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Name: Magda
Gender: Female
Interests: Practically everything. Cake decorating, Tae Kwon Do, Civil Air Patrol, reading, writing, violin playing, singing, science, history, READING!!!, music, forensics, archery, DDR, action/adventure movies, ballroom, swing, and contra dancing, choir, babies and little children, and so much more...
Expertise: See interests. (there are some exceptions) I've worked for my parents for the last eight (almost nine) years doing everything from order entry and customer service to writing articles and News Shorts for the magazine we publish. I also decorate cakes and I have been paid for making a couple, but it's not a steady source of income. It's good experience overall though.
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Member Since:
12/1/2005
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| I felt like writingSo, yeah.. I miss being in a relationship. Which is funny since I've only been in one. I keep on telling myself that this isn't the right time to be in a relationship anyway because there are too many things between now and graduation that I need to do or want to do, but I think the truth is that I miss having someone else there. i miss having someone to support me and for me to support. I miss sharing the burden because many things become harder when it's just me doing things. Not that I mind, ultimately. It means that I can do more things because I'm unattached, but, as a person who loves other people very easily, some days are harder than others. Perhaps I need to become more detached from others? But I think it's important to be myself, and part of being myself is loving people. Interesting circle, no? Anyway, I don't know what all to think about that aspect of my life. I'm just praying that it resolves soon, because I don't like dwelling on it.
School is, as usual, going very well. Club stuff is keeping me occupied, but thankfully, I don't have as much to do this semester because I actually have active executive members! Yay! And I love having a secretary. I love it so much! The club is really awesome and growing too this semester. I just hope it carries through.
I did my FBI internship interview, and it went really well, but I haven't heard anything from the FBI since then, so I'm wondering where my application stands right now. I hope I'll hear soon. It's exciting while it's also rather frustrating because I don't know where anything is going right now. It scares me a little how much I'm already focusing on next summer with so much more school between now and then. Thinking of which, which week of school am I in right now? Ah... just beginning the eighth week now. Yep, time has gone quickly. I've met a lot of new people, and I have a lot of friends who I feel that I haven't seen for a long time.
By the way, I miss Yi and Ani... and Jason (no one else gets excited about math with me any more!), and Ramilla and Manda and Deepesh and Kishor and Jill and Myoung-Hyun and Chang and Tracy and Saeromi... and so many others. I love you guys!
I went on the hayride yesterday over at Shyrock's Farm in Callaway County. It was a lot of fun. Jacob and I found 8/10 (or 4/5) of the checkpoints and so we'll see if either of us will win the bike or not. :D Then came the hayride.. which was jouncy and then we roasted hot dogs and marshmallows (but they didn't have the stuff for making s'mores, which was disappointing) and took the ride back (it got pretty cold) and then took the bus back to the school, and then it was 10:30 PM and I was pretty tired. Everyone said their goodbyes, and that was the end of the night. I don't know what I'm wishing for right now, but I'm sure I'll find out soon.
A lot more than this has happened in the eight weeks of school, but all I can do is take everything a day at a time and trust God that He's in control no matter what I do or try to do. I'm only one person, but a person with a network of people who do help support me and make me laugh so hard I cry or cheer me up when I'm down and make me smile when I see them.
Hopefully the next time I write, I'll be a little more organized. :)
Love, Magda | | |
| Country of Greed?http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/wall_street
I just read this news item on Yahoo! News and I'm rather appalled. There's one quote
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"How could this have happened? Is there such a disconnect on Capitol Hill? This becomes a problem because Wall Street is very uncomfortable with uncertainty," said Gordon Charlop, managing director with Rosenblatt Securities.
"The bailout not going through sends a signal that Congress isn't willing to do their part," he added"
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Congress isn't willing to do their part? What about the $9,896,715,137,397.63 that is the national debt at this point? Congress isn't doing its share by paying out a $700,000,000.00 ($700 billion) payout? Sure, that would be less than 1% of the national debt, but should a country that is already shouldering almost ten trillion dollars in debt be thinking about such a thing in the first place? Inflation has increased dramatically over the past ten years and they want the country to shell out $700 BILLION dollars?
Perhaps we should be concentrating more on improving education and, thereby, the quality of the people in the workforce to improve quality of the items we sell so people have a reason to buy things from us again. Is it common to find items with "Made in USA" in other countries? Not if they aren't designer clothes (which are mostly made in China, Taiwan, Japan, and Europe anyways). Perhaps the country, as a whole, should concentrate on reducing the national debt and let the chips fall where they may. There's too much at stake for the government to subsidize a company with a gross amount of money. Economic stimulus can come from other ports. Small business owners are hurting the most during this time. Many don't have the resources available to withstand a long recession. Subsidize progress and innovation, and who knows? Perhaps something will come from it.
That was my short rant. I hope you enjoyed it. I'm glad Congress shot down the "bailout" plan. As economists sometimes point out, the economy works in cycles. When the government gets involved it throws the cycles off, and often makes things worse than they already are (time lags, improper policy, and sometimes just a dearth of knowledge about how the economy works makes the Senate a dangerous place in times of economic crisis). I'm very happy that, for once, the legislature is keeping their hands off the economy. I'd hate to know how they'd otherwise make up for that money!
-Magda | | |
| Sleep, Perchance to DreamLast night I had a dream. It wasn't your run-of-the-mill I wake up in the morning and forget dream either. No, this one is sticking with me. Why? Because it was vivid and because I was dreaming of something I thought I didn't want any more (nothing skanky, I promise). It was unexpected, but also very sweet. It did force me to ask myself, "am I really moving forward in this area, or am I stuck?" I don't have the answer right now. The first half of the dream was interesting.... so I'm likely to remember it too.
So how much do dreams really tell you about your subconscious? I know that if one person had been interposed for another in my dream, I would not have remembered it so well, and it wouldn't have nearly the same impact. I'm forever seeing that I need to move forward, become more independent, and develop. Why this shot from the past? I don't know. All I can say is that this dream was a good one. I don't know where it came from, but I hope I remember it past today.
In other news, Hannah and I bunked our beds and moved stuff around in the room so now it looks AMAZING. I love it!! The door isn't blocked as it was before and I have my chest of drawers right next to my desk, so there's a chance I might actually USE my desk for more than a holder for my books/DVDs/jewelry chest. :) I'm excited about it!
Tomorrow is the first day of classes and I have four classes and then work in the math center. It'll be slow in the math center for the first couple of weeks and then get pretty busy. I'm looking forward to that. I'm still so excited about calculus III!! I really hope that turns out to be a good class. I'm also in a lot of the same classes with Soon and Hannah so I'm looking forward to that. :D
For now, I must bid thou all adieu. I have to grab a quick breakfast before church in Dulany. At least I'm all dressed and I have my own car now, so I'm not relying on someone else's mercy to get me to church!
Love, Magda | | |
| Perhaps a Thought...How to put it...? Sometimes what I write has been known to get me into trouble. My last post is no real exception to the rule. So here you have it:
I was expressing frustration over the content of the movie (and, after I thought about it, a previous movie where it was somewhat of a similar situation) but I did it in such a way that it sounded like an attack against the ladies at church who were so kind to invite me. While I didn't necessarily enjoy the movie, I enjoyed being around them. It's mixed up. I'd like to say, "I'm so very sorry," to anyone who was offended by my last post. Sometimes in the rush that is the need to get my thoughts out of my head into a more solid concrete form, I lost my focus and trample around hard.
So, I am very sorry.
And, not to change the topic, but just because it was.. did anyone else notice what a beautiful day it was today? (and yesterday too, for that matter). It makes me glad to be alive.   I have to admit, my mind has been rather preoccupado with the matter at hand over the last few days. It's strange to think how sometimes even the tiniest things can be stressers.
The good news is that today I gave Yoon her "final exam" for the college algebra course I was going through with her, and she did well. We start trigonometry next week. I discover more and more than I really enjoy tutoring and teaching, and especially math and english. I like practically all subjects though.
It's late now. I'm tired, I have a headache and my jaw is tense and my teeth are sore from being clenched almost all day because of my headache. It's odd. It's been a long time since my jaw has been sore like this. Hopefully it'll be better tomorrow.
Today was beautiful, and I hope tomorrow holds the tradition! Ciao all. Until next time I remain
Devotedly yours, Magda | | |
| The Shape of the WorldNow, as I am sure most of you know—the world is round. There is no ambiguity about this. Of course, it's not a perfect sphere.. there are lumps and craters (mountains and canyons) and all forms of other mishmash on the surface. However, the earth is still round.
My point, you ask? Well, I'm not going to write about the SHAPE of the world, but rather the shape the world is in.
You see, ever since I was a little girl I was raised in the tradition of the church. I was raised believing that rights are rights and wrongs and wrongs. I see life like that. Life is LIKE that. No matter how gray people see life to be at times, the truth is there, as solid and pristine as possible. Evil is there, as solid and black as the absence of light is. Therefore, when I walk into the world, I am surprised. I am ashamed.
For instance... today I watched Mama Mia. It was a church women event. We went to Ronnie's Cinema and caught the 12:25 showing of the movie. Watching the movie, I was ashamed. The movie is about a girl who is getting married and finds out she could have one of three possible fathers. In other words, her mom slept with three men around the same approximate time. She's not ashamed of it. She aghast at finding all three of them together, but she doesn't really regret what she did.
I might be old fashioned... in fact, I am eminently old fashioned. But I do not understand how a church can say live IN the world, but not OF the world if members of that church can GO to a movie like that and still enjoy it. What is morally redeeming about a movie in (SPOILER ALERT) which the daughter calls off the wedding at the altar so she and her intended can go galavanting (unmarried while they do so) all over the place (i.e. travel), her mother marries her long lost love (Sam) who "broke her heart" by being engaged to another woman and (apparently) he went back (after he slept with her), broke his engagement, and came back and found that she was off to the island with another man. He subsequently got married, had two children, and then was divorced. Now, I know the world is all on about "true love", but it seems to me that there is no Biblical allowance for such a thing. The second man (Harry) declares that the mom (Tonya) is the only, well "last" woman he loved, and he goes off with a Greek man. Hmm.... they used to STONE people who did that in the Bible. Not that I'm advocating that sort of judgement nowadays... but, once again, no problems with this? The third man is very energetically pursued by the mom's friend, which is probably the only normal thing that happens in the movie in between butt shots and crude suggestive humor.
So what is my point? I'm tired of being invited to movies (of which I know very little) in which the invitees have some idea of what is in store and I don't know. I'm tired of movies in which my whole body wants to tense up and I have to cover my eyes out of modesty. Most of all, I'd like to KNOW when it's a movie in which I wouldn't invest money because it's just supporting the immoral cesspool that this nation is becoming. No wonder other nations look at us, the "Christian" nation, and thumb their noses in disgust. It says in James (New Testament): (1:19-25)
"Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God. Therefore, put away all filthiness and rampant wickedness and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls.
But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing."
One of the overriding principles of the book of James is that "talk is cheap" and if your life doesn't exhibit the intentions shown in your words, then that's really all you have. Words.
I'm not trying to rain down condemnation. I'm not even saying that Mama Mia is a horrible movie (though it's not one that will ever see a cent more of cash from my pocket). Movies like this can be watched to be discussed, pros and cons, but to watch them for the purpose of being entertained... my question is, where's the entertainment? Sure, I enjoy musicals. In fact, I love musicals. But if the story is corrupt, it doesn't matter how good the music is or how lively the dancing appears. The story is still BAD.
How did sex outside of marriage become so widely accepted in just scant generations? I would wager a guess that the answer can't be found to far from the family television, public schools, and movies. When I was a pre-teen, a movie like this would have been rated R. People say that PG-13 is the new R. How is it that marriage and family values have been devalued? How is it that sibling rivalry and fighting is accepted? Well, how many TV shows (and Disney channel is especially guilty of this) show either single-parent households in which that one parent is harried and too busy for the kids, or the father (not the mother, mind you, that would be sexist to assume that mothers are unable to do ANYTHING) being a weak-minded weak-chinned character? Ladies, wonder why the population of real men has dwindled in the last ten years? Guys have an out. They are SUPPOSED to roll over. Why, the gospel that is Disney channel proclaims this constantly. Kids, having trouble with that brother or sister? Well, find some outlandish way to get even with them and the parents will NEVER know because they are too stupid to catch on.
This could turn into a full-fledged rant if I'm not careful.
I want to end by saying that there are so many more things that people can watch, read, or do... why solicit and support those things that are tearing down the very moral foundation of the country in which we live and cause other nations to deride us? In China I was asked by some girls if America is anything like the dramas they have seen. Things like Friends. My answer was "no, not really. It's blown out of proportion." But I have to wonder, more and more, if that was really the truth. Are any of us really so different? After all, Jesus said that having anger against another was like murdering them in our heart. Our minds are the fertile grounds into which these seeds are planted, and harvests do come, whether bad fruit or good. Immorality is a seductive seed. Watching things in which immorality is accepted breaks down those fences that protect the field of our heart. It takes time to rebuild, and rebuild stronger. Not long when we realize it, but awfully long when we don't.
That is why movies like Mama Mia make me rather sick at heart. Because they remind me of how things were before, and how much I miss those times. Life is black and white. Good is good and bad is bad. Grays come because we accept those things that are bad as being commonplace and then, somehow acceptable. Peer pressure on a national scale. Life isn't meant to be lived in a world of gray. There is no contrast. How do you compare a gray to a gray? You need black and white to see any difference.
So I say, separate the grays back into their components. Show people that life really is full of beautiful colors in which there is truth. Absolute truth. I heard a lawyer say a couple weeks ago that the first thing they are taught in law school now is that there is no absolute truth, and to hear people say that breaks my heart. There is absolute truth, and His name is God. Given to us in the form of Jesus Christ, His Son. If there are no absolutes, then there are only grays, tepid waters, and lukewarm emotions. How dull life would be! | | |
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