New news

Okay, so Katy yelled at me for not updating since September. So here's my update:

I'm pregnant!!!!!!!!!! Yay!

As for other news. I work, eat, sleep, use the facilities, and hang out with my husband.

Oh and do housework. That's my life.

I finally figured out what I want to do with the rest of my life and I don't know if it will ever come to pass. It's almost like I felt when I was single and all I wanted was to be married. I wanted to be content with the way things were, but I wasn't. It was a constant battle.

Don't get me wrong, I am completely content and happy in my marriage, this has everything to do with a career choice.

I feel terrible. God blessed me with a great job that I'm excel at and make good money. And then I figure out what I want to do for a career. Is it selfish of me to ask for the career I want, when I'm already taken care of? I don't want to be discontent and I don't want to be selfish or seem like a bratty kid to God, as if I'm saying what He's given me isn't good enough.

I just know that when I think of horses and being a horse trainer and being around them day in and day out it's as if my soul sighs. I'm going back to my roots. I've loved horses even before I knew what one was! I never crawled, I galloped

To do this I would have to go back to school, which is something I've wrestled with, but know that I'd like to. I would go to Michigan State and get a horse management degree and get to spend 6 weeks in Ireland as part of it!! Another of my long-time desires. Why didn't I do this years ago? Honestly I don't know. I'm glad I've gone down the paths I have and done the things that I have, it's just that I know what I want, no truly desire for my life. God is it possible? Can I ask You to work that out for me?

If not, please give me the strength to be okay with that. Help me to not think of that all the time and wish. Help me to be content where I am and with what I have. Show me what You want for me. I don't want anything that's outside of Your will for my life.

Man has it ever been slow at work. I hope this trend doesn't continue and makes it almost impossible for all of us to make money. is it terrible of me to hope/wish that a coworker that's on military leave decides not to come back? There's really not enough for her to do. I'll just keep praying that things pick up. Not to worry, God is going to take care of us financially.

I can't believe my recpetion is this Saturday. Tim and I have almost been married for 2 months. Crazy! Time flies. But it's been wonderful. Everyone says that things only get worse after you're married (if there are issues), but you know,I think so many of the things we fought baout were due to how much stress we were going through. We do fine now. I mean we sometimes get irritated with each other, but it passes so quickly. Maybe God has just really been there for us and stretched us to the point that we realize each other is so much more important than whatever it is we could fight about. I love my husband, no doubt about it. And he loves me!!

I haven't heard back from my writer's group friends. I mean, it did take me two weeks to respond to them, but I was waiting to cool off a bit and also make sure with my family that my response was well said. So I'll give them another week. The ball is in their court, I'm not going to beg. What I did wasn't *that* terrible, especially since they had absolutely no idea what was going on in my life at the time. Partly because I didn't tell them, but you know I didn't really tell anyone because it was just too dang hard to go through and have to explain to family much less everyone else. But anyway, I don't want to get mad about it. We'll see if they show up to the reception. One of them called to say they wouldn't be there, but the others haven't. I guess I could take that to mean that they'll be there, but who knows. Some people are rude and don't RSVP, even when it's regrets only.

That's another thing that ticks me off. Do people not realize that when you have a party you buy food and you plan for the amount of people invited, less the regrets? You would think that people would be considerate and not make people spend so much more money to pay for food when they're not going to be there. Eventually, they'll have a party and have it happen to them. . .justice. . .

Blah

Today was/is completely boring. Not too much to do. I got everything done that I needed to, plus took work from another co-worker (actually she passed it off on me). I'm bored. Where's Katy when I need her? Grrr. I'm glad it wasn't busy though, I'm feeling a little under the weather again. Not as bad as the other day, but not 100% either. It's gotten better since this morning.

I can't wait for it to be 5pm, then I can go home, take care of my wonderful husband and then spend a fun-filled evening with my sister and bro-in-law.

I redid our budget today and it's not as bad as I thought it was going to be. The first one I based on the first few paychecks I got and they must have been off because the ones I'm getting now are different, but Tim and I are not nearly as poor as I thought we were going to be. Hopefully it will just get better from here now that I'm going to be getting commission and also the married tax break! Hopefully, I'll be able to make good numbers to accomplish this. The Lord will provide though! I know it.

Xanga

Type your first post here, then click "Submit" to publish it to your Xanga Site

This is my first post. I'm almost getting ready to leave work, but I wanted to get this done so Katy couldn't get me about not having one! LOL