| LifeWell I guess I really don't know where to start at...there are so many things to say about the topic of life! In only nine days my life is going to take another drastic turn...and change is so many ways like it has over the past few months.
So much has happened in my life in just the past year...I will say that Seventeen is a year I will never forget! I have fell in love, been hurt, traveled many new roads, gained and lost friends, and through all of this I have still came out on the other side. Noone knows yet what this side holds! It is but a blank canvas and I, the first-time artist, stand here in front of it. I am ready to paint a picture, but I have not yet decided what of! I guess I will go ahead and split this past year and whats to come up into little groups...here goes...fasten your seatbelts and make sure all trays are in their upright positions.
On the topic of love, this one emotion has held sway on this past year of my life over all things. I had fell in deep love and was broken for almost a week. After I had picked myself back up, I had to examine all of what just happened...why all of this had happened? There were faults on both sides and truthfully I had come to realize that for much of it I was to blame. I now can truly say...if only there were a time machine I could use...I would go back and do things differently. So many people think that but we can never do that...the past is the past and we can not change it. The future is all that we hold in our grasp like a big wad of clay ready to be formed by you, the sculptor. Through all of these experiences, I have realized that I will never be able to stop loving that person, but they as well have their own decisions to make. I can say with my whole being...that if you love someone please treat them that way...show them how much you care. It may not seem like much but it will be so worth your time. We only have one life to live and if we want it to be with someone then we must show them that.
As for friendships, today was ashley's last day in knoxville! She will be moving to Hiwassee College tomorrow morning. Life moves on in so many ways and we feel like we get left behind. Change is inevitable...and we all must face it. What we do with what is given to us...will judge our character and the turnout we receive! I can think of so many things...that I am going to miss...but I can also think of so many new things that I will gain! We are not losing one another...just moving on to the next stage. If we don't hold on to one another though that journey may drift us to a point of no return.
At work, I have made so many new friends that have made such a big impact on my life! When I add them to the list of people whom I have had in my life since up to the first grade and those whom I fell in love with and still love...I have a support team like no other whom I love and you guys should all know that! Most of you have in one way or another made me into who I am...and I will NEVER forget you guys!
I love music, and when you put words to it...it can add so much meaning...the following verses from For Good from Wicked are something I would like to "sing" through my blog to you all!
GLINDA
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
ELPHABA
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:
GLINDA
Because I knew you:
BOTH I have been changed for good
As I head off to college, and my new ways of life...I will never forget the good times including : Fireworks wars at marty's house, Trashing Joel's Yard, going crazy on the band bus, being the drum major and flute section leader, working at the simon guest services booth, going to volunteer landing, awaking in the morning before you did just to look at you, being happy everytime I got to walk by sunglass hut just because I got one glimpse at you, playing yu-gi-oh just because you wanted me to, movies at my house with code 42 and the MKK and not forgetting the big Cooter, good times in deb's office, post-it noting Jennifers office, eating Chick-Fil-A on the clock during Kidgit events, marching on the field with the greatest group of people and looking from the podium being so proud of what you guys accomplished, knowing that even if Mrs.Patelke never told me she really does care, making up crazy ideas late at night for the haunted trail, playing guild wars late into the night with trea, mia, and JT, idiots taping and playing video games at birthday parties, going trick-or-treating down to Paul Bowman's house screaming HEY SUSAN C'MERE AND LOOK AT THIS!, driving a red truck into a culvert screaming bloody murder after we finally stopped, romping the gibbs drumline who dared to challenge us at our own field, going to movies up to seven times just to have something to do other than go home, graduating and watching you graduate, and all of the great times that I could keep listing but I would die before I could finish!
I love you all and we will never truly be apart...
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