Ravens_dark_Fantasy's Xanga

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 00:15:26 GMT

Hello everyone. I haven't bee on here in forever. I am turning this into a layout site ok? I'll take requests. lemme know!!!

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 12:19:58 GMT

So, school is interesting, I've met a few people. I kind of have to considering I don't really have classes with anyone. But there are some kool people. I have lunch with a lot of people. I got the courage to walk up to Kevin at lunch, accompanied my jess and tara. anyways, ya, i doubt ill get a bf this year. ya.....dunno whether thats good or bad or a little of both. theatre is gonna be semi-difficult and annoyingly embarassing, and psychologys gonna be a challenge but a good 1. ya, laterz.

Monday, July 25, 2005

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 21:01:16 GMT

warning:long post

It is Monday and I haven't really done anything since Friday, but that's really not my fault and I really don't care who thinks that it really is my fault.

Friday: I went to shoemakers at noon with lauren and jess then they came home with me at two. lauren had a dream about daniel and colton. at around 4:30 we decided to go over to cicis for supper and we met tara there and ate. then we came back to the house and tara had to leave but i got to put make up on the other two. we played truth or dare and daniel called at 630 and i told him to come over. jess had to leave early and then later i got in trouble and im still not quite sure why and lauren left b4 daniel and i made an agreement to tell daniel wat was going on. he got on aim and i told him and he told me he had a plan and his own ideas about wat was going on.

saturday:went school shopping with tara and got some stuff. got really good ice cream at a cremery and talked to tara and daniel on the phone 4 a couple hours with no sign at all that things were about to get really bad.

sunday: really boring, did nothing. that nite i got on aim and daniel wouldnt talk to me and i read his post and his plan was to stop talking to ppl and come to find out its pretty much only me hes not talking to and i dont understand and he was the last person in the group that i felt cared and i felt i could trust but i guess i was wrong and life just sucks like that. and i feel like ive just been hit with the entire world full of emotions and its killing me. but i cant stop it no matter wat i do. all i do is make things worse apparently and dont pretend to change ur mind just cuz u feel sorry 4 me ok im not as stupid as everyone seems to think ok. i just never thought u guys were like this. at least im going to pesh not like i really want to, just more new ppl to reject me.....

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 23:01:53 GMT

people with similar and seriosu issues should leave each other alone and ppl shouldnt mess w/ppls heads, its not nice. moving on 4 good now, hopefully. im really gonna try instead of just waiting for the feeling to pass. im gonna take my lfe back and 4get about it. and 4get the drama, it happens and u cant do nething 2 stop it. so owell.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 17:33:12 GMT

My emotions have left me and music has no meaning nemore. I'm so numb and kinda hyperish and ok all the time. It makes life so dull.

haha:

Emotion Test

Here is the analysis:

Your emotional controlled rate: 37%

You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.

Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

so neways i have a new xanga and for certain reason only a few ppl can know if u wish to know about this xanga email me at Eightiesbcrebelchk@yahoo.com or im me on yahoo:Eightiesbcrebelchk or aim:PiratePFairy and if youre nice i might just tell u it haha <3 Raven

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 16:53:50 GMT

Haha the hp party on friday was gr8. i havent finished the book. i just cant get myself to sit down and read like i used to. but the book is purple!!!!!!!!!! o ya! neways ya im working my way through the book though. coltons leaving and last nite was funni. haha. VIVID IMAGES Lauren, of me! and of certain other ppl with icing ans whip ceam and whips and fuzzy hand cuffs. haha i saw charlie and the chocolate factory "its not whip cream without the whips, everybody knows that" haha i swear johnny depp was on something. laterz.

heres the results from the test im took on jess's xanga

Emo Kid 80%

Punk 60%

Goth 47%

"Ghetto" 33%

Geek/Nerd 33%

Loner 33%

Hot 33% (darn it)

Stoner 27% (haha)

Jock 13%

Prep 7% (i knew there was a little left in there somewhere)

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 23:03:13 GMT

I need a new profile picture. I'm probably gonna use the lengerie pic lol, cuz that's all I have access to at the moment. W00t ive gotz my permit, o ya! HP party is tomorrow then ihop then taras house. thats gonna be fun. ya, im good actually. and if yall do something 2day im probably gonna bow out just in case u know, but dont worry no hard feelings or nething left i just wanna give u ur space today plus i dont wanna c batman, i hate batman, sorry. but ya, we can do something saturday or sunday, ill be happy to. ya, totally over everything now. and im assuming u guys r too. hopefully i can move on MOVE ON like 4 real now. i think i can. if u have ne protests to it ne1 u need to say it now. neways laterz, call me this weekend ^^!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 15:35:17 GMT

haha yes new layout. im thinkin of makin a new xanga for like only like 3 or 4 ppl to know about no matter wat, ya. still gettin used to short hair....

ive got soul but im not a soldier

w00t w00t

neways, doin somethin today, defianately, if u wanna come w/ then call or comment otherwise.....owell i guess

edit:ya sorry about ur site marina, ppl r sick, thats pretty wrong right there

The anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather then fix the problem
They never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them everyday
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants
And its what she wants
Then whys there so much pain?

edit: hahahahahaha, thought id feel different than this. I've found something else to focus on, or at least for now. And even though it sucks, I am good. Cuz I know there's better stuff out there and I don't need this nor do I deserve it. I've had a serge of confidence lately for some reason. Maybe it's cuz I realize that there are good peple out there that care. Thats a great feeling. It's all temporary. I feel a little refreshed at the moment. Of course aim tonight wont be easy, but who said life was easy. I'll be just fine I think. For once in my life. I love you Tara, Jess, Breana, and somebody else ^^. thanks for helping me through all this and sticking around.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 18:16:40 GMT

Can't we all just get along and be happy???????????

Monday, July 11, 2005

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 02:25:17 GMT

lalalalalalalalala noooooo comments at all................hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ...

ppl have issues

and so do i

but its all good, this feels so wierd im like hysterical but not w/depression and tears im so pissed that i have to just laugh it off ....no details just ya.......and no more secrets just for my feelings ok? ya dont worry about me nemore. not that i think u will neways considering so ya, moving on. bye bye.