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Name: monica*renée
Birthday: 3/25/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: where to start? well My Sovreign Lord would be at the top of the list.. i wouldnt be even CLOSE to who i am today if it weren't for Him living in me.. then there's music.. LOVE to sing..and dance.. sports are a key hobbie of mine.. soccer, basketball, volleyball.. then snowboarding.. umm friends, movies, family!!umm saskatchewan and the prairies.. k.. well if you wanna know more.. jus ask me.. im more than willing to talk to anyone who interested =)
God bless.<3
Occupation: Medical
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MSN: livinglarge07@hotmail.com
Member Since:
7/3/2004
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| what i have learned this year..so.. i'm sitting here at home on a sunday.. sick.. pretty bored.. thinking pretty deep thoughts.. and i realized that it has been awhile since i've wrote in here, so here i go
only one more week left of school.. mahn i can't believe the year's pretty much over
its been such a hard year.. not jus with the school work, but with all my injuries, work, and dealing with the breakup of myself and andy
oh mahn has it been a long year.. it took the entire year to get over the fact that andy and i are no longer-- it has been such a long rollercoster. But i would never take it back in a second. Its kinda funny to hear myself say that.. i would never take back all the tears, all the heartache, all the anger, bitterness, jelousy. All my words, feelings, thoughts-- all the pain. I wouldnever take it back. Why? well plainly because God used all that time of suffering and loneliness to bring me back to the bestest friend i have ever had, ashlee, to bring my little sister, big sister, and big brother all closer, and to make me stronger as a child in God, and as a single female in a world so demanding of a constant relationship.
This year, the year i turned 17, has taught me so very much. Like how you cannot force yourself into a relationship, and when in a relationship, you can make yourself believe ideas you set in your head. I found that I look way too deeply into the future-- as in as soon as i like a guy, i picture us getting married pretty much. And not that thats wrong, but for me, when i start thinking like that, i start putting words into the other guy's mouth, and i start "hinting" at things he should do or say-- i jus fall head-over-heels for him, and i loose focus of God. That is when its gone bad.
I've also learned that i need to be happy within myself. Not listen to the magazines that say imnot skinny enough, not listen to my friends when they think i should get a boyfriend, not fall into the party scene, jus to fit in, not do any of those completely idiotic things like drugs or drinking. I need to find myself in God, and rejoice in it, because that is who i am, who i will always be. And that is what i found. I found the inner athlete. Even if i am injury-prone, i still love sports. I found the leader within me, the one who can help other people so much jus by listening. I found the single-happy person.. the girl who doesnt need a boyfriend on her arm to feel secure. The one who would rather have a night out with her girls, then a date with a cute boy. I found the strength to fight the temptation of liking andy again everytime i talk to him. I have found the survivor within me.
I have heard some people say that loves not worth the pain--cuz no matter how great the guy is, you'll always get hurt. But i found that when you love, you will be hurt, but when you hurt, you will struggle, and when you struggle, you grow, and when you grow, your able to love to your fullest.
Love is a risk that we are all needing to take. You cannot sit on the sidelines every game. You need to put yourself out there, be willing to get hurt, cause if you dont, life will soon get borring.
Something i always remember, that this year has taught me, is that no matter what happens, God is ALWAYS with me. There is absolutely no way i could have gotten through these long past 10 months without Him. He has held me up, kept me strong, and helped me grow in every possible way through this situation. And i must say, that i am happier now than i have EVER been.
God is amazing. | | |
| cutenesssi want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall
& make all the girls jealous.
I want someone who would sing to me at random moments.
Someone who is more goofy than romantic.
A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when I'm acting dumb.
Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me
at all the old nintendo games, && then let me win.
A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh.
He would play with my hair all the time && surprise me with 25 cent rings.
Someone who I could share lollipops with && lay on a blanket with to count the stars.
We would buy tons of disposable cameras to take thesilliest pictures of each other
&& squirt water guns at each other in the house. But mostly;someone
who would be my best friend && would never break my heart.
He would just always make me smile <3 | | |
| so i've been annoyingly busy lately.. honestly i dont know where the time goes.. but one good thing is that its now only 9 1/2 weeks till summer! cannot wait! don't get me wrong.. i love being busy.. but when your not getting enough sleep, and end up catching up on it in class--- it doesnt seem all that great =P.. but the weekend is soon.. so it shall all be fine.
mm but besides me being sleep-deprived, life has been pretty awesome. the sun is FINALLY out, i have a best friend whom i can turn to (<3), my sports are now jus for fun, and not serious at all, works going good, and me n my lil sis are tight! God has truelly blessed me with so much, and even though it can be so hard to focus on the positive, i can't help but smile when i do.
I don't have much time, as I need to leave for work pretty soon.. but I jus wanted to put my 2-cents in, so there it is =) i would jus like to end off with the proven fact that i miss ashlee like a fat kid on a diet misses cake. love you forever darlinggggg.
naha easter's next week.
chocolate
YAY
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| the perfect love quoteyou aren’t going to be his first, last or his only.
he’s loved before, and he will love again. but if he loves you now
what else matters? he’s not perfect, you aren’t either.
and the two of you will never be perfect.
but if he can make you laugh at least once, cause you to think twice
and admits to being human and making mistakes,
hold onto him and give him the most you can.
he’s not going to quote poetry, he’s not going to be thinking about you every moment
but he will give you a part of him that he knows can break.
don’t hurt him
don’t change him
don’t expect more than he can give.
try not to over-analyze..
smile when he makes you happy
yell when he makes you mad
and miss him when he’s not there. | | |
| - Safe Place to Hide so wow
so much has happened..
youth quake..
road trip..
soccer..
and ashlee being here!
Life is so amazing.. it can be so tough ( as i well know)
but when you trust in God and lean on Him for everything,
He will get you through it
and will make the result SO worth all the pain and suffering
I have no idea where i would be without the help and love of Christ
depressed for one thing
but ah yah ash got here today.. for those who dont know who she is, she's been my best friend since...what.. we were one?
she was my very first friend, and i intend on her being my last, haha
she's only been here for like 7 hours and we have had SO much fun!
naha the pics will be up on my MSN space soon enough
but aah yes.. 16 years and counting.. thats what frienship is.. lasts even when theres years in between communication
i cant wait to find out what adventures we'll be going on next =D | | |
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