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Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 06:23:39 GMT

Tell me what is it that you see looking straight right back at me?
You claimed to see too many things, too many and still its not enough.
I want you to feel what i've felt, see what i saw and cry how i've cried.

Pull the trigger and let the gun sing,
enjoy the fun that bullet brings
because at the end of your long lost winding road to finding who the hell lost 
yourself,
i bet you'll find me,
still there,
 in the back of your mind,
saying these lines,
getting it into your head.
No matter where you put me,
whether its on the top of your world
or pinned to the bottom on your bed,
i still got you wrapped up around my legs.
Sweet revenge like sugar on a bittersweet valentines day,
cuddling by the fire
or checking into the clinic trying to figure out what the hell went wrong.

You murder me every time you say i love you.
Dying constantly until reality found its way into my head
like i pop those pills into my mouth just to stop the aching.

I love you i love you i love you.
Your corrupted orchestra still strumming it's way through my finger tips
while i beat my way through these walls.
fists unclenched yet foolishly open to embrace you home once again.

You spend your days creating a circus with my mixed up emotions,
juggling your words with my words,
balancing them on the beam
so that we will remain in love,
out of love,
then lost in love.

Tearing me apart just so you can build yourself a perfect somebody.
A ventriloquist placing words into my mouth
like mounding stones into my path.

I walk each day a fallen soldier
stuffed with sweet words and poetry.
But i'm done with breaking apart
i'm done playing pretend,

the mask you gave me is somewhere at the center of the earth
burning its way back to its senses.

Glitches still exist in my demented heart although i claim it's perfectly pieced 
back together.

Broken yet still whole,
and you question how i do it.
Well, that was easy,
I do it without you.

Everlasting

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 07:49:35 GMT

I piece it together, your words my words our words. Make rhymes out of them to interpret our lives, our beginnings, our endings. Your struggles my struggles, the wall we climbed to get here from there to no where. Momentarily i can play pretend, be the chorus to my own orchestra and strum along to your little game. I have acknowledged the fact that things would never be the same. I'm done with racing and running, chasing and sprinting. These rhymes, they take me nowhere. Only on edges where i balance our words so we remain equivalently in love, out of love, lost in love. The past is just a hallucination, as real as it may be, the more i reach the more impossible it seems. So I've conquered the thirst of needing you, brilliant it was. All i had to do was walk away. Forever never lasting. For never everlasting.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 01:47:49 GMT

Philosophy of life.

Humans are like hedgehogs, the closer we get to each other, the more we'll hurt one another. -Danny Huang

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 15:02:42 GMT

Trying but its not enough. Trying won't untie any knots. Accepting it will. Accept it, and find a way to resolve it.

It's because truth hurts so much that we dare not to believe. Our reality is in front of our faces but we never look it in the eye. We turn away and make ourselves believe that its not true. But it is. Quit avioding life and accept it, because when you do you can change it. Don't be afraid to be strong. You're letting the pain eat you alive. Sounds scary isn't it?

When life rains on your parade - you pop open an umbrella and continue to party hard. Although sometimes your mind wanders off on its own back into that dark corner of your life - let it go. Anylize that very moment and tell yourself, "How do i change it?" What can you fix now that will help heal the past? What can you fix now to help mold the future?"

All our lives, we've always been waiting for that very right moment, that very right time, to do the most rightest thing, to say the most rightest words. And time will tell when that moment is, not us. But patience and commitment will bring us there. Right now you guys don't really need someone to tell you they understand, right now you guys need someone to tell you that they care, and that its okay. Everybody is foolish once in a while, and a fool will play their part, until another fool comes along.