everything i know slowly starts to fade away -realization of who I'm meant to be finally sinking into me today,

cold-alone-hurt and broken , not completed by so much soul searching have left my wounds tore flesh wide open- dun ranting to false gods , worshiping fiction

just-needed to open-ma-eyes  take a deep breathing of toxic air,being me aint nothing but pain,

so tore open these wounds fresh failure cant see see why they'd want it this way, even my parents say I'm fucked today, don't tell me lies no more prophesizing

strait forward truth , full the discontent that's fulling ta burn inside me ,

help me help you discontinue me  tell me things that foo-ls belief

chances are I've heard them echo deep inside-a-me

rhythmic heart beat pulse not fading to much time has gone into this type of debating weather or not i should feed off these parasite words leech off of them hanging on worshiping every verb!

I'm going crazy lunatic , in the trenches. mortars non stop till death I've bit

It's coming near it's feeling good, i like the sensation of being alone,  something about hate fueled emotions keeping me still flesh and bone

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so im depressed o well.. -.-

I'm to far away to tell you, I can always be there.
I'm to unworthy of your love,
To deserve your care.
This seperation is killing me,
I wanna hold you but so many things
Are always stoping me,
I am not worh the loss of a freind.
Icant be the reason, You let hell be where you in.
Dont get me wrong I'd die with out you.
Because I'm here breating with out you.
I can't conceive the thought that ,
How you feel is real and maybe you do love only me.
I've been raised to know i'll be nothing more then worthless,
This echos in my head
I'm crying and out of ways not to think of reasons for dieing.
O'm not the greatest, I am a bastard a thug
My insides are crimson black ,Iced out and cold I've been beaten as a rug
I shouldn't be here on my knees in front of you
Ishould be face first on my floor with scars on my wrist.
Reopening each one with a needle and a fifth
I dont deserve to hear you Say  my name
Karma wont let me see your face again,
my past wont let me be the man im ment to be
my uglyness is what drives you away from me,  My bad habbits and ways  made it so i cant see you
Im worththe price of nothing I'm a bad person with no heart,
I'll only be trouble beat and bury me with the same shovel