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Name: Mikey
Gender: Male
Interests: music, movies......idk
Expertise: it would sound wrong if i said anything.....so how bout i play devils advocate and say is there anything i am not good at?
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AIM:  Rexstar69
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11/7/2003
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lyfe.....honestly cannot be desribed not great but not the worst. ive really been thinking about a word.......and the word is Alive. no9w honestly i can say i don't consider myself alive.....now that doesn't mean im suicidal no..........i simply look @ lyfe and the world differently sumtimes u have to step out of the box. i know it makes me seem a bit crazy or whatnot but hopefully i can describe it. when i say im not alive i don't mean i don't breathe or do anything that other humans i do i simply just don't follow society instead of being apart of and making moves in the world i for awhile stayed in the cut i sat bakk and watched...stopped typing, and writing i stopped with aim,yahoo,xanga,myspace,facebook, with advice and just watched. People these days spend their whole lives trying to find better when they all got to settle for less, lyfes like a rollercoaster or even a car you can't always control it sumtimes you just have to sit back and cruise enjoy the ride yuh digg? As 4 relationshipz i look @ alot of my friendz relationshipz and realize its like a tredmill......its going but its going anywhere. sooo much to make up to break up so much complaining honestly str8 up to all my friendz ill say this stop looking for better be happy with what u got and trust eachotha...sex isn't everything and arguing is ok its actually healthy arguing is the spark of a relationship. theres no such thing as a perfect relationship and ppl don't fall out of love........believe what u want but its the truth
*wordz from the imperfect*
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| QuestionsI haven't written in this for awhile. i guess lyfe to me is a bytch, and shyt happenz and honestly i couldn't decribe it if i wanted to, i couldn't explain the emotions and frustrations as well as overwelhming feelings that flow through my body. I wish i could sit here and describe the dreams now weather u call them nightmares or reality thats for u to judge. Many have asked me if ive turned my bak on my creator(not mom but God) no i haven't i just can't look up in the sky anymore so i pray @ night. ppl wonder where i have been my response im a ghost in the wind, im physically on this earth but my mind frame my spirit my soul is in the clouds. How do i feel about my past you all might ask im still healing but i have not fully healed their is a scar.........i have sort of forgiven but never will i forget. Have i found a new love one.........i might have but im taking it slow
i take life serious now and i have no time for games, but i also know how to have fun. im done with the smuts the sluts, the lies. i take blame for my responsibilites i trust no one until u prove ur loyality. Where i stay ppl get shot and sum die the unexpected happens in the blink of an eye. ppl take columbia as a joke or sumthing to laugh @ not realizing u could be the next person getting shot @. ppl sleep on ppl becuz of their pride not thinking that person slept on could take u on that ride. so as an update lyfe changes only if u let it theirs alot of shyt i have done that ill live to regret it. lyfes not ova so sum how ill continue try, me telling u lyfe was ok........welp that be a damn lie....have i changed..sum but not alot im less dramatic, wiser, and i can learn alot. ive seen alot of shyt and theres more to see when i leave this world believe it you will remember me, not for my singing voice or the dance moves i do in the streets, not for my acting career or how many gurls that let me beat.....im gonna be remembered for one thing and that will be me. when will i hop off this krazi ride of lyfe........not until im walking with my kidz on the other side, shall i show revenge to the ppl who hurt me the most.....nah becuz karma comes around so they r toast, to the ones who roll their eyes or make me seem like im wack believe this when i tell u bytch da beast is back
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| Let it all hangout...This entry isn't based on anger str8 up im hooked, sprung, stuck on her and its no lie. im jealous, depressed all that stuff and thats the truth. i realize moving on sux and this is a rocky road as i continue to pray i realize its out my control im stuck...
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| ...idk lolcan't think of a title but i saw this and liked it...then im gonna get some stuff off my chest
Girls need to realize...
We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But
when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room
and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it
pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls >OR TEXTS< you,
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
That it can't wait
till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
Let us pay for you!
dont "feel bad"
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you.
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not what you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"
i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
second thought i won't say whats on my chest becuz its not worth it. my words of advice and u know who u r "if ur looking for a battle turn the other way becuz in this direction ull find a war. str8 chaos and believe what you want the beast is still alive in me, change or no change ill put u to pain if u dare mock my name" now can yuh dig that?
**im down but not out**
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| Keep it movinWell i must admit this week has been kinda rough mentally ive had alot on the brain but i guess its getting better. i get my cell on saturday which is good so my fam and friends can stay intouch. im off community service as well as probabtion well i get off next month towards the end but hey the sooner the better  . Lifes ok not great hopefully it gets better im healing still it takes awhile longer then i thought im learning one thing bout moving on and healing is u can control ur actions but not ur thoughts completely, almost done paying off chris so i can actually take a breath and stop killing myself over it. I really have been missing my kids i mean REALLY! idk why now though i mean its really hitting me hard this month im just really glad that all my friends have had my back and have been their to comfort me. It's really helping me cope with the pain i really didn't know soo many ppl supported me i thought everyone thought i was bitchin but when my guy friends daniel williams, mike brown, julion, arthur, kj, jerry, sean etc etc even ppl im not close with randomly contacting me like dana were telling me they support me and r their for me it meant alot to me. I guess its good to have friends especially ppl i barley speak to or hang with well now i hang with everyone but im saying before. Im going to celeberate my kids bday in june as a birthday month..........i was always told 0806...but thats only for 2 kids and i never understood it, i just never asked cuz its a touchy subject to speak about. but anywayz im out im gonna go finish my book and clean my ear rings then prob go chill with jevan, andrew, paco, and rob......if not that then ill stop by southgate to chill with keyonia, samiya, quasia,and dymond and IF not that then ill go to pg and chill with aaron and brandon who knows LOL i may jus have everyone come over its a nice day today maybe ill go to the lake lol knowing me i probably won't move and ill be in the house all day cuz im a loser hahahah.
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