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Thursday, April 24, 2008

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 22:07:09 GMT

BETTY BOOP (8/03 to 4/08)

Tonight Betty Boop died, our Guinea Pig just under five years. She has been sick so many times and kicked back. This time she got sick not two days ago and cataracts seemed to instantly grow on her eyes and she had an infection and her eyes were leaking. I kept them clean and gave her food as little as it was she would take. Then yesterday she ate a little more and today she wouldn't eat at all so I crushed spinach leaves carrots and apples with water and fed that to her every so many hours because piglets (guinea) dehydrate so quickly. Tonight, she died in my arms. We will rise early tomorrow and bury her properly. She lost her husband Neo, and two children Tae and Kwon and leaves her daughter Gracie and two sons, Alfie and Do. She was a good mommy and a loving baby to us. A personality we will miss. She would come to the cage door upon calling her and give kisses. She was also the strong figure to her children. As little as she was, and she was the smallest of all, she would take no "guff" from them and kept all five in line. She was also the most vocal of all the pigs and I will miss her calling me. If you look through my archives I have a story about her. We love her so...I am hurting already and she will be truly missed. It has been a difficult month for us with the death of Taku two weeks ago today and us still hurting so badly over our beloved dog, at sixteen and a half still our pup and now Betty Boop...it leaves me sad. :(

In Memory of Taku July 7, 1991 - April 10, 2008

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 14:44:28 GMT

On Sunday night while we were asleep, Taku must have suffered a minor stroke along with one of her many seizures - when we awoke she could not move her one hind leg. If we helped her up she was fine she walked around and went outside but she couldn't get up herself. I brought her to her doctor. He said that it was her spine however, there was a slight chance that it would come back like the last time (it took 7 hours the last time) but could take up until Friday. If not by then we would have to think of putting her down. She was given a shot and some more seizure pills and we took our old girl home. Tuesday there was no change. On Wednesday with the family in and out to help her I went to work. When I arrived home around 8pm on Wednesday night she was awful. She flopped her head on the floor I had to hold her head and hold water in a small bowl to her mouth. I fed her dinner with a spoon. Her front legs were sliding out and she would fall over a bit. She just didn't understand what was happening, why her legs weren't doing what she wanted. She looked frightened and frustrated. I helped her up and she had a very bad seizure immediately and cried during it. It was bad. Afterward she was so weak and couldn't even move. I cleaned her up (when you seizure-you pee human and furry ones alike). I kept the heating pad on her back and made her as comfortable as possible. That night I prayed that she would get up and be well like her doctor said she might (prior to this last episode) or God would take her in her sleep. Neither happened. Bill and I called her doctor 7am that morning. He said it is time. Bring her down. My mom layed with her for a bit of time and cried and Tere' was beside herself. She had a big test yet wanted to be with Taku. We decided she should say goodbye at home and go to school. Taku is Tere's second birthday gift. Taku was sixteen and nine months. So for Tere', Taku has always been here. Bill and I brought her down and we did what we needed to do. I am very sad. I miss her. I know I did the "right thing" and I am happy that my little girl isn't suffering anymore. Yet I still have that hollow feeling inside. I thank God and Nancy for her. My dear friend Nancy gave her to us. I thank God for the long time we were blessed with her. I miss her...

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 17:14:52 GMT

HAPPY EASTER....

Friday, September 07, 2007

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 09:08:46 GMT

Saturday is International Angel Day. Last year I spent it alone only knowing one area it was being celebrated and not feeling comfortable there. This year I did research and found another location, closer to home and in a bookstore...since I love to read the atmosphere I am creating in my mind is already comfortable. I can't wait. I am going to enjoy being with others that are in some way similar to myself.

I am working at home today. Yesterday I had to go up north and mom was unbearable. I was over an hour late. Today she is good. I think that subconsciously she is frightened when I leave. She is never alone for more than one to two hours and checked on even then. I don't think she means it but I have to admit it pisses me off so much. Especially knowing my two blood sisters are calmly in work on time and furthering their careers. Mine, at a stand still...why do I do this to me...I am not sure or I wasn't but I think I know now...maybe because this isn't the career I am supposed to further...there is something more substantially rewarding out there for me...I know what it is...today I ask Tere' and Silky to give me time over the weekend to set up my power point...Silky will also take pix for my poster and I will call the public library and reserve time for myself after my work is complete. I can't do that mentally until I know what I am saying...just in case they give me a too early date...so I am preparing my Reiki seminar...

BettyBoop got ill about a week ago but thankfully bounced back. I only have the four guinea pigs now. I also have two turtles, one fish and my lovely two dogs. I am so blessed. My daughter is a college student now. She is commuting by train and she also started a wonderful new job. She is back in the dojo teaching karate and I haven't seen her so happy since she stopped doing this. Barefoot, in a ghee and so completely at home. Her new boss speaks broken English. He is Korean. He is extremely respectful and polite and my daughter feels very welcome at his place of business though she has some trouble comprehending. She'll catch on I have no doubt. She is training for an upcoming demonstration. She is also being taught TaeKwonDance which is from Korea and she will be eventually teaching that along with the curriculum of TaeKwonDo. She is a third degree and takes it very seriously. She is on the sparring team, they do olympic style. She is going to be on the demonstration team too...she is happy.

Me...I feel a split in the road...something is a brewing and it is a good thing. I went in to such a depression after Kwon and Tae passed. I miss them terribly. I know it was their time but I wasn't ready. We never are. But I know that the future is opening for me. I dreamt last night of a bathroom which was not furnished in my taste at all. It was black marble with gold swirls and little brass animals were placed on the ledge of the tub. The animals kept falling over and I kept meticuously setting them up at the edge of the deep square step in tub. I wasn't frustrated. I felt a feeling of need to do this. I felt like I belonged and it was my bathroom...my take...change...something I was afraid to believe...something richer/better/more rewarding...with tiny little steps that must be taken to progress...I meditated this morning and opened myself up not to hear what was being told but to sound what I wanted to hear within my every cell and being...I deserve...I am so healthy and happy and content and secure and I deserve...I have a right to myself to believe this...it is my truth...I will continue to absorb this...I pictured myself walking along a path of sunshine barefoot and warm...my entire being was relaxed and I felt that I could handle to the best of my being any obstacles in my path...that is a beginning...have a wonderful Friday...hugs...Sassy

My Celebrity Look-Alike

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 13:35:29 GMT

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 16:45:17 GMT

I RECEIVED THIS IN MY EMAIL AND I LAUGHED SO HARD MY EYES TEARED...GEESH I NEED THAT LAUGH...MALE AND FEMALE ARE "VERY" DIFFERENT, I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS...

Subject: MALE VS. FEMALE AT THE ATM MACHINE

>> MALE VS. FEMALE AT THE ATM MACHINE

>> A new sign in the Bank Lobby reads:

>> "Please note that this Bank is installing new Drive-through ATM

>> machines enabling customers to withdraw cash without leaving their

>> vehicles.

>> Customers using this new facility are requested to use the

>> procedures outlined below when accessing their accounts.

>> After months of careful research, MALE & FEMALE Procedures have

>> been developed. Please follow the Appropriate steps for your gender."

>> *******************************

>> MALE PROCEDURE:

>> 1. Drive up to the cash machine.

>> 2. Put down your car window.

>> 3. Insert card into machine and enter PIN.

>> 4. Enter amount of cash required and withdraw.

>> 5. Retrieve card, cash and receipt.

>> 6. Put window up.

>> 7. Drive off.

>> *******************************

>> FEMALE PROCEDURE:

>> Unfortunately, most of this part is the Truth.!!!!

>> 1. Drive up to cash machine.

>> 2. Reverse and back up the required amount to align car window

>> with the machine.

>> 3. Set parking brake, put the window down.

>> 4. Find handbag, remove all contents on to passenger seat to

>> locate card.

>> 5. Tell person on cell phone you will call them back and hang up.

>> 6. Attempt to insert card into machine.

>> 7. Open car door to allow easier access to machine due to its

>> excessive distance from the car.

>> 8. Insert card.

>> 9. Re-insert

>> card the right way.

>> 10. Dig through handbag to find diary with your PIN written on the

> >> inside back page.

>> 11. Enter PIN.

>> 12. Press cancel and re-enter correct PIN.

>> 13. Enter amount of cash required.

>> 14. Check makeup in rear view mirror.

>> 15. Retrieve cash and receipt.

>> 16. Empty handbag again to locate wallet and place cash inside.

>> 17. Write debit amount in check register and place receipt in back

> >> of checkbook.

>> 18. Re-check makeup.

>> 19. Drive forward 2 feet.

>> 20. Reverse back to cash machine.

>> 21. Retrieve card.

>> 22. Re-empty hand bag, locate card holder, and place card into the

> >> slot provided!

>> 23. Give dirty look to irate male driver waiting behind you.

>> 24. Restart stalled engine and pull off.

>> 25. Redial person on cell phone.

>> 26. Drive for 2 to 3 miles.

>> 27. Release Parking Brake.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 09:59:13 GMT

Tae passed over today. Again, at 2am he was here, ill but here. At 6am he was gone. He seemed to be a bit better over the weekend then he took a turn for the worst. He couldn't "go" just like Kwon. His pneumonia seemed better, the antibiotics helped the breathing. He refused food. He seemed so hungry but wouldn't eat. The critical care was hurting his belly because he couldn't "go". He ate Sunday. I didn't feed him Monday. Silky kept trying to get him to drink water. We settled for his lips being wet. We held him for hours. He laid in my bed. He slept on his Dad (my husband's) chest for three hours under a blanket. I held him again, covered him and at 2am went to sleep. I dreamt he first turned to an orange and black fish then a very weak little mouse instead of a guinea pig. He passed this huge bowel that was black and gray and it unfolded into a mini alligator. I think that after all the Reiki I did, I saw him evolve. He fought the alligator and it died and then he was biting it and I pulled him away from it. He scratched my right hand and it bled a bit and he evolved into himself a smaller version and grew normal then floated away in a cloud of white and happy. I knew in my dream he fought the demon of pain and released himself into the light. His Spirit soared. I miss him so much, he was like a puppy, he would run over to the door of the cage and give kisses upon request (all 7 did/do only 4 left) and he would sit and let you scratch his nose. He loved snow peas and carrots...I will see you again my Tae, play with Neo and Kwon and stay healthy. I love you my little one...Mommy :(

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 14:42:53 GMT

Now Tae is sick...he has pneumonia...they suggested keeping him at the hospital...I can't afford that...he is home in a separate cage...on antibiotics and I will bring him in the shower so he breaths in the steam, poor baby...he has a 50/50 chance and I will give it my all...I am sad, anxious, tired and broke...I hope that Do, BettyBoop, Gracie and Alfie will not catch it too...I will NEVER own another pet...Taku has that heart condition...Nacho is getting old...the turtles have opted for a divorce making my gorgeous 90gallon tank look like an obtrusive thing now with the separator...so sad...it isn't Patti, it is Peppermint...and then there is mom...what did I do to me..lol...up every morning at dawn...meds for Taku, clean Nacho's infected ears...mom needs her meds and blood pressure and monitor her for first several hours she fainted yesterday...but seems okay today...then the screaming little dears...feedme, feedme...my piggies...then Kwon was so sick and now Tae is too...separating...force feeding...meds...OH and then there is work, and don't forget...my house which is begging for a cleaning and my daughter...BRIGHT SIDE: She turned 18 and is the love of my life...my morning sunshine...all will be well...this too will pass...I will do Reiki on Tae...huggs everyone...Sassy

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 08:21:03 GMT

In Memory of Kwon

February 15, 2005 - August 19, 2007

Kwan was the second born of the second litter of Guinea Pigs. He was docile, adorable, never bit anyone as long as he breathed on this earth and loved spinach. While his brothers, Tae and Do were at that "fighting age" you could always find Kwan up on the top level of their piggie condo "foraging for food". He was a bit on the chubby side. He became ill last week. After a few days I brought him to the vet. Our vet couldn't help him he said he needed an exotic specialist. I called one for an appointment. He would be away for two more weeks. I called another, she would be away until this coming Tuesday. August is the "away" month...I called up north and drove him the hour long ride with Silky holding him and the exotic vet examined him and told us that it might be his back teeth (I didn't know he had them) but he would have to be sedated and she was pregnant so couldn't be by anethesia and the "other" exotic vet was away until two more weeks. They gave me critical care diet, tried to take blood to see if it was an infection but he was so dehydrated. They gave him a shot to rehydrate him and I took him home. The next day I made an appointment with the specialist the first day of her return, Tuesday. He lapped up the critical care diet and looked a bit better. Silky and I did Reiki all the time and last night he looked awful...I confirmed within myself it wasn't his teeth and he would never make an operation. He was so impacted and weak. He couldn't "go". During Reiki I opened the door for him. I did a prayer and told him to get well if you could because we love him...if he couldn't he should let go and don't be scared...there will be a mommy there for him too and his grandpa Neo...and we loved him...at 2am he was okay...at 6am he had already passed over. I sobbed for the loss of holding his furry little body and hearing his sounds and that cute little face. I am at peace that his pain is stopped and his journey across is forward...I will see you again Kwon...I love you...Mommy

Friday, July 27, 2007

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 09:35:37 GMT

Painted Ponies - Joni Mitchell

Yesterday a child came out to wonder
Caught a dragonfly inside a jar
Fearful when the sky was full of thunder
And tearful at the falling of a star
Then the child moved ten times round the seasons
Skated over ten clear frozen streams
Words like, when youre older, must appease him
And promises of someday make his dreams
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now
Cartwheels turn to car wheels thru the town
And they tell him,
Take your time, it wont be long now
Till you drag your feet to slow the circles down
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty
Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true
Therell be new dreams, maybe better dreams and plenty
Before the last revolving year is through
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return, we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game