| Here I am in 2006!! here we all are!! I'm ready to move on, start fresh, and refocus.
Last night I was on the phone with my flute teacher, writing down key dates on my calander. Two solo competitions, a recital, orchestra concerts, a masterclass at ISU, rehearsals with my accompianist, recording sessions for the NFA...all this along with choir and school - looks like I won't be breathing until June...needless to say, I was pretty much overwhelmed.
so last night I made my New Year's Resolution: In 2006, I'm going to take life one day at a time. Not worrying about tomorrow, next week, next month - but taking each moment as God gives it. So God had a "duh" moment with me. He's been trying to tell me this for ages. "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." matt. 3:64. I'm a natural-born worrier, I do it almost every minute. I want everything to be figured out, prepared for, organized, ya da ya da. So this New Year's resolution will be a tough one. That's where the refreshing and refocusing part comes in.
My focus gets so distracted, captured by all those key dates on my calander...For the past 4 months or so, I've let my time with God slip. I've been busy, overwhelmed, trying to take care of life and all its craziness. But now I know why I was overwhelmed - because I was trying to control everything and take care of everything all alone. And guess what happened? I got burnt out, I failed, I got horribly sick. Because I'm not God!!!! I can' control everything. This isn't the first time I've learned this...so thank God for His grace that continues to embrace me as I fall on my knees before Him going "here I am. I did it again. so take my life, because I can't do this thing alone!!"
oooh my, that was another long post. congrats if you made it through with me!!! basically, I've decided that this year (and every year!!) I need my focus locked on Christ. Because whenever it is, I find myself refreshed, energized, and free from the worry and stress that builds up around me.
Happy New Year my friends!!!
Raylene |
