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Name: Gerald
Gender: Male
Interests: God,Singing,Dancing,Telling People How Cool They Are,Music,Music,More Music,And Then AfterThat Some More Music,Making Poople Laugh,Watching Movies,Taking Pictures,Running,Forgien Places,Taking Risks,Reading,Writing, Words in General,Playing Videogames,Thrift Store Shopping,and Playing with Little kids(don't be a perv)
Expertise: I am not an expert at anything but I do like standing on my hands, and playing the banjo with my tounge.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
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AIM:  Redoyster11
Member Since:
7/6/2003
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| I am home now... and I have changed. I am writing this to say out loud what I have become, even though I am scared to say some of the things that I am about to say... because there are some failures...
So could you love this bastard child
Though I don’t trust you to provide
With one hand in a pot of gold
and with the other in your side
I am so easily satisfied
by the call of lovers so less wild
That I would take a little cash
Over your very flesh and blood
This semester I decided so much that I did not need one single person, that I could get through every one of my fears and tears by myself. It is funny, thinking that I could be strong on my own proved that I was nothing at all. I felt like if I could hide my anger towards God from everyone else, then it meant that I could hide it from myself... and I did hide it from myself. I knew you were there the whole time but I needed your help so badly, and it felt like you never even cared to try and help. So I gave up on everything, everyone. Losing my way every second of every day and where were you the whole time. I hated you... so much. I am better now, you filled the hole that I have in my heart in your own special way. Those kids mean so much to me. Thanks for letting me watch them. I think when you told me that helping people would fill the hole in me I didn't believe you, but you were right. It feels good to not be so selfish for once. I am so selfish. We will see won't we, we will see what I become. Scary, 2 decades on this earth almost... I still don't know a thing though. That is truly a riot.
I Love You With All My Heart Still and I have come to realize that the path that we take to get to each other doesn't matter. We will always comeback to each other.
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| Ok so I got this book at the suggestion of an old friend and I was done with it in one day. It is a children's book about a mouse that is not like other mice and that in the face of complete and total adversity he stood tall , stood brave, and changed the lives of many different people. Now this mouse was in love with a human princess and you are thinking "Gerald why are you reading this... Grow up" but honestly it means so much more then just some mouse being in love with a girl. The love he has for her is a love of devotion... a love of Honor... a love of pure intention... pure thought...pure motivation...purity and as the book says love of that kind is ridiculous, wonderful and powerful. It allows the weakest of men to face the greatest adversity. Not to be fearless but to stand despite your fear. That changes live. I am a man. A man that longs to be brave, to stand tall like this mouse did in this story. To stand for what is right and to have the courage to love others enough to live for them and stand for them when no one else will or can. To hope for things that are impossible because hope is just like love. It is wonderful, powerful, and ridiculous. To love, to hope, to be brave... that is what I want for my life despite how ridiculous these emotions can be. That is what I want and one day maybe I will be these things. I pray that one day I will be these things.
At the end of the book it says this
"I would like it very much if you thought of me as a mouse telling you a story, this story, with the whole of my heart, whispering it in your ear in order to save myself from darkness, and to save you from the darkness also. Stories are light. And I hope Dear reader that you have found some light in my story."
Maybe it is because I am an english minor... but that statement alone is so powerful to me. That statement says why I want to read to my kids before they go to sleep every night.
Please pray for the kids that were slain in today's school shooting. It was 7 girls shot execution style in an amish community in Pennsylvania. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE...pray for them and their families. It brings tears to my eyes to see so many terrible things happening in the world. I hope that I have the courage to try and change it.
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| Honestly Cookie Dough taste so much better then the actual cookie and it doesn't take as long to make ... I don't know why people make cookies in the first place.. it takes half the time to eat the cookie dough and in my opinion it is a lot more rewarding.
Sarah is coming in about 2 weeks... man am I excited....
God thanks for people how try to do the right thing.... help them to keep on trying cause honestly as long as you are trying.... you deserve some praise.
Also thanks for loving me and thanks for Optimism and Joy.... I have so much of it and the only place I think it came from is you....
Amen
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| If being sick was fun. I would be at Disney World right now.
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| All i can say about this weekend was that it was amazing.... The music festival blew hard but being with Drew and Darbs makes up for anything.... Guys weekend... should be every weekend.
Me and Drew and Darbs were talking about what we want in life which is kinda weird conversation when you are talking to them... cause they can't be serious(heck sometimes neither can I)but as it came down to it, I learned a lot about my friends. We all decided that we just want to live... live life to the fullest and not really ever slow down. Darbs wants to go into the peace corp after school which is funny cause I never would have pegged him for that sorta work. That is honestly what I wanted to do before I came to Harding but then I realized you need a bachelors to even be considered. Oh well man... all I know is us three were made for each other....
3 questions I am going to ask God when I get to heaven
1. I will ask him to tell me a joke because it would be the funniest joke ever cause God made humor.
2. How many steps I have taken in my entire life.
3. How much time I have spent waiting at stop signs and stop lights.
I figure there will be a long line of people that will want to ask all the same really important questions and God would get bored with answering them all. I think God would appreciate me adding a little flare to the "question answer" time.
Edit:
Drew told me he was singing this song to me
Goddamn you half-Japanese girls
Do it to me every time
Oh, the redhead said you shred the cello
And I'm jello, baby
But you won't talk, won't look, won't think of me
I'm the epitome of public enemy
Why you wanna go and do me like that?
Come down on the street and dance with me
I'm a lot like you so please, hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me
I asked you to go to the Green Day concert
You said you never heard of them (how cool is that)
How cool is that?
So I went to your room and read your diary:
Watching Grunge leg drop New-Jack through a presstable...
And then my heart stopped:
Listening to Cio-Cio San, fall in love all over again.
I'm a lot like you so please, hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me
How stupid is it? I can't talk about it
I gotta sing about it and make a record of my heart
How stupid is it? Won't you gimme a minute
Just come up to me
And say hello to my heart
How stupid is it? For all I know you want me too
And maybe you just don't know what to do
Or maybe you're scared to say: 'I'm falling for you'
I wish I could get my head out of the sand
Cos I think we'd make a good team
And you would keep my fingernails clean
But that's just a stupid dream that I won't realize
Cos I can't even look in your eyes without shaking, and I ain't faking
I'll bring home the turkey if you bring home the bacon
I'm a lot like you so please, hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me
I'm a lot like you
I'm a lot like you
I'm a lot like you
And I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me
End
I am half Japanese by the way.
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