Guess the failture experience is not as easy to handle as I though. Even though a lot of people is supporting me, it still become a nightmate to me. Oh man, when I can get over it.

I am tried of it already. How long I still need to face it? When can I have my own space again? It is annoying.

this is crazy that I didnot update this xange for more than a year. Life is been busy. Busy to be a fresh graduate person, busy look for a new school, busy at finding a job. busy at work. and the most, busy to try to fit in the new life. I have never though it is such a difficult thing to fit in a life that I used to lived Things been changed, and definitely they have changed a lot. I always though I know what I really want for my life. But I got lose when I would not achieve what I really want. I am losing in the realize world, get confuse with my future. Life is all base on a beasutiful dream, but when the dream is broke, nothing is real expect the awful feeling. The silly thing is, I don't want to awake even know all just a dream. Force myself to stay asleep and the price is too huge to awake. The heartache is too hurt and I dont think I could handle it when it happen again.