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| This will be my last Xanga entry. . .ever. If you couldn't tell, I have been inactive on Xanga for quite some time now, and now I am officially denouncing what little association I had left with xanga. RubberDuckie8922, although a stupid name, has had a good run for the past almost three years, but now its purpose is over. I have moved on. I feel as though I have drastically changed since I began xanga, some for the worse and more (hopefully) for the better. I guess I no longer feel the need to pour my heart out over the keyboard like I did in my past posts, waiting for your responses. My reasoning for doing xanga was quite pathetic. You have all been a great audience and I appreciate it, but now I have moved on to more important/productive things, like my renewed interest in reading. I have rediscovered my inner bookworm. And I'm just too lazy for this ol' think anymore. Anyway, it's been a fun ride!
Mi amor
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| As you can blatantly see, I am updating xanga, although I'm not entirely sure why. It's not like anyone reads these things anymore since the "amazing" invention of Myspace and Facebook, which are just close descents of xanga, but a little more modern and high-tech. So inevitably, I will get minimal comments on this post because, as I stated earlier, no one will be checking xanga updates. Not that I even care about comments, seeing as how I almost never get on xanga anymore because (once again, as I have already stated multiple times) no one else is on and I am too lazy and/or afraid of getting sucked into myspace/facebook like many other vast, endless numbers of teenage to young adult internet users.
Whew, now with that out of the way, the only apparent reason to me why I am updating is that I should be typing a one-page paper about myself to send into WSU for scholarships stating how "I am such a great person who volunteers all the time and am completely dedicated to my studies and my main goal in life is for world peace and everybody just LOVES me because I am so good with people and have a wonderful personality". . .you know, that kind of bull shit. Do the people who read these papers actually believe any of this crap? I wonder if I would get more scholarships if I just wrote in the truth about how I am just a mediocre teenager who gets okay grades and leads a pretty boring life. At least that would be "creative".
You might be asking why someone who is in his or her somewhat right mind would ever write a one-page paper during the summer? This is a simple answer: my mother. Against my will, she is threatening to keep me under house arrest if I don't finish this paper today, so naturally I am rebelling by not working on it. It drives me crazy because she thinks I am smarter than I actually am, so she makes me take honors classes, when everyone else in the classes are smarter than me, so I have to work even harder just to maintain a somewhat decent grade, and then my mom gets mad when I don't get A's.
I am now officially done with my complaints and ramblings and will proceed to finish writing my bullshit paper. | | |
| "And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me"
I am updating. This is an epic occasion.
(fyi, this could be a some-what philosophical update)
I have been thinking a lot lately about life AFTER Bishop Carroll (even though I still have a whole year left to go). There is such a bigger world than just the hallways of BC. I have actually had a really good junior year, in terms of "figuring out who I am". The first 2 years of high school really sucked for me. I came from a class of twelve people, and I tried to hard to fit in. For the first time, this year I didn't care who I talked to, or how i acted, or how popular I had to be, or what was cool or uncool. I felt like I was actually who I am. Who actually gives a shit how dressed up I get for school? (which is not much because 99.9% of the year I didn't do my hair and wore hardly any make up whatsoever, which was oddly liberating). I realize that in the whole scheme of things, high school isn't a big deal. Sure, it's fun and junk, but it doesn't define who I am. The whole school part kind of sucked, but the experiences I had with people in and outside of school was a lot of fun.
Plus this year, I have had so many new fun "adventures". Traveling down and playing in the Hyatt fountains (which I should do wayyyyyyyy more often, especially because it is like 5 minutes from my house), drinking lattes at the Perk, making a siamese-twin hooker documentary (WOW, don't even ask), and multiple equally cool other experiences. I'm really grateful for where I work because of all the cool people it introduced me to.
I brought all this up and have been thinking abou it because my dad thinks he might get offered a promotion in Des Moines, Iowa, in the next few years. A few years ago, I would have been like hell no, but just recently, I wondered what that would be like, if I might like moving. A chance to start over and meet new people, and just see how stuff would work out. I'm a much more outgoing person than i used to be. I would really miss everyone at home, but hey, there is a bigger world than Wichita. Earlier this year my dad got offered a promotion in Rhode Island, but turned it down. . . that could have been cool, but it's really really far away. But odds are, my dad won't take the job, so I guess it's kind of hopeful wondering
In conclusion, sorry for the long post, but I figured that since i haven't updated in so long, it would be acceptable. This summer, you and I should probably hang out. It would be a lot of fun!!!
Rose garden | | |
| "With your hands on my shoulders ,
a meaningless movement: A movie script ending,
and the patrons are leaving"
So, anybody else want to shoot their brains out from hearing about prom so much? i know i sure do! but seriously, i try to clear my head of it, but the topic is always lurking in the back of my mind, slowly eating away at my imagination. . okay, it might not be THAT drastic, but pretty fucking close.
So my dad just got back today from a convention in Tennessee for work, and it's so cool because the people at the convention give them tons of free cool junk to butter them up, and so my dad gives the stuff to me, so now i have a lot of cool pens. . i do mean A LOT of cool pens
So yesterday evening was awesome temperature wise. . so i decided to get in touch with my inner-child and play outside.. .by myself. . but i still had tons o' fun. i just sat outside, swinging on our porch swing. it's crazy because i haven't swung for so long, i almost forgot we had it. it was just nice to sit and swing and think about stuff with the wind blowing in my face, cuz i really do like the breeziness. then i shot some hoops in our old, tattered basketball goal. it was fun
lately, my taste in music has been really changing and like mellowing out. . much more calm and soothing. i like it.
wow, this is exceptionally long, so i bid you all adieu
-Flower
RIP Tiffany Lavy
It really makes you think, like, when could that happen to me?. . . . I know I didn't get along with Tiffany, but I really wish I could change that now. . . .
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| currently listening to:
"Nobody moves, nobody gets hurt" by We are Scientists
" My body is your body,
I won't tell anybody,
If you wanna use my body go for it"
As you all have probably heard from school, i am quite possibly THEE biggest klutz in the history of history. . . i ended up hitting a tree while skiing, just as i predicted. . .i got a concussion, fun right??? but it's all good now and i'm back in shipshape. . or at least as good as i was before
I've been seriously thinking about investing some money in a digital camera, but they are just so gosh dern expensive. wow, i can't believe i just said gosh dern
for lent, i'm giving up pop. . please pray for me because that is my only source of caffenine and i have no clue how i shall survive without it. .. yikes
well this will suffice for now
-Rosalinda
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So, i watched the Oscars last night because i've pretty much seen all the nominated movies, with the exception of like the constant gardener and good night and good luck and few others that i wanna see. i was ok with the results. . i was happy reese witherspoon won, but i would have rather had joaquin pheniox win , but phillip seymore hoffman did and AMAZING job in capote. . and crash was a surprisingly excellent movie and i'm quite happy it won
i'm sure you were all just DYING to hear my opinion on this matter
so i shall end with my favorite line from the movie crash:
"we crash into each other, just so we can feel something."
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