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Name: Sassy
Gender: Female
Interests: I have been learning and practicing Reiki for over five years now and am making plans to learn Past Life Regressions. I love Yoga. I read about the Bhagada Gita...the teachings of the Yogis...I love being a mom, writing short stories and poetry, reading, cooking, yoga, walks and I thoroughly enjoy long talks with interesting people. I also really like to eat.
Expertise: I am not an expert in any one thing, but I do know what I like: I like children, animals and laughter, good health, music and dancing wild and free, long walks on the beach, the ocean, camping in the mountains, stars, thunder storms, rain in my face, reiki and meditating. I believe the best riches are the love and acceptance of ourselves and those we love.
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
12/2/2001
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| BETTY BOOP (8/03 to 4/08)
Tonight Betty Boop died, our Guinea Pig just under five years. She has been sick so many times and kicked back. This time she got sick not two days ago and cataracts seemed to instantly grow on her eyes and she had an infection and her eyes were leaking. I kept them clean and gave her food as little as it was she would take. Then yesterday she ate a little more and today she wouldn't eat at all so I crushed spinach leaves carrots and apples with water and fed that to her every so many hours because piglets (guinea) dehydrate so quickly. Tonight, she died in my arms. We will rise early tomorrow and bury her properly. She lost her husband Neo, and two children Tae and Kwon and leaves her daughter Gracie and two sons, Alfie and Do. She was a good mommy and a loving baby to us. A personality we will miss. She would come to the cage door upon calling her and give kisses. She was also the strong figure to her children. As little as she was, and she was the smallest of all, she would take no "guff" from them and kept all five in line. She was also the most vocal of all the pigs and I will miss her calling me. If you look through my archives I have a story about her. We love her so...I am hurting already and she will be truly missed. It has been a difficult month for us with the death of Taku two weeks ago today and us still hurting so badly over our beloved dog, at sixteen and a half still our pup and now Betty Boop...it leaves me sad. :( | | |
| In Memory of Taku July 7, 1991 - April 10, 2008On Sunday night while we were asleep, Taku must have suffered a minor stroke along with one of her many seizures - when we awoke she could not move her one hind leg. If we helped her up she was fine she walked around and went outside but she couldn't get up herself. I brought her to her doctor. He said that it was her spine however, there was a slight chance that it would come back like the last time (it took 7 hours the last time) but could take up until Friday. If not by then we would have to think of putting her down. She was given a shot and some more seizure pills and we took our old girl home. Tuesday there was no change. On Wednesday with the family in and out to help her I went to work. When I arrived home around 8pm on Wednesday night she was awful. She flopped her head on the floor I had to hold her head and hold water in a small bowl to her mouth. I fed her dinner with a spoon. Her front legs were sliding out and she would fall over a bit. She just didn't understand what was happening, why her legs weren't doing what she wanted. She looked frightened and frustrated. I helped her up and she had a very bad seizure immediately and cried during it. It was bad. Afterward she was so weak and couldn't even move. I cleaned her up (when you seizure-you pee human and furry ones alike). I kept the heating pad on her back and made her as comfortable as possible. That night I prayed that she would get up and be well like her doctor said she might (prior to this last episode) or God would take her in her sleep. Neither happened. Bill and I called her doctor 7am that morning. He said it is time. Bring her down. My mom layed with her for a bit of time and cried and Tere' was beside herself. She had a big test yet wanted to be with Taku. We decided she should say goodbye at home and go to school. Taku is Tere's second birthday gift. Taku was sixteen and nine months. So for Tere', Taku has always been here. Bill and I brought her down and we did what we needed to do. I am very sad. I miss her. I know I did the "right thing" and I am happy that my little girl isn't suffering anymore. Yet I still have that hollow feeling inside. I thank God and Nancy for her. My dear friend Nancy gave her to us. I thank God for the long time we were blessed with her. I miss her... | | |
| Saturday is International Angel Day. Last year I spent it alone only knowing one area it was being celebrated and not feeling comfortable there. This year I did research and found another location, closer to home and in a bookstore...since I love to read the atmosphere I am creating in my mind is already comfortable. I can't wait. I am going to enjoy being with others that are in some way similar to myself.
I am working at home today. Yesterday I had to go up north and mom was unbearable. I was over an hour late. Today she is good. I think that subconsciously she is frightened when I leave. She is never alone for more than one to two hours and checked on even then. I don't think she means it but I have to admit it pisses me off so much. Especially knowing my two blood sisters are calmly in work on time and furthering their careers. Mine, at a stand still...why do I do this to me...I am not sure or I wasn't but I think I know now...maybe because this isn't the career I am supposed to further...there is something more substantially rewarding out there for me...I know what it is...today I ask Tere' and Silky to give me time over the weekend to set up my power point...Silky will also take pix for my poster and I will call the public library and reserve time for myself after my work is complete. I can't do that mentally until I know what I am saying...just in case they give me a too early date...so I am preparing my Reiki seminar...
BettyBoop got ill about a week ago but thankfully bounced back. I only have the four guinea pigs now. I also have two turtles, one fish and my lovely two dogs. I am so blessed. My daughter is a college student now. She is commuting by train and she also started a wonderful new job. She is back in the dojo teaching karate and I haven't seen her so happy since she stopped doing this. Barefoot, in a ghee and so completely at home. Her new boss speaks broken English. He is Korean. He is extremely respectful and polite and my daughter feels very welcome at his place of business though she has some trouble comprehending. She'll catch on I have no doubt. She is training for an upcoming demonstration. She is also being taught TaeKwonDance which is from Korea and she will be eventually teaching that along with the curriculum of TaeKwonDo. She is a third degree and takes it very seriously. She is on the sparring team, they do olympic style. She is going to be on the demonstration team too...she is happy.
Me...I feel a split in the road...something is a brewing and it is a good thing. I went in to such a depression after Kwon and Tae passed. I miss them terribly. I know it was their time but I wasn't ready. We never are. But I know that the future is opening for me. I dreamt last night of a bathroom which was not furnished in my taste at all. It was black marble with gold swirls and little brass animals were placed on the ledge of the tub. The animals kept falling over and I kept meticuously setting them up at the edge of the deep square step in tub. I wasn't frustrated. I felt a feeling of need to do this. I felt like I belonged and it was my bathroom...my take...change...something I was afraid to believe...something richer/better/more rewarding...with tiny little steps that must be taken to progress...I meditated this morning and opened myself up not to hear what was being told but to sound what I wanted to hear within my every cell and being...I deserve...I am so healthy and happy and content and secure and I deserve...I have a right to myself to believe this...it is my truth...I will continue to absorb this...I pictured myself walking along a path of sunshine barefoot and warm...my entire being was relaxed and I felt that I could handle to the best of my being any obstacles in my path...that is a beginning...have a wonderful Friday...hugs...Sassy | | |
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