warning:long post

It is Monday and I haven't really done anything since Friday, but that's really not my fault and I really don't care who thinks that it really is my fault.

Friday: I went to shoemakers at noon with lauren and jess then they came home with me at two. lauren had a dream about daniel and colton. at around 4:30 we decided to go over to cicis for supper and we met tara there and ate. then we came back to the house and tara had to leave but i got to put make up on the other two. we played truth or dare and daniel called at 630 and i told him to come over. jess had to leave early and then later i got in trouble and im still not quite sure why and lauren left b4 daniel and i made an agreement to tell daniel wat was going on. he got on aim and i told him and he told me he had a plan and his own ideas about wat was going on.

saturday:went school shopping with tara and got some stuff. got really good ice cream at a cremery and talked to tara and daniel on the phone 4 a couple hours with no sign at all that things were about to get really bad.

sunday: really boring, did nothing. that nite i got on aim and daniel wouldnt talk to me and i read his post and his plan was to stop talking to ppl and come to find out its pretty much only me hes not talking to and i dont understand and he was the last person in the group that i felt cared and i felt i could trust but i guess i was wrong and life just sucks like that. and i feel like ive just been hit with the entire world full of emotions and its killing me. but i cant stop it no matter wat i do. all i do is make things worse apparently and dont pretend to change ur mind just cuz u feel sorry 4 me ok im not as stupid as everyone seems to think ok. i just never thought u guys were like this. at least im going to pesh not like i really want to, just more new ppl to reject me.....