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| I shouldn't be hereIt's pretty late midnight now, I'm exhausted. But I'm not in mood of sleeping, I can actually firmly sure I'll be outright tired and sleepy if I'm not going to sleep now during tomorrow's school, but I still couldn't sleep whatever if I've already able to imagine the picture of the sleepy me laying on the desk and writing my World History test.
Last week was fun :)
The Twin Day, Occupation day, Class Competition, Crazy Hair, and Black and White.
And Casino Night with Winter Dance :)
It's over now, I don't know what if others think, but me? I'm grateful that everything will be in usual again, I can back to my peace world instead of these luxury activities.  Seriously, after all these fun I realized the usual life that I always complained is something called happiness, nothing can filled me with happiness except the peace daily days given by Jesus.  It's a fun week, and I'm totally sure that ---
I'm very, very content.
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| Deep Breath is WHAT I needSeriously,
Everything is toooooooooooooooooo new for me.
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| Dream?Have you ever felt like have something you desire to tell others but actually because of the "oppression",you'll have to shut up your mouth? I finally got the permission (from my parent) to announced what exactly happen to me recently these past weeks. It's still like a dream, I tried to punch my arm everyday to sure this is not a dream, it's the exact reality. And here it is, I'm back to School. Not the local school, it's an America School, it's called Pacific America School (PAS), I've been there for already three weeks. And honestly, it's like a nightmare if you wants me to keep it in secret for so long but surprisingly I done it quite successfully. (Wait, close friends doesn't count!). I'm kind of scared at the first, to study at America School has always been my dream, but in my judgment, dream is SOMETHING which is hard to happen so that's why we defined it as "dream", so when all of these happen I was quite transfixed and stunned, my mind's like suddenly numb. Everything happen too quickly that I doubt if I ever prepared it even for only one minute. But things just happened, and you wouldn't know how happy I felt. Well, no, there aren't any "normal reactions" I used to have when I'm happy (You know what I mean, for example, dancing around?  hahah) But in my soul, yes, I'm really, really happy. My mind's still numb, all words I can express my feeling to others now is : "God is amazing", I worried, I've been buried down byy pressure recently, and sometimes I complained for all of these circumstances. I thought God never listened my prayers, I thought He's never there for me. But now? All of this are more than I deserved, such abundance blessings He has gave me, that I don't even know how to received it.
Oooookay, after all of these mind-stuff, for being responsible, I got to do something before I leave here..
Tag ---
Part 1: On the Outside
Name : Esther Lu
Date of Birth : June/16th/1993
Current Status : Trying to have patient to finish these things =P.
Eye Colour : Dark brown - more black I think.
Hair Colour : You can't say it's brown, but it isn't black either.
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Part 2: On the Inside
Your
Heritage : Chinese.
Your Fear : Just........fears.
Your Weakness : Hmmmmm
Your Perfect Pizza : Wait, it's the part of "inside"? 
Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : Awwww be KIND to me, alarm.
Your bedtime : Very late midnight Still trying to sleep earlier.
Your most missed memory : My mind's numb now....
Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Either
McDees or Burger King : Burger King!
Single or Group Dates : If HAVE to choose one, I'll choose single dates.
Adidas or Nike : Hmmmm no ideas.
Lipton Tea or Nestea : Nestea I guess?
Chocolate or Vanilla : Can I blended it together?
Cappucino or Coffee : Both are all lovely.
Part 5: Do You...
Smoke : I can NOT imagine that.
Curse : Not really.
Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : Alcohol? It's GROSS.
Gone to the mall : Two weeks ago..
Been on stage : Last week.
Eaten sushi : Last month I guess?
Dyed your hair : Hmmmm pink will be good
Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : No ideas.
Changed who you were to fit in : WELL....
Part 8
Age you're hoping to be married : 23-27 (IF I'll able to meet my Mr.Right )
Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye colour : it depends on his/her look.
Hair colour : Coffee brown! (But it still depends on...)
Short or long hair : If it's a guy, short hair. Girl, medium long hair.
Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago : What do YOU think?
1 hour ago : Visiting friends.
4 1/2 hours ago : Church I guess, It's Sunday night now..
1 month ago : It's like impossible mission if I still remembered that.
1 year ago : Just start facing the scary GPT placement test.
Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love : my own fantasize mind!
I feel : outright exhausted.
I hate : someone who judge people through outside.
I hide : the real me to most of the people.
I miss : all my people (sniff) 
I need : to find my own passion again...
Part 12: Tag 5 People.
I want to be kind today you know, even though it'll be weird.
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| My friends' weird, but that's why it makes them so the best."So, why keep escaping from me yesterday night? I wasn't plan to kill you or anything " As I took my hands out from the pocket of my jacket and give a confusion look. He shruddered. "Oh, I didn't know that I thought you were going to like kill me and tear me apart and rip of the flesh of me and choke me to death and kick me and punch me till I am dead and shatter me and tear my peaceful kind heart out and stab me and poke me and tickle me till I am DEAD! " After the silence, I finally burst into laugh and say "Okay" | | |
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