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Saturday, January 08, 2005

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 00:47:14 GMT

so here i am .. sitting at my mom's again with nothing to do.

well i came over for dinner, but someone ate all the chicken! so i'm not hungry anymore. isn't it sad.lol im hungry and bored. as usual these days.

tuesday this past week i finally drove over and saw melanie. gosh... it was fun. well for me it was.. since there isn't anything to do out here. but we had a mini girls day out.

hmm... and last night i saw clayton b4 school starts. he took me to dinner and a movie. i was sick and groggy and guess what i was tired but came home at 12. gosh.. it was icky i didn't go to work yesterday etheir i just wasn't in the mood. and in the correct health to go. so i stayed hoem and cleaned my room and.. i even rearranged it. =/ yea i was that bored.

i work weekends now as a guarantee. since i got a job at great clips. yups.! i'm a receptionist and i do what a receptionist is supposed to at a salon. hehe.

monday following that, i resume school! yay.. well kinda .. i''m looking forward to it and i'm not. yups. im taking 4 classes and i'm not sure what to think of it. i 'm not taking a PE course, but i wanted to take yoga. and for something new, im taking spanish... 100~! hehe hey i gotta start somewhere! so i'm excited about that.

i want to quit arrowhead bagel , but im just not ready to yet! i love working there and communicating with customers.. but the hours aren't gonnna hack it for me. sucks but i gotta do what i hafta.

i still miss all of my friends i wish we all were a lot closer.

i really should update this more.

i hope everyone had a good xmas, mine was ok

hmmm happy new year, i'm glad that all of us have made it to the new year. for new years, i didn't have as much fun. i was homesick. it was the first new years i had away from home and i wasn't enjoying myself at all. i didnt even drink! lol well yups not to bore u again.. so im gonna go!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 05:05:21 GMT

Hmm... Remember that weekend before thanksgiving? with all that heavy rain and rain and pouring rain? well up over here .. well a good 15 minutes away all the way the cajon pass and up the hill to the mountains, IT SNOWED! yesirreee it DID! & i was the lucky one to get STUCKED all the way up there.

That saturday, clayton and his daddy dave took me to the majove desert so we can all look at Indian petroglyphs. boy was it a beautiful day. the sun was out and heated us just right and the wind was just graceful. As soon as we get home... it gets chilly and we notice it starts to hail. we were like WHOA... today was soo pretty and sunny and LOOK AT ALL THE HAIL... gosh it was POURing those DIPPIN Dots!

the floor looked so white and scrumptious! soon, the hail lightened and we started to get little flecks of snow. i was supposed to drive down the hill that night to get home but the taylors in no way would let me drive down the pass in that weather becuase i have never driven in such conditions. so i ended up staying the night. We went over to the Thompsons which are the neighbors and family friends of the taylors. the boys had a big poker night and talk of religion beliefs and existing gods - while on the other hand, the girls just talked looked at already bought xmas gifts, baked and watched over the little ones. .. dave clayton's dad was soo drunk off of beer. at the time i wanted to go home, he was still drunk and going on and on about religion, so clayton and i decided to walk all the way home in the snow. We didn't realize how freezing cold it was and how much snow was falling.. we were soo tired and cold sooo soo cold. the walk was only a block in the dirty snow road but it felt like miles of snow that we had to walk through... i was so lost and out of it.. i stopped layed down and made a snow angel. i went to bed after i changed all my wet drippy clothes and fell asleep around 230. around 430... i hear banging on the door it was dave.. still soo drunk he had just gotten home... we were surprised and all shaken up... the whole ground was white... everything around us was white... pure sleets of white... it was like heaven.. so we all got up.... put on our coats... and went outside took pics and that was it... gosh when i woke up.. my car had been devirginized by the snow.... MY BABY HAD NEVER SEEN SNOW BEFORE! my car: my baby has never seen snow... and for the first time... it was practically buried under a 1/2 foot blanket of snow! it was a wonder to see!

i couldn't go home that day... it was just soo thick and white and gloomy... i waited til later... and still couldn't go home... so i made a snowman with clayton that was taller than me! it was so much fun, we had our first snow day together!.. i even missed work that day. and my group meeting for the oral presentation i had to give in english clas.. gosh i flet so bad... the meeting was at my house too... and i couldn't make it cuz i was having a snow day. soo sad.

i finally got back home an hour before school started so i just met up with my group members b4 class... =).. that was my snow day experienece... i loved it to death!

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 04:21:54 GMT

well its a tuesday night and lil sarrine is supposed to be finishing up her paper. hehe well its doen i just gotta print it. updates... i', <3-ing school to the half a millionth power, i just really gotta spend more time time studying and reading,.. yups damn.. im letting work and sleepiness get in my way when i shouldnt let it.

on the other hand, i am completely happy withe the choices i have been making lately. I have Clayton by my side. he really does make me smile. for all these years i have been single, he surely makes up for relationships i havent had. although i dont have that million dollar FAKE smile, he's my reassurance that a $50 dollar smile like mine is just as beautiful. its soo soon in the relationship, but i can definitely say that a part of me has already fallen in love with him. lol sadly i am no longer the LIL'one i had used to be and part of me still is, but i am now... ungratefully, a lil monkey that does tricks...hehe.. weird huh? its something u have to be around the both of us to understand. haha " bong bong bong" i laugh now, but its sooo annoying when it's really happening. don't get it? just ask.. haha i don't want u to assume anything.

gosh and having my work where it is, im loving the fact i get to meet all these ppl out of the blue and be able to carry convos with them.... hmm the road is going great. & about lettie, hehe now she's my "sis" she stopped by work while i was on shift and she was on her way to work.. she was soo SWEET .. she thought about me and dinner.. haha... she brought me a Supreme chicken taco from del taco! she really loves me and i love her. hehe aww but she remembered and thought of me... hehe that was a good dinner! thanks lettie- sis!

i talked to oscar last night... that was just a relief to talk to him. he also made me smile inside. i continue to wish him well he's been great to just be able to call and talk to me. i just hope he knows im here to talk WHENEVER he needs. well why not some ask? well its all cuz we're friends and that's what friends are here for. we are EACH OTHER's MISSING SLICE OF PIE. in weird ways, we do complete each other. we just weren't meant to carry on the relationship in other ways. sound weird, but it's all ok for me. im happy where i am at now becasue of him and im sure he'll do fine again with the life he's living. well that's that for now... as long as his PSYCHOpaths stay in control & don't get too out of hand... =)

time to eat my usual late dinners ... all of ya'll know where to reach me when u have the chance.

Thursday, October 07, 2004

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 19:04:46 GMT

lol.. ok i am finally back. gosh it took me a while to eat those noodles.. lol .. well that day on my previous entry, i just got caught up with talking to my mom.

anyways, its been 3 and a half weeks since i have met clayton. for soem reason i feel so comfortable around him. according to lettie, we have a love-hate relationship... and i really think we do. we have our lil disagreements be we are both there to laugh it out in the end. gosh my mom even has the likings for him. and my sis has even invited him to the bbq. i love being able to just lie there in bed and have him on the other line of the phone. he's doing all the talking and im listening which is just fine. i get all trapped listening to him speak. he speaks of much informing things and it isnt at al boring i always have questions in the end.. but hes able to answer it all. the way he tells stories is just great. sometimes i feel that my life compares nothing to his but its ok i still have years ahead of me to learn and experience things.... i really do feel that i have known clayton for so long.

last friday, october 1st, was letties birthday, she turned 19 and there was a lil gather ing at her house. having not slept the night before, i didn't handle the booze so well. not that i vomitted or anything extreme.... i just wasnt feeling so fly. i felt so heated up and quezy... but clayton was there to support me and keep me on my feet. he didnt realize that he started me with the woozieness.. i was fien til i sat on his lap int eh chair and he started to rock me back on forth. and then i had completely lost it and i couldnt feel my toes... i got soo scared and he held me up so close against him. i felt so relieved and safe with him there it was so comforting i had him in my arms that night. but before it all, when i had first arrived, clayton had thought i was mad and upset at him for something, so when he went to get more booze with letties greg, he returned with a sticky hand, you know one of those from the quarter machines? well that was that... i htougth he was such a big kid that moment. but he told me to go by his jeep so we walked there together and he had a pink rose waiting for me. that was soo sweet but not needed. i told him i was fine i just needed sleep but i thanked him for the rose. and that was that. til this day we still talk and want the presence of the other. .. he's my clayton now my big bay. hehe

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 23:38:49 GMT

today's entry isn't going to be like all the other days. funny huh? well this time i have something worth talking about. =)

i don't know how to hit of this little entry or start talking about it but here it goes... as corny as i always am.

so as u guys all know, i work at arrowhead bagel co. and i'm loving it! yes i surely am i couldn't ask for better people and management to work with. i do work with a little miss : Lettie. she's the sweetest ever and quite soem role model. anyways... for the past 2 weeks she's been telling me about her brother and how she wanted me to meet him and just little this's and that's. so this past monday, i had the courage to go back home with her and i met her brother clayton. i didn't know what to expect all these days and i just didn't know what to think of myself. but i did it... and the outcomes turned out great. better than any of my expectations if i did have any. but yes.. clayton's a very sweet guy, he's charming. i even met their lovely parents.. the first night and i meet their parents! hehe they are surely a loving sweet family. very loving in fact. i had a great time that night just laughing and getting to know lettie better as well while meeting her brother in the same night. that was quite some experience. we had dinner in the area with the three of us. and surprisingly, it wasn't awkward at all. we were laughing, cracking jokes and just enjoying ourselves. we went back to their parents' and clayton taught me how to play pool. that was neat... i dont htink i ever played pool before. well remembering it all now, lol we didnt even finish the game. he had one ball left and i had three ... he was going soo easy on me. ok brb paused at 4.38. i gotta get soem noodles! yummm

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 08:03:44 GMT

i really hate days when i feel all lethargic... today was one of those days. =/ i do everything soo slow and it throws me off track... what ever went missing or out of count, i hope it is found soon so that i can sleep tight without anyworries.

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 04:07:10 GMT

it is saturday night and i am here at my mama's. no party tonight oh noo.. lol well no i did my share of partying and frat parties last night.. yup... lol my first frat gig and... it wasnt that big of a deal hah.

well here's how things went. after a long day at work on saturday afternoon i drove over to fullerton to spend the night at melanie's . yups.. it was an awesome experience although we didnt get to do much. in other words, we didn't accomlish too much that night.. we waited for maggie to get home from work. she works at black angus.... and she's gay. well she's openly gay and is unsure whether she's a lesbian or bisexual. melanie sure has been grouped well with her suitemates... they are all lovable people. well as we waited for melanie, she helped me straighten my hair. and yeah we got all dressed up for the night. in the meanwhile, i met cara-mel. and her two friends from santa barbara: jenna and kelly. and there was jackie who i met earlier ...ummm and there was the guys .. umm noland, ned androb and a few other i couldnt catch their names. and ofcourse there was the outgoing girl: darby who knew just about everyone around... so there were some smirnoffs left in mels fridge and nikki the girl across the dorm came by and had one.. i think by the end of the night she was sooo wasted.hey friend missy was sooo cute... she was telling us about how she got soo wasted the other night before and just started running and kept on running screaming out that she was on the run.... and then we went to neds at the university village. cara and maggie had drinks and shots there.. and got a little tipsy... i lil too much tipsy. we headed off to a frat party but like damn.... we got in there and there was no one there... and we had to leave also cuz they didnt let the boys htat were with us in... and there you goo.. itw as about 2 in the morning... we headed back to the UV's and the girls just wanted to find a dorm room that had dancing in it.... we were pissed and mad there was no place to go for the night

so by then walking back to mels suite, we all decided to call it a night... but we were hungry... so we drove to in and out. gosh it wassss sooo good! well yeah we got home chilled with everyone teased the guys here and there.. well the girls did... and that was it.. a lil of college life b4 college even starts for me.i met john some guy mel is talking to... he's cool he spent the night just caressing her while we were watching drop dead fred and just talking and catchin up on everything. bedtime...430. woke up at 1030... chilled showered Melanie treated me to lunch at Islands! it was soo good... yeah... it was good../ after that ... soem of the girls and the guys went swimming... and then,,.. we headed off to downtown fullerton just to check it out.. there were quite soem thrift stores and antique shops a weding shop and a red hat society store with nothign bt red and purple items in there in honor of older ladies over 50.. that was scary... it wass ok... lol it was a nice area though. ok now im here at moms killing time b4 i go home to sleep for work tomorrow... uhh i dont know what else to say.

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 03:59:08 GMT

oh goodness.. damn i could not sleep last night. i woke up to pee at 3 in the morning cuz it felt like my bladder was soo full. so i thought everything would be ok after that , but no it wasn't. i felt soo much pain! i couldnt go back to sleep cuz i had this throbbing pain on my right side insode of me. it sort of made me nauseas. and gosh how much i wanted to sleep but i couldnt. and it hurt so much but didnt hurt when i sneezed.. so i dont know what kinda pain it is. i started to think i was gonna fie it hurt so much inside of me. for a moment i thought i had an appendicitis or something but i eventually fell asleep and the pain was gone. there it goes or seeing the doc.. but i guess everyhtings ok for now since the pain went away. who knows.. if it coem s back ill go get a check up. and damn if i had gone to the docs today... it wouldnt have been open anyways. ahhh... im gonna live life full of pain.

Monday, September 06, 2004

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 00:47:11 GMT

wow... lol i went clubbing for the first time ever last night and go up for work this morning... whew.. im pooped!

well here's how my lil experience went. first opinion WOW>. so cool .. ahha im sucha dork... then i realized that there were soo many older mecixan guys there like olddddd.. liek damnnnn old and perverted! its a club right? but i also think they let too many of them in that night... hehe just to make the club look full...l iek if u got rid of them and other old ddd ppl.... i think half of the club would be full. well i did get my dance on.... and i was about ready to get ontop of that bar and dance.. but didnt want to cuz i was in jeans and sneaks.. hehe well yeah i was kinda up for goign up there... i boogied the night away @ the boogie in anaheim... interesting huh? well yeah.. one moment some guy started to rub up from behind me... and i jsut turned around and stepped aside so m sister could step in.. she gave hima dirty look and haha.. he walked away so quickly and got lost in the crowd i never saw him again that night.. YAY..

not to mention... damn my driver was drinking and driving... hehhe. well it was kinda scary not anything like a he he... yeah she was speeding too much for my lil shaking bones... yups.. yeah i went with my sisters and her co workers.. they were all loud and funny ... damn party animals... as usual we went to eat at denny's... haha yeah we almost got shot there cuz of demarcus... damn.. what and asshole the manager even stepped in to make sure everything was ok... well im kidna tired from the night... ask for more if u'd like to hear more.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 01:52:29 GMT

for some reason... my eyes really hurt today... they feel sooo strained! .. boo hoo.. and i didn't get to see jayR today... LOL i don't know if i will .. i think its just going to be random incidences. =D well yeah it was quite busy today... pretty hot but... yeah... umm one delivery man was perverted looking... i was so glad he left when he did.

i am at my moms.. she made some thai salad with umm.... lemon grass and sliced steak.. it was pretty dang good.. i want some more... =P

oh yeah.. why... i dunno but i like to play melanie's rap mix in my car.. over and over.. and the same goes for my cd of maroon 5's acoustic version of she will be loved... its soo cool yet scandalous. but for some reason im in love with it. =/ yeah weird... its soothing and disturbing.

damn it... its one of those moments when i feel like theres nothing out here to do again... i want to go shopping...

this past weekend i went to the fashion disttrict in downtown LA... i liek it there theres sooo much good deals... i want to go back and get some outfits....

.. hmm i guess that's it for now i don't know what else to say my mind is sooo boggled!