before 6 so I took a shower at like 5 and got ready and went to town. I was at the standard and all of a sudden I started to not feel good and well I ended up having a seizure and I had to go to the doctor. It turns out that my white blood cell count is unbelievably high and it caused all the blood to rush out of my brain. Everything is ok now but I have to go back to the doctor on Wednesday and they are going to do some more testing and I guess I will probably get really sick in a couple of days. So that was my weekend.

Today I had a rada supper to help out with and the food was really gross. . .but it is all good we tried! Then I had a basketball meeting and that went well and hopefully I will get to play soon! but tha tis all for now I think this is a long enough entry!

So the dance was fun for the most part. I only had to wait for an hour and a half for my date to show up! Oh well I guess i got over it. . . We lost our game i ampretty sure the score was 20-38 or something like that , I know we only had 20 and they had 30 somthing! That majorly sucked the big one.

Well once again there would be a new guy in the life of Raynee! haha he is pretty cool tho! We went to Jackass 2 last night. . .OMG I effing love that movie! it was so fricken hillarious.  . .

Ok so it is time for me to let out a little steam! I have had a wonderful weekend (sarcasm) First lets start off with the fact that we lost our football game again! you would think that I am used to that but noooo I am not, I still get uberly pissed at the fact that our guys SUCK! So then after the game I went to Evretts house cuz we were all going to watch movies. My dad decides to call and say that my curfue is an hour earlier than usual so I didnt even get to watch the whole movie. So I get home and my dad's girlfriend and I absolutally hate eachother and we ended up fighting so I had to leave the house and come to town cuz i could not stand it anymore. I might add that it was 2 in the a.m.!

So that was friday night and now for saturday

Satureday was a great day I went and hung out with Taylor and forgot about everything that happend the night before. . .Well we went to the movie and I kinda locked my keys in my car! Once again I might add that both of the sets that I have were sitting right there on the driverside seat!!!! talk about pissing me off so we sat there from like 10:30 to about 1 trying to get it open and it just wouldnt budge! so we gave up and now my dad and I are going to go and try again.

Well that is enough for now

Well tonight is our homecoming and I am praying that we win! We play St. John so either way one of us are going to come out with our first win. . .hopefully it is us! Last night we played them in volleyball and our girls won so that is a good start to our homecoming victory.

After the game there shall be a dance and I am pretty stoked about that! Havent been to a dance since prom and I am hoping that something will happen tonight. . . you may know what I am talking about but you may not.

What else is new in my life? Well I got a new job. . .I am a telemarketer. . .it is the shittiest job you could ever get but I am pretty sure I am making $8 and hour so I think I will get used to it. I have wanted to quit like soooo many times already but I told myself "Self you need the money" haha!

There is a new guy in my life. He is very shy and I have never been down that road before. But I really like him alot and from what I have heard he too likes me. If it doesnt work out at least I can say I tried.

Yesterday was the best and the worst. We had our class competitions and we lost to the seniors by 3 points!!!! Sam and I did this one where we were blind folded then we had to yell for eachother and when we found eachother we had to pop a balloon inbetween us and omg it was soo effing hillarious! Only 2 other ppl beat us. . .and a little later we had the eating contest with a bunch of horrible food in the bag. . .well this guy kyle. . he is a sophmore well he got sick and puked. . .I am not a good person to see people puke. . .well he puked and it was all coming out of his nose and everything! So I got sick and then puked. . .that was the only part of the day that sucked.

But I think that is enough for now so I will update later and tell you how our game and the dance went tonight!

-eDiT-

yes I know ANOTHER edit but it turns out that about and hour or two after my aunt had her heart attack she died. . .I guess it happens I am just going to have to get over it. The funeral is on Saturday and I am not looking forward to it at all. Yes it does mean that I will get to see alot of my family i dont normally see but I wish it were for a different reason

-eNd EdIt-

-EdIt-

Well it turns out that my aunt has just had a heart attack and it is not looking good. . . for real could anything else go wrong today? Seriously if you have some bad news you should just tell me now so I can have time to get it through my head. . .I am so confused right now I just don't know what to do

-EnD eDiT-

I really do not understand why I have to have these feelings. I can't even explain what is going through my head right now. It really sucks because it is like I only feel like this everyonce in awhile and it makes me really think about everything. I finally realize how much I had. I wish I wouldn't have said those simple little words. I would have never went through what I have been through these past couple of months. It is weird how all of this is coming to me at once. I really miss you, do you know that? It is too late now there is no way we could go back to us. But I will always be here and I know you will always be there for me! You are an amazing person and I am sorry if I ever hurt you. But you did have your share of hurting me. I don't think these feelings I have will ever go away. I never really realized how much I cared for you until you were gone. I am in a state right now that I have never been in before. I feel lonely and I just wish I had you by my side to help me through this.I just wish that I would have thought about my choices before I made them. I really hope that in the future you will just keep me in mind and remember all the good times that we had. YOU are an amazing person and I hope that you can understand what I am saying.