Girl Anachronism I love those fleeting moments where I realize just how cool I can be. But then I hate how I always refrain from fully unleashing my genius, in fear of being ridiculed for not “being with the times”. 
I find myself being safe lately. And I’m not talking about the kind where you don’t have to worry about looking over your shoulder when wandering down a dark alley. I often catch myself picking instant & more convenient choices instead of debating over the simplest of things as usual. I should just go off-the-radar for awhile. I always found the media & participating in everyday social acts quite efficient in keeping me in a high-walled box anyway. WARNING: trendy when safe ************************************ I think I took the wrong bus home after yoga the other day, where, instead of taking the usual route to my house, it took a totally different course. I was a bit panicky at first, but I decided to save face towards the other passengers who sat with such determined little faces & act like I knew where I intended to go. My panic was soon replaced by fascination as quaint little places passed by in the window. 
It was a while before I realized I didn’t actually know where the bus would go, so I waited till we passed a place I knew before getting off at Long Beach Town Center. I then called Pop, & he said he’ll come pick me up. Even though I’ve been there plenty of times, it was quite a different experience wandering from shop to shop waiting for Pop. For one thing, I was still in my red stretchy pants & had my yoga mat strapped to my back, so I kept receiving stares from passerby. Plus, it was nice getting to stroll around with no sense of direction or purpose without being harried about the time. Though it was definitely happy-fun-time for me, I just wish I had some friends to share adventures like these. Or at least be really cool enough to have all that fun without wasting an emo second wishing for some company.
Yup, I should definitely steer clear from those “you aren’t cool if you aren’t liked” messaging media publications. In fact, I should have a jagged stone chucked at me every time such a thought dare stray into my mind. Note to self: take more wrong buses. Till next time. To be continued.. *jaMar* | 
