| Lost love!If anyone knows Chad Delaune or if You are reading this. Please Email me At gay_guy408@yahoo.com or www.myspace.com/spicy_meow
I still love him and Miss him dearly.
This is The true Story of Me and Chad!
We met Febuary 16,2005 at a club. It was the Most Exciting and Breath taking night of my life. I will never forget that night. The next day we starting dating. We fell for each other Very fast. We made Each other happy, We completed each other. I loved him so much, and i still do. On March 20, 2005, he said "I love You". he really meant it. And i cried, Cried, and Cried. not because i didnt love him the same. it was because I have been waiting my whole life to hear those words come from the Person i loved and cared for Dearly. on April 11, 2005 We had "our First Movie". Every moment we shared together was like a gift from god. I became dependent on him. Not for his money! but for his Physical being. I just couldnt see how i could do through each day without him standing Beside me. He completed me in a way that... I just cant explain it. he made me Whole. You never know you missing a big part of you until you find it. And i found what i was missing. On May 30, 2005, we had "our First Trip" we went to Six flags. and the Greatest feeling in the world was when we held each other tight on the Rollar coasters. We both Depended on each other. Nothing could take us apart. We had thousands and thousands of Great wonderful heavenly memories. I loved him So much. Then December 1, 2005, it was over. our last words were, In a couple of months we be back together. we just needed a Break. My mama And sisters held me tight for a week straight while i Cried my Heart out. Food didnt Taste right, My colors were dull, and I lost something that day. For weeks I cried. I wouldnt come out of my room, or do anything that i used to do. I didnt know what to do. I didnt know how to live without him by my Side. Life was over for me. I would Beat myself up everynight, telling myself that he will come back for me. That our Love wouldnt keep us apart. I Believed In that, I lived each day Hoping that he would call or just show up. I tired my hardest to find him. I searched online, Phonebooks and public Records so i could get his Address or Phone number. But i failed, i couldnt find anything. So I would Beat myself up somemore, blaming my Unhappiess on me. I hated myself and i still do in away. I should have never let him go. I still Cry, I still wonder what i could have done right in order to have saved us.
Its been almost 7 months since i have spoken to him. The last words i heard from him was "I'll come back for you, i love you". After Seven months im still waiting and Hoping that he will come back. I have faith. Just to Hear his voice or Just to know where he stands, would make me happy. I need to move on and i know. One part of me knows i would be alot happier if i got over him, and my heart holds me back. he was my First True love and i know to this day and forever i would be 100% happy with him.
but i have to come to terms with Reality, We dont always get what we want. No matter how bad we Need it! We can Either be like me, Cold, Depressed, Anrgy with yourself, sad, Unhappy and pathetic. or you can move on with your life and Live a happy Sucessful life. Im trying to recover. Love to me is like a Drug, You get addicted after awhile.
After 8 months, I still love him and I will never get over him! |
