i use to feel like the luckiest girl
and every time i complained while talking to you

i was really secretly smiling inside.

here..give it some thought:
i make the effort to call you, to spend time with you, to stay up and wait for you, to endure your attitudes
....and to try
but i am human too
i have emotions - i can hurt from your ignorance

it's almost like i have to live according to your moods
"bad mood. ttyl"
....

hve you ever considered that i have feelings too?
take a guess @ why.

i'm not the guy here...and i really don't want to be
do me a favor and act as the guy

because i am a girl
not the god damn toy you decide to play with when you want to.

but then

i don't care anymore.
caz you don't even care.

c'est la fini.

"...我哋係好朋友lei ga"
"那你不就是要更體諒我"

ha. now where have i heard that before
in english, of course

hbd canada.
really can't stand you.
and will leave you soon

what if i had a chance with everything again.
would i savor it, or would i throw it away like i did.

ive lived my life listening to the very annoying saying
"life has no take 2"
god damn how i wished...i could "take 2"...

loving myself is suppose to be an essential thing to do...
but how the fuck can you love someone
that murders your happiness?

i expertise in making myself miserable..
i expertise in making others feel better (or at least i think i do)

maybe its just karma catching up to me...
maybe its all those things catching up...

and this time
i might not be able to get away

852.
the place i left my childhood in

to 604.

greatful?
...i cant distinguish the greatness in either

fate. this is what ill call it
bye 852.

I'm in thailand right now.
i really miss you guys ><

Call me. hehe. even tho I'm in thailand I can still get your calls.
especially you...