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Thursday, May 08, 2008

  • Currently Watching
    Lars and the Real Girl
    By Ryan Gosling, Emily Mortimer, Paul Schneider (IV), Kelli Garner, Patricia Clarkson
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    Thankful Thursday (Vol. 43)

    I love my mother as a tree loves water and sunshine,
    She helps me grow, prosper and reach great heights
    ~ Arabella Radici ~

    This week's Theme: Mom

    This week I have been pondering how grateful I am for my mom. Mother's day is this Sunday and I'm terribly torn up that I am not going to be there with her to celebrate her love, her life and mothering. She was supposed to be here with us this week, but her surgery and recovery gave us different plans. :( But I know that God had a plan in all of it. I'm still not sure what that plan is, but it's something.

    All I know is that my mom is really the best thing about me. There are piecees of me that are really soley her doing. They are there because she spent countless hours praying. They are there because she spent innummerable minutes forming and shaping a character and person in words, discipline and love. They are there because she took just a few seconds everyday to remind us how much she loved us, both in word and with her touch.

    She taught me how to love. She taught me how to give. She taught me how to forgive. She taught me how to perservere. She taught me how to pray. She taught me how to be a woman. She taught me how to be grace. She taught me how to exist. In every minute she taught me how to BE a human being, a Christian, and a Godly woman.

    I know that I've let her down so many times and in so many ways, but it's because of her that the things I am exist. The other day I was perusing Mother's Day cards and I took a collection of about ten cards, because each one said just a portion of what I wanted to tell her. But I couldn't buy the entire card section....so I had to pick one. That was hard. If I had had no cost bounds, I would certainly have bought the entire rack of cards and signed each one with as much love as the next.

    I'm grateful I still have my mom. My best friend lost her mom about six years ago, and she struggles desperately on this day....but I still have mine. I can call her anytime, just to hear her voice, or to get heavy hitting advice, or tell her about the inane details of my boring days. I love that about her.

    There is no truer representation that I have of what God's love, mercy and forgiveness is than my mother. If someday, i'm blessed enough to hear that I am like her, it would be words that mean more to me than anyone would know. I'd be ecstatic, because she's the most amazing woman I know. :)

    My prayer is that I can endeavor to be half the woman she is.

    A mother is the truest friend we have,
    When trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us;
    When adversity takes the place of prosperity;
    When friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us;
    When trouble thickens around us,
    Still will she cling to us,
    And endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels
    To dissipate the clouds of darkness,
    And cause peace to return to our hearts. 
    ~Washington Irving ~

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    Did I mention that she's also the most beautiful woman in the world?
    She is.

     

     

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

  • Currently Reading
    Eclipse (The Twilight Saga, Book 3)
    By Stephenie Meyer
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    Tired Tuesday Bullets

    • Just got in from playing Basketball. I LOOOOOVE playing with my work-peeps. So fun.
    • Still praying with a xanga friend this week, and it's just ridiculously cool.
    • My toe hurts....Basketball injury.
    • Today, I ate a burger and fries from Five Guys. Holy Cow, the French Fries were Ah-mazing.
    • I finally rented "There Will Be Blood" -- look out Cdubbs, I'll be letting you know how I feel about it soon. :) I think I'll be watching it in the morning.
    • Realized last night as I was praying for someone that Low Expectations are just as bad if not worse as all out doubt.
    • I'm about to watch American Idol.
    • And Eat some Lucky Charms. Oh yeah.
    • Did I mention that my toe hurts?
    • I'm complaining, I know. But This is my blog and I'll complain if I want.
    • Today was mildly eventful at work. Had a kid threaten to punch a concrete wall as hard as she could in front of me. (She didn't)
    • My favorite Summer drink from Starbucks is the Passion Fruit Shaken Iced Tea Lemonade. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
    • Mother's Day is Sunday. I'm sad I will not be with moms. :( She was supposed to be here then.
    • On a brighter note, she's healing according to schedule and making progress.
    • AND, I will be heading back to H-town to visit Moms in June...so I might be there around Father's Day. So goody. We get a double dose of celebratory goodness.
    • There's a little thing called Laundry that needs to be done.
    • Tonight at Basketball, I told my teammates that I would not be having any other team for as long as we play. I want them on my team. :)
    • I know I mentioned it was fun already...but it really was.
    • Speaking of awkward...I wasn't but go with me....I ran into a dude whom I went on date with at the beginning of the year (it was a set up) yesterday. It was....awkward. I was again reminded of why there was no reason for a second date.
    • I'm hungry. Time for Lucky Charms.
    • Thursday is my day off, and I will be watching Iron Man.
    • Now, Magically Delicious. And I'm not talking about the cereal....I'm talking about one David Cook. :)
    • Off I go now.....
    • Buh-bye.

     

Monday, May 05, 2008

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    Dead Poets Society
    By Robin Williams, Robert Sean Leonard, Ethan Hawke, Josh Charles, Gale Hansen
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    Something Quotable

     

    God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness
    ~ George McDonald ~

    Leave the broken, irreversible past in God's hands
    And step out into the invincible future with Him.
    ~ Oswald Chambers ~

    Faith expects from God what is beyond all expectation
    ~ Andrew Murray ~

    He maketh sore & He bindeth up
    He woundeth & His hands make whole
    Job 5:18

Sunday, May 04, 2008

  • Currently Watching
    Bend It Like Beckham (Full Screen Edition)
    By Imran Ali, Ameet Chana, Saraj Chaudhry, Trey Farley, Kulvinder Ghir
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    Updateable Sunday

    It's Sunday afternoon and I suppose I shall update y'all on my world of entertainment, and the tremendous blessings God allowed me to be a part of this week.


    Now Reading:
    I have completed the first two of the Twilight Series by Stephanie Meyer, Twilight and New Moon. I am currently reading Eclipse and really anticipating the release of Breaking Dawn in August. The main character Bella is well-written and the stories are intriguing. Definately a pop-culture phenomenon, and probably not well-recieved among uber conservative Christians. Surprising that there's not more hoopla over these books like there were over the Harry Potter books. But as I've stated about the HP books, it is a personal decision and we should never bash something we've never investigated ourself. If you make a decision, I respect that, and probably would be completely cool with what ever decision you make, but I ask that you respect my decisions as well. :)

    Also reading "The Road" by Cormac McCarthy (yes, I read much more than one book at a time) and enjoying it tremendously. Something about the writing style is fascinating. I'm looking forward to reading some more of his work.

    On the queue of reading: More in the Earthsea Chronicles by Ursula Le Guin and some other books! I love reading.


    In the Way of Movies:
    Went to see Baby Mama last week. It was entertaining, but I wouldn't pay full price again.

    Got a copy of "Corpse Bride" and finished watching that today. Thoroughly enjoyed it! Tim  Burton is something else. :) And the music in the Stop-Action Animation was fun!

    Also Picked up a copy of "Howl's Moving Castle" - which is one of my favorite movies ever, and books, if I might add. It's a standard Japanese Anime type animation, but the story is so beautiful. Let's also mention that Billy Crystal voices a character and rocks my world each time I watch it! :) he he!

    Watched "Bend in Like Beckham" this week twice. I had forgotten how much I enjoyed that movie. Do watch it!!!! I exposed two of my favorite people to it! Sweet!


    Television:
    Finished watching Season 6 of Smallville. Man. Love that show. I'm a nerd though. It's not incredibly convincing or compelling telelvision like Heroes or Lost, but it's fun and quirky and delves in the mythology of Clark Kent and Superman like you'd never expect. :) I loved the episode "Justice" when all Clark's old friends of Superhero-dom come together to work. It's great.

    Also, I'm behind watching Lost. I need catch up badly.

    American Idol: David Cook. I need say no more.

    Iron Chef America comes on tonight! Sweet!


    Musically Things:
    Dowloads have slowed down a bit, but I still pick up a few new songs now and then. Here's some of the highlights this week:

    Of course David Cook! :) I now have enough songs to make a cd. Done. And it's good.

    Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis -- This is a really popular song with my girls at work, and it's grown on me over the last several weeks. I broke down and bought it. Good vocal work. It's kinda a sad song though.

    Dreams Collide by Colbie Calliat - I love Colbie. This is a new single, probably a pre-release of a new album due out late this year. But she is the musical equivilent of a cross between Jack Johnson and Joni Mitchell. Good stuff.

    New Soul by Yael Naim - This is the song on the apple inotebook commercial. The uber thin one....the song is really fun. I read the name of the songtress in the paper this morning. I've loved that song and wanted a copy. :) Now I have it.


    The Blessings This week:
    Remember me mentioning that I have been praying pretty heavily for someone I barely know? Well, I was prompted by the Lord to share with that person this week about my prayers on their behalf. Thursday night, I had the opportunity to tell this person...and personally, I was blessed just to get to have that conversation. It's truly something special when you see that God's at work and He lets you have a part in it. :) I can't really share much more than that, but know that God has not released my heart from praying for this person...and that's ok. I'm interested to see what God's going to do...and even if I dont' get to see it, just this small glimpse of God's hand is pretty cool.

    Also, still praying with my xanga buddy and man, what a blessing! I really enjoy praying with someone. Collaborative prayer is what the speaker at church called it today. I liked that idea. It hit me that God has been showing me that prayer alone is good, but praying with, and alongside someone else is....tremendously more powerful. :)

    God's good, right? Oh yeah. Prayer is a good thing...and I'm amazed at God. :)

     

     

Friday, May 02, 2008

  • Currently Watching
    Tim Burton's Corpse Bride (Full Screen Edition)
    By Johnny Depp, Helena Bonham Carter, Emily Watson, Tracey Ullman, Paul Whitehouse
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    Thankful Thursday (Vol. 42)

    Oooooooooh.....Just a few more weeks and it's going to be one year! Yes!


    Not that I speak in regard to need,
    For I have learned in whatever state I am,
    To be content.
    ~ Phil. 4:11 ~

    My job has a really high turn over rate. Mostly because a lot of people can't really handle the stresses, they can't handle going up face to face with the monsters that our kids deal with on a regular basis. Most of the time it's a problem with temperament. It takes a great deal of patience, understanding and ability to set aside you personal emotions to get the job done right. Not that you lake emotion or empathy, but to rightly deal with some of the problems arise. Unfortunately I cannot explain this to you well enough or accurately enough. It's a job that you can't really understand unless you do it. And it's a job that a lot of people don't respect or accept as a career. Which is ridiculous. Most people see what we do as glorified babysitting, and that's not even remotely close.

    But, here's the thing I'm grateful for this week. While I work, I am surrounded by, and made intensely aware of our kids' home situations, and their lives in general. It's sad. And, Good grief, does it keep my heart in perspective. I'm grateful for my life. For not having to know the horrors of the world that these kids have faced. I don't know why God allowed me a different life, that did not include emotional, physical or verbal abuse. A life that did not include just making it through the day, but a life where now at age 28, I can be a whole person, secure enough in myself to make my own path. No crippling handicaps and certainly no failure of knowledge that I am loved. Why did God allow that? I don't know. But I am grateful for it.

    One of the girl's told me the other day in anger "You don't know what it's like to live my life, to be comin' from where I come from!" (Among many other things)...but she was dead on about that. It's ok though, it doesn't hinder me from doing my job. I don't have to live the nightmares to know that they are real. But I tell you, there are moments and times that I wonder why I'm so blessed. And my job reminds me of it daily.

    I pray that God gives you reason to evaluate our life, and give you reason to recongnize some perspective and allows you to be grateful for your life. It's a wonder when we set aside the little things that irritate us and take hold in a small portion of what God gave us. My life is not perfect, but it is infinitely better than some people's. I could not be more blessed.