I should be spending this day with you. Even if not in person.

This is wrong.

Lets see....so classes start tomorrow....which are in Midwest City. I'm in Edmond. Short drive? Not really. I'm excited and my poor car is running on next to empty and I have $5.25 to my name to put in it. I'm still waiting for my Student loan refund check to come in. They sent them out today. Maybe I'll get it tomorrow. I hope so. I really need the gas and I really need to go get my school books.Good thing I don't have to go ANYWHERE Wed. so if that check isn't here tomorrow then maybe wed. then I should be okay......I really hope.

Anyways. Its Janurary, new year. w00t? Doesn't feel any different than last year. They never do. Whatever happened to that refreshed feeling people always talking about, that weight of a whole year being lifted off your shoulders, that new begining that come with the rise of the sun for a whole new year. the rush to go get that new calander you forgot to get before or during christmas, cause grandma and grandpa forgot to get you the one you asked for with the flowers, the other countries, or Harry Potter on? Yeah never felt any of that. With the start of a new school year maybe a little. But thats more of "holy crackers batman will my teachers suck chock?! Will anyone I know be around in the savana of textbooks and homework to give me a drink of change and mindless babble?"  Not quite the same. not even the "this year I'll do better in my classes" Nope not the same.

Friday is the 18th, =] Jeremiah and I will be together a whole two months. I'm excited. I know no that long "woo two months big deal" right? Wrong. It is a big deal for me. Every moment it is a big deal. I love every second of being with him. Even when I'm well....not. We talk everyday and I'm greatful for that. We text each other all day while I'm at work or he's at school, or work.

ps - my inner monolog's voice....the voice of anything I write. Is the really pretty secitery for the Minister in Love Actually. That really pretty "fat" (as they called her in the movie) british lady. I'd give up being skinny to have that voice.

Alright, so this morning was alright. I had to get up extra early and help my mom get into the santa suit her work wanted her to wear. I was and am so tired.

Work sucked cause I was tired and people just pissed me off today. I'm really bummed out about some things but I'll be fine, it's nothing important, I just got my hopes up. It's nobodies fault, So I'm not even mad, or angry or anything remotely like that. Meh like you care right? No-one is reading this most likely.

Anyways, Kathy is giving me a brand new pair of skinnies jeans for my little sister for 10 dollars. Right size and color. She never wears them so she offered them to me which is GREAT! Bonus check came in, 46 dollars. w00t. Not alot I know but still.

Tomorrow is Saturday, Jeremiah will be here on Sunday. I can't wait!! I'm really excited about this.

Merry christmas.

So I haven't been on this in.....a bagillion years.

Lets recap.

Chirs dumped me on my 19th birthday. Whatever he's a loser anyways.

I was laid off my job at the Jet on NewYears eve. Sam Goody closed down. I worked at Red Lobster for almost two years. I made a couple of really good friends since then. Lauren, Chenell, and Allie. My sister and I get along now. Awkward.

I quite Red Lobster about the end of september. I work at a hotel called the Holiday Inn Express, up on NW Expressway and May Ave. I like it.

I have my car, I believe I'd mentioned it once or twice. If not it is an '03 VW Bettle. White. I LOVE it. I got it the day after I graguated. November of '05. I got my LICENSE about a month ago, thats awesome. Gas sucks.

I was in my frist wreck three weeks after getting it too. Stupid Semi driver wasnt paying attention, didnt have his blinker on when I shifted into the middle lane and so he slammed into my driver side. I should be dead, but I am not. W00t!

I met a boy August 7th....we've been talking ever since.

His name is Jeremiah.

We're together.

I love him like wo!

Ummm OH I am also in college now! Hah never thought that would happen huh?

Yeah I go to Rose State up in Midwest City, I love my prof.s too! I'm going to get a masters in English Lit....just to start off.

Jeremiah is visiting for Christmas and HAHAH I know what I am getting him now. Victory!

Um...Im spending a week with him In Virginia in April for his birthday also, that is going to be epic.

I think I have covered most of the fine points.....

Its suday. and a boring day it is. Gizmo is going home at 1 something. Said he would be back for christmas. It'll be nice to see him then. Bobby's been so tired from work lately. I feel bad for him. Sam Goody isn't so bad. Then again its still just November. I want it to snow soon. I asked Gizmo if he wanted to get togeather this summer and go camping. He's all for it. Bobby asked if he had a say in it at all we both said no at the same time. Funny stuff, considering it's hard to picture Bobby camping.

Random thought.

Have you ever noticed that when you are running as fast as you possibly can, and it still feels like you aren't going fast enough still and when you keep trying with all your might to go faster that your feet start to feel like they have NO grip on the ground and that it kinda feels like you aren't trying to go fast?

It's weird. and kinda creepy.