Currently Playing War on Errorism By NOFX see related

-

Well I have a few updates. I did go to sleep last night. It took a while but I did fall asleep. I woke up late and I've hardly gotten any work done so far. I really need to get cracking. Anyway, I want to correct something I said last night. I can speak my opinion to some people, I guess I just take those people for granted. Britt, Mark (he at least listens even if he doesn't agree), and Ricky. So there. I've never said life isn't good to me because it is.

For those of you who are interested my grandmoms house is 100 years old. Kind of creepy when you think about it. I'm going to end up living in a 100 year old house.

Today in Baltimore some girl got shot over a cell phone. How dumb is that? To end a life over a cell phone. And speaking of dumb the dumb ass who can't spell about needs to go back to pre-school and learn spelling.

-RoXy-

Currently Playing Rock Against Bush, Vol. 2 (Bonus DVD) By Various Artists see related

- Feilds of Agony

I am home now but really don't feel like telling you all about my trip. I need something to ramble about and when I find it I'll make sure I'll share it with all you wonderfuls. I'll update later.

Update (43 minutes from today)

Very interesting day. It's funny how you can think of a million things you can say but you don't know how or you can't bring yourself to. Things build up and you just want to scream but you have to stay silent. I've learned no one really cares about my opinion and I only offend people when I do so I keep silent. All I can really do is keep to myself. I've found something to ramble about and I won't be able to rest until I do. This is how I express myself. Today I heard a song and I really liked it. It's called "Feilds of Agony". I like it because it seems to be the only song that can get through to people that seems to not understand music I usually listen to. I mean if John Lennon can write dreamer and it be such a big hit then people can get this song too. Tonight Britt and I watched Kathy Griffin on TV. She was really funny and made fun of a lot of people. It was nice comic relief. Earlier Britt and I also went to Cheeburger Cheeburger and looked at the people who ate pounders. All the people we actually knew of from Edgewood were Andrew, Kiel, Ryan, Brian, Greg "the brick house" Hall, my dad and her. Britt put her picture back up on the wall. It was pretty funny because we looked through all the pictures and I found one of this girl named Natalie who used to date my ex boyfriends brother. It was a real depressing thing to for some reason because all these people were in there but hardly any from Edgewood.

I guess I've just kind of had a moderate/depressing day. Brittany told me that I trust people to much and that's one of my problems. I'd like to not think that she's right but sometimes it makes me evaluate people I've trusted and what they've done to me. I don't know if Britt realises it but sometimes she makes me feel like the way my life is it's wrong and I should change it. Like apparently I'm to attached to Mark and I trust people to much and I'm to whiny and to lazy. There's been a lot of tention in my house recently over a lot of things and I'm dealing with a good amount myself. I'm having a problem with self expression and being able to say what I want. Everything has been turned upside down in the past few weeks. Now I've just managed to make myself unhappy. Well this week I have to do a lot of school work and I have feild hockey and marching band and stuff. You might not be hearing from me all that much but I assure you I haven't died. I can't sleep but I'm going to think while laying down until I fall asleep. Whatever happens, happens.

"The look on you is killing me, drowning in shame but don't feel bad, 'cause I never feard consequences, hate regrets more than apologies."

That's how I look when I don't feel like shit. (Homecoming '03)

-RoXy-

"You're wrong, Trikey is cool and I haven't worn a bib for months!"

So I made the JV feild hockey team. We're going to kick some major ass this year I can feel it. I almost passed out today at practice though. Well not pass out but vomit and if I do that I have to go to the hospital because that's what the G.I. specialist says. So after practice my cousin had to pick up Britt and I and we went to babysit Lily and Justin. That was an adventure in itself. There dog is so cool. His name is Jake. I made 10 dollars for two hours of work. Not bad I suppose. It's another 10 dollars. So we came home and I took a shower and stuff like that and we went to Cracker Barrel to get food. I'm really bored and don't feel like writing this so I'm not going to finish this. Tomorrow I won't update because I will be in WV all day but you shall hear from me Sunday.

-RoXy-

Well today we had a rather eventful day. Again we had feild hockey and after that we had a little break until marching band. In marching band we had to march in the rain. It felt good. It's weird not having band camp all day. I got a little better with the rutine. After marching band we came home. My brother got a snake and it's huge. It eats baby mice. We had some subway for dinner and Britt my mom and I talked a lot because it was only the three of us going. I would write so much more if it wasn't for the fact that I'm so unbelievable sore right now from all the running in feild hockey. I'll get used to it. Apparently after the 3rd day it's a lot better. We'll see, we'll see. Anyway I'm out.

-RoXy-