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| Hm...this week's been quite an enjoyment for me. Chelsea's so awesome! I love hanging out with her in the morning...and walkin' to this bus with her in the afternoon. She's so cute, too. LoL... I had sax lessons tonight... I'm thinkin' since Tyler knows how to play blues on the guitar, we could do somethin' cool with that, cuz I'm pretty good with improv. Oh man, I'm glad I finally wrote the big fight scene in my story. It still needs a little work, like some dialogue and whatnot, but it's really good otherwise, if I do say so myself. Me and Chels are goin' to the movies this weekend, either Friday or Saturday. Hm...me, Tyler, and Tyler still need a drummer...I mean, I could give it a shot, cuz I mean ty always says I'd be able to pick it up easily, but yeah, itd be nice to have someone who already knows what theyre doing. Hm...I don't have anything else n my mind. I'll talk to you guys later. Good night. | | |
| Hey, sorry I haven't written in so long.
I'm glad things with Ty and Jenny are resolved. It's good to know that these people, some of the best i know, my friends...will stick with me through hard times. Speaking of hard times...
Last night I talked to Krystal. She's hitting hard times. Ya know, as long as I've known that she's a romantic, emo chick, I'd never seen this side of her. She was sad... Her friend, also mine, seems to be pushing her away. She's also having family and school problems. I talked to her for a while. I just let her know that she was really getting back what she gives to people. I'm giving her a friend, something she's always given to me. It really made me think...when your heart hits hard times it deosn't help when people say "suck it up." It only make you feel weaker. What you need is someone to stand by you with a bottle of water and a box of band-aids for those times when you get hurt emotionally and also for the times you just don't have the energy to fight the good old fight. That's a friend. Take it easy guys, and keep fighting. | | |
| hey again. okay i take back what i said about my dad. i mean i still stand firm on not wanting him to be in my school life. but hes really cool when hes not involved with school. like tonight we just talked about music for a long time and how its going in band and stuff, and about how i write stuff. i duno but i just wish i wasnt so hard on him earlier. | | |
| Hm...today was fun I guess...me and my friends had some funny discussions on abortion, well mostly just babies in general, lol. i talked to ty oday, and he said his friends doin a concert at the skatepark tomorrow night, and i wanna see it, and then hopefully me and him will do something afterward. he said hes gonna try to pull a band together out of the one his friends aere starting with him, and he said if they need a second guitarist id be the first he'd call. i really hope that works out. i guess i really look up to tyler, i mean he is my best friend, but ive just always looked up to him, but i guess its kinda mutual between us. i just really wanna have a band w/ him cuz we work so well together, and like its so hard to find ppl who are into emo like he and i are. if i cant get together with him for whatever reason, ill prolly hook up with my friend chris, who kinda has a band, i could work with them. but its gonna suck cuz my dads such a loser, hes taking my gutiar away when he sees one bad grade on my report card, but what he doesnt realize is that hes only doing that cuz hes mad that i dont like the way he thinks. he thinks i need to have a college education be a sucessful human being. hes wrong. im already a sucessful human being. im happy with my life, i have a future that im looking to, and i have good friends, and if thats not a good life i dunno what is. i cant stand him. i dont wanna waste mt time on education and all that, and he thinks that i have to have a good job, and he would never get it that i dont wanna have some sucky shitty job, i wanna be in music, where nothing is sturctured where im free to do what i want. and he doesnt get thati dont wanna be like him. and hes too god damn stubborn to accept the fact that i can make mistakes and experience them myself, that i dont need his gay guidance and leading. i just wish my dad was...i dunno. just not involved with my schooling at all. it just makes me mad to no end. but w/e i have another week till he yells at me, and takes my life, aka my guitar, away. i dont care tho. i have more of a life then a guitar. but id like to see him take all of it away. go ahead and try. im outta here, cya chicks n dudes l8r | | |
| omg tonight was a really good night for me. ive been making so much progress on my newest song, i havent named it yet tho, but here it is so far:
life is a vase
labeled "disaster"
and inside lies
the petal of a rose
dying to break free
and find its eyes
as eternity spills over
and lifes drifts down
its trail of lonesome wreckage
there is no turning against the winds
there are but two things for recognition
they are beauty, they are fate
and tonight...i finally figure out how to be happy with the way i feel for her. ive been trying to hard to strengthen what we have, when its already as strong as it can be. this is what i will do. i will love every second of the time i spend with her, as do i always, and its nights like these that make me love her the way i do. and nothing is better than that. so im going to get together with her every so often and just have the time of my life. thats what life is. snuggling on a couch with her head on my shoulder, her legs wrapped in mine, and my arm around her, ive been trying too hard to find something better than that. but there is nothing better than that. so i will love every second of those times.
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