**good god blindside inspires me**
Breaking when there's nothing to shatter.
Feeling all the hits when there's nothing to batter.
Tears always steam to burn and they seem only to come back and make me yearn.
Love never was real.
The emotion is to slow and it can kill.
Lethal wishes and damned dreams.
Nothing in this life is what it seems.
I wish you would hammer those nails in my hands drain the peircing light from my prison.
I'm the one with no reason.
I wish I could look away.
Would you even remember the things I had to said.
Because there's nothing to come back for.
So lose the want and give the need.
Because you didn't even listen to this stories lead. | 
, it just seems sureall. But hey I know alot of people at the high school I'm going to and it should be fun to experience...though there would still be the tug I feel about john...** i freely admit his name** I mean he meant so much for so long and well I guess I didn't mean that much because there was nothing to remember. Only a few chats online and we never said hey when we saw each other. I guess when you care about someone it is suppoosed to hurt. But yea...well I think this bout of wishing came from a very very truthful song. Hehe funning how that happens. Well anyways...me and my bro are gonna start training for soccer so I can try out for JV at South next year I hope I make it and maybe then I can get my mind of him...I thought I was over him and still he's there...I swear if this dosen't stop I'll have to hurt someone...lol. Well talk to you all later.
