Today was the first time in over eight weeks, that I was able to ride again. Only for 10 minutes, because then my leg started to hurt again, but it was so amazing to lope again. Although my horse was not happy at all that after such a long break he had to work a little bit again. He prefers it much more to just stand on the pasture and eat all day long.

I am working at my uncle´s place now and tomorrow he is eaving for vacation. That leaves me behind with eight horses and 20 cows I have to take care of. And one is going to get a cute littel calve in the next few days. HELP!

Although I am really sad about not being at camp this summer it my life is starting to get so much better right now. And I found my faith in Jesus again.

To tell the whole story: (Warning - long post ahead)

I am struggeling with my faith already for years now. And I stopped going to my church because I had doubts, but also because there was nobody I could talk to, because nobody was anywhere near my age (we are only 20 people in our curch)     But it started to all come back when I worked at Shamineau, but lost it again, when I came back home. But in February, I don´t know why, I started to think about God again And I prayed again. Then in March I had a car accident. I just didn´t see the car coming, slided into it and it fell down a hill and overturned once. The two men in there weren´t hurt and I wasn´t either, but it was a shock - my mom told me later that they were watching the Jesus movie at the same time with the little refugee kids they are working with and one kid prayed to Jesus that night. At the same time a women there screamed and cursed everyone there. So my mom was sure that it all had something to do with that, but that God was protecting me. I just thought "whatever" and I was sure it was just all bad luck.                                                                           After that it all came together. And it looked, as if my whole life was for nothing. Ruth said whe wouldn´t be able to come, the test I was looking forward with my horse was canceled last minute and then in the end I fell of a horse, I wasn´t even supposed to ride on that day and I tore two tendons. At the same time when I fell off a woman from our curch died and my mom and the mom of a friend of mine (we were best friends when we were younger and she stopped believing in God) prayed for me and Anna(that´s her) And so I had to lay in bed for weeks, but it was exactly what I needed. I had time to think about everything and to find out who I am and where I want to go in live. I started to read in the bible again and I prayed. And I got happy.                           Last week Anna came to visit (she lifes hours away) and I found out that she started to read in the bible at the same time when I fell off the horse. Six weeks ago. And she found her faith too. And that was when I was sure. I never believed that there is a dark side, trying to get us off the right way, away from God and I got so annoyed when my mom talked about it, but now I just know, that Satan tried to get me off the right way, when I started to read in the bible again. But he wasn´t able to. God protected me with the car accident and he when I fell off the horse he did too, because I fell on the head pretty hard and it was really scary, for my uncle, who was standing right next to me. But trough realizing this I was able to thank God for everything and now I am happy. Even if things happen, that don´t make me happy, deep in my heart and my soul I found peace and I can say, that I am fine. Although I miss camp and you all guys a lot and it hurts sometimes. I am happy.

I don´t know if that all was confusing and it wasn´t easy to write it, but I just had to tell someone who believes the same thing then I does, and it is so much easier to write things then to tell someone, when your sitting right next to him.

Love you a lot and God bless you

Daniela 

I just heard that song on a CD of mine and I think it is an amazing song. So I just thought I am gonna share it with you.

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=po2BBS1GOcU

And it happened again

So now something else happened but I try not to be depressed or sad and this time it kind of works.
On Thursday the dressage show should have taken place. I worked a lot with my horse and he looks gorgeous right now and is so much fun to ride. But on Wednesday evening I was riding the horse from a friend of mine and this horse decided to take of with me and buck me off. I mean really bucking like a rodeo. I fell on asphalt with my back and my head - but guess what - I tore a tendon. So now I can´t ride for a few weeks and I can´t start working at my uncles place what is really stupid especially for my uncle. But I try to take it with a smile and I use the time I have to lay in front of the TV to learn Spanish and write e-mails.

Love Daniela

So I feel a lot better again. Thanks to everyone who wrote me. I found another show I can start in and this saturday I am driving to another barn having a lesson with my horse for him to get used to be ridden in other places, because he is so nervous somewhere else. The winter now finally stopped and everything gets green and beautiful. In one week our horses are allowed to go on the big grass pasture and then my horse can start gaining pounds. He got a real big neck now full of muscels, but his belly and his croup are too skinny - with all the rips you can see. But becasue I cut his wintercoat off in middle of January he doesn´t have the ugly "loosing wintercoat" coat.

I got some pictures for you but more are gonna follow soon.

These two pictures are taken in the middle of April - we had a long and cold winter. And that is the barn of my uncle you can see on that picture.

Beatuiful Austria - although I can´t see any snow anymore - too much this winter.

That is the little pony. Eating her first grass this year.

And again - in the background you can see my horse. He ís completely free but he won´t run away. He is a good horse. 

So that is him. You can see that his coat is all shiny, but you can see his rips a little bit and I am trying to get the to disappear. But his neck is big.

And again a weird picture taken with my cellphone - him enjoying the spring - sun. How you can also see on that picture I cut his mane so he looks like a profesional dressage horse.

That is him and his best friend. A really good dressage horse.

But that was two weeks ago and now the pastures look more like this:

And guess what I found here in Austria!

And one more picture. That is how me new room in Innsbruck will look like when I move there in Autumn

Love you all