hey every one sorry i havent written in al really long time i have been very busy and havent had any time to go on the computer cause i am either working or at my boyfriend jeffs house. yes i am still with jeff its been a year and a half. we are so happy together and we love each other more than any thing he might be taken away from me in a month or so cause he got him self into trouble last summer that past and he got arrested in august and his trial is in may so we dont kno whats going to happen but we know he is pretty much fucked. but we are trying to live everyday to the fullest and not worry about it . but thats not so easy for me i cant stop thinking about it and i got really bad like a week ago when he went to his lawyers and his laywer said he is pretty much screwed. i cried for like ever couldnt sleep and had 3 anxeity attacks. but yea but i hope everythign will be all right.

and no i have a my space so look for me.

well talk to u all later byes

hey everyone long time no talk or could u say no write. but ne ways i have been great these past months. i got my wisdom teeth out last friday i am still recovering i am still in alot of pain but its not as bad. my boyfriend jeffrey came and laid with me everyday he even left school early the day of the surgrey and came straight over when i got home. i love him so much i dont kno wat i would do without him in my life, omg can u believe its gunna be a year next months that we have been together, i also started bak at school i got to wcts for cosmetology i love it there so much better then at spring ford i still love sf but its alot less drama an shit going on . i miss everyone at sf and i wish they would call me sometime and kit. i am sorry if i hurt anyone in the past i am a better person now . it wouldnt even hurt if  u called jus to say hi . but ne ways. i couldnt be ne more happier than i am right now with everything. well i guess im gunna go cause i gotta go study for a test so if anyone wants to leave a message feel free!!! ttyal. much love<3

hey all i kno i havent updatedin a while. everything is wonderful school is over for everyone. me and jeff are wonderful never been better. he is so wonderful. i wish i could see all my friends in from school. i miss all of you so much. never forget me. but anyways summer begins and loads of fun to come. here are some poems for you enjoyment,

a whisper in the night air, did drift into my dreams. a hint of something sesuous, exotic in extremes. a promise of eternity of  love ad true romance. all it takes is for us to dance the lovers dance. i woke and felt chill breeze, but cool me it did not. for in my mind wore vision my passion far too hot. two sould were dancing closely but neither dared to talk. all it takes is for us to walk the lovers walk. i reached my mind out further to see what i could learn. for once i saw the lovers my aching heart did yearn. i wished to see the future and what it held for me. all it takes is for us to see what lovers see. i closed my eyes for wishing and hoped with all my might. that what i was imagining was you and i one night. for if i never see you love i'm sure i could nto cope. all it takes is for us to hope as lovers hope. my eyes are quickly openes by the touch of your soft lips your face of angel beauty could have launched a thousand ships. and now we are together my dream it did not miss. forever now my darling we kiss the lovers kiss.

you are a beautiful rose full grown open to my touch is it any wonder that i love you so much. the stem of the rose offers it support helping it to stand i wonder where i would be if you were not my man. the roots of the rosebush bring it nourishment each day you have touched my life i have graown i am not the same. water is the life of the rose it brings to the pedels you are water to me you have loved me like not other. the leaves of the rose embrace its stem each day your love embraces me and like the rose i blossom just the same. the thorns of the rose protect the bud from pain may the throns in our life always do the same. the essence of the rose is beauty oh so true you will always be my rose and i will always belong to you.

i come home and the house is empty and quiet theris no light. not a single candle is burning yet every room is full. of visions and sounds ofyou. this too is my life so full of my love for you yet so empty without your loving arms to hold me. for now time and spae rule our happiness together our heats and sould unite in a shear love and joy time steals away the hours that we can soend as one and allows space to force its way between us apart there is loneliness and long fo that whic makes each of us complete. but time and sapce cannot change what is meant to be our union is something specail that must be brought to fulfillment soon the peices of time will fall into the puzzle od space and we will be together for always.

where night falls soft like silken threads and love is held above our heads and i lie dreaming in my bed thasts where you'll find me dear. where rivers wander with nowhere to go and dew smells sweet like freach fallen snow and tenderly coos a beautiful dove thats wher you'll find me love. whre love is whispered but too young lovers whispering dreams beneath their covers andlife long love above me hovers thats wehre we'll find each other.

at first sight your eyes captivated me and intrigued me with every stare that follwed. it was an additction i could not stop i had to look agian and again never before had i been so overcome byu such passion. to watch as you turned your head nowing the light hit them a diffrent way each time. every new galre being more breathtaking then the one before such feeling i had never knowm before. on the sincere gentle eyes i fell in love with now love me too.

well everyone thats it fo this entry .. cya all lata

it is so beautiful outside today. and life is alright. i really cant stand people right now people that forget about wat we have been through and gets pissed cause of one thing i wrote and ends it all. but hopefully jeff is goin to come over i cant wait to see him i havent seen him all week. heres a lil poetry for ya....

are we then two havles of one? though i must admit i do suspect when thoughts of you i introspect. in that place that dark cold place. where we meet self face to face. i knew you then as i do now fleeting glimpses alone allowed. never known fully nor too long. though our yearnings real... and strong. do i deserve? do we deserve? is it punishment or lesson learned? the odds lay plans for every man. we are but two who love this day. time eternal will we share? my one true friens.. will you be there?

when the night quietly knocks on my window and my head becomes heavy ready foor dreams. i look out at the sky just to see one more evening. plant into dark.glittering seeds and i hope that tomorrow will bring me the treasure that you'll hear my cry and answeer my call for i need you. i long for you to be nearer and tell me that i wont be ever alone.

you're like a dream heaven found in the blue skys you took my hand and shared with me what i could not see. you took my hand and showed me what life should be. yo're like a dream wind waving in the green trees. you're like the rain embracing the world with a gentle. you gave me your heart when i could not give much. you gave me your heart when i could only offer tears and such. you're like the rain awakening the flowers from their slumbering slouch. you're like the wind echoing waves across stormy waters. you showed me hope when the places wouldnt fit together. you're like the wind soothing as morning dew in the summer. you're like heaven so enticing in golden honor. you loved me even when my words were as harsh as armor. you're like heaven delivering dreams to all the dreamers. you're like a dream....

dont hurt me my heart is fragile. like a piece of blown glass. i'm not looking for sex or lust i want this to last. be there for me when i cannot sleep. hold me when i can only weep. dont hurt me my soul is afraid scared of being stolen away. i'm not looking for just"right now" i want you everyday. be there when i need to talk understand i i need to walk. dont hurt me my body is weary of all the promsed love revoked. i'm not looking for lies i want only the truth spoke. be there to hold me when i cry be the one to wipe my tears dry.