things are a little crazy.

school isnt hard, i'm just not focusing, and i hate myself for it.
thank god for my sisters. they are my rock. such strong women.
i feel like i'm not taking care of myself, and i feel so incredibly fat.
i know people always criticize me for it b.c i'm not fat, but i'm not in shape and it bothers me
so, please, leave me alone about it... it's a personal opinion, and i DONT have an eating disorder... i love food too much to not eat.
and if you really knew me, then you would know that's true. thanx :]

I'm tired of the people i work with,
they all seem completely content with where they are in their lives
and its so unmotivating b.c they arent doing anything...

I find it ironic, that the one weekend where i decided to not go out and party,
I lost someone I party with.
God had a better plan for you Chris.
you were such a great guy, friend, boyfriend, "brother" to Sigma Pi, and drink mixer
[even if the drinks DID fuck me up lol and i KNOW, you even warned me!!!]
I can't imagine Thirsty Thursdays at Sigma Pi without you...
it's gunna be surreal and hard for a lot of people..
just watch over all of them.. Rest In Peace. <3

Life is too unfair.

"the good always die young"

be safe people. you never know what will happen...
night.

in so cal....

got flaked on TWICE
and both of them happen to live in Rialto.

sick. guess some things never change : /

leaving for San Diego in about 2 hours
and then im going to Mexico tomorrow!

yee!! spring break bitchessss <3

coming back thursday
leaving again saturday for UCSB to party

im enjoying the beautiful weather. : ]
i miss it here but i love where i am at in my life...
ill get thro it. hope everyone is well

<3

definitely stressing about school but whatev.
ill get through it all.

midterm tuesday
two essays due tuesday

thursday: easy.

friday: leave for So Cal

Mexico from the 24-27

im so excited for spring break.
tan. skinny. boys <3
the life.

ive lost weight : ]

im not as muscley as i used to be
but i look better....

Connor is being lame.

Mitch's B-day party tonight
then out to Berkeley...

tomorrow: who knows.


i just wanna party.
seriously.

i am so incredibly unhappy with my physical appearance.
i feel fat and i feel like im always eating.

starting my diet tomorrow.