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Sunday, September 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 03:20:41 GMT

So me and my girlfriend kinda just ended things. It was just getting to complicated for me to handle. My parents thought that she was bringing me down, but she was the only Christian girl i've ever dated. School is really packed for me and it has not allowed me and her to spend as much time as usual. That has cut the communication down, and raised arguing betwen us. Arguing and trying to focus on everything else : work, school, money, family, studying, chi alpha, leading worship: at the same time becomes overbearing. Right now I cant take it. I hope I am not screwing up and losing the only good thing in me.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 19:31:04 GMT

Crazy xanga people gave me a free premium subscripton probablly cause I have had this thing for like two years and never upgraded and so they figured that I was never going to , so they gave it for free! LOOK I AM SO EXCITED!

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 15:46:35 GMT

So I haven't posted anything in a couple of weeks, but I have very exciting news! I called my Mom the other day and she had just got back from the doctors office and they said that all of the tumors in her head are completefly gone. WOWOW! Praise God!!

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 09:47:58 GMT

So to day is the day that I move back to San Marcos. I am so excited and want to leave right now, but I have to take a final for summer school today. I just want to be with all of my friends and take lots of classes...ahah N/R. Well I hopr to do alot better this year cause I dont know what happened...it is all Ani's fault! hahah

Monday, August 08, 2005

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 10:19:49 GMT

Well things have gotten so amazing. god had to put me back in line, but that is good. This weekend my family and I mean the entire family came to houston for like a family reunion, but it was a prayer reunion. It was so amazing cause ever since then my mom has been fine. Usally she can walk from like the bedroom to the living room, but now she has been washing dishes, sweeping, and just like a woman...she went shopping. I now think to my self "How can we ever doubt the power of God. He said that he has ALL authority, but we still doubt! He his always faithful!

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 10:58:14 GMT

Well they did an MRI on my mom and the tumors are very small. They are going to have to do radiation for the newt two weeks straight. To be honset this is really hard. Not just becuase it is my mom, but because you have to be strong and I feel that I havae been hardening myself even towards God. Like Richard said, It is God's plan and he knows what he is doing. He is ever faithful and never failing. Sometimes I question God and me and him fight a bit cause there are litteraly thousands of people praying for my mom and you would think God would hear he name enough that he would be like "Okay..okay....bam.. she healed!" If only we really knew!

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 10:39:39 GMT

Oh...the tragedy. Well alot has been going on and I thought I might as well write in the trusty journal that always seems to make everything okay. Well my mother is in the hospital and I am using a computer in the waiting room thingy. She has cancer for those of you who do not know and it has been spreading throughout her body it has made its way to her sping and is cause her to be temporarily paralyzed. Then her feeling comes back. Usally it would happen about once a week, but recently it has happened like 5 times a day. We called the doctor and they wanted us to take her to the MD Anderson emergency room and the found a tumor on the right side of her brain. NO GOOD! They might have to do surgery the remove it, but the doctors said that there is nothing that we can do. Freakin doctors, but God told me something else....

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 09:49:57 GMT

Okay, so I am really bad abowut updating my xanga. This must not be healthy. So my summer is going great and I have been doing alot of ministry, especially with the youth. It is just so amazing to see kids lift there hands for the the first time in surrenderence of God's love. I just found out that I love preaching. I never know what to bring to the kids, but God always reveals it right before in my prayer time. Maybe cause it is that he is always faithful? Maybe yeah! Me personally, I think youth ministries are the most important because this is when they build there foundation.Well that is all that I have been up to besides working....oh yeah CVS helps people live longer, healthier, and happier lives.

Monday, April 25, 2005

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 16:25:01 GMT

Well...Ani is sitting here next to me and she wanted me to put that I semll like poopy, but I WON"T. I actually smell like Mountain Fresh Laundry detergent. The year in college is coming to an end so very fast. I feel like I got here just last month. Over the time I have made some very close friends that I will not forget even though some are graduating and becoming adults and that kind of stuff. So only a couple of more weeks till I have to say good bye to the ones I love.!

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 13:07:50 GMT

Finally...I got baptized. It was the most amazing thing in the world. All of my friends from our campus ministry were ther...my parents and it was great. It was no ordinary baptism. It was in the river right acorss from my school. That is the coolest part. Thats all!