okay soo im just going to write here cuz i need sumwhere to vent out or basically just remember sum things that have been happening in my life so i dont forget hehe =P well first off happy birthday to my not-so-little brother who is now 15 OMGGGGG!!!!! this summer i have been visiting soo many people who i haven't seen in soo long including people who just live a few houses down and i cant believe how much everyone.. including me.. is growing up soo damn fast!! people won't believe how much you can possibly grow up in one year of college... especially if you dorm there.. it is insane.. i must say i must've learned hundreds of things about myself, life, and people in such a short amount of time.. well at least im lucky to have picked a college/university that i actually like going to.... the only thing that sucks about stony brook is the weekends cuz everyone goes home.. including me lol but at least when i do stay over weekends i have someone there to make it fun for me aka my peaches  soo i met hundreds of people and already i am lucky enough to have found some good friends out of that and even more lucky to find someone i know who has my back no matter what and i have become soo frikkin close to in such a short time aka Sherineeeee... this girl has seen me in almost every possible condition and has been there for me no matter what time it was.. soo i thank her for helping me through my freshman year.. but what is really sad is i realized who really are my true friends and who aren't because there have been some people i thought my whole life i could count on and i was unfortunately proven wrong but i mean hey shit happens and it's not my fault that they wanna go and act like thattttttt but moving onnnn college educationally is a whole different ball park... it's almost always based on your test scores which suckkkk cuz u only have 2 chances and 3 if you're lucky.. but im used to it now and im really proud of myself of how i pulled up my GPA from a 2.7 to a 3.5 cuz stupid 1st semester i was fuckin around too much and still adjusting to everything but heyy im gettin there and i knw school now is really no joke.. my acceptance into medical school is really going to rely on this.. on the other hand i have my P.D.C. to keep me sumwhat saneeeeee cuz dancing gets my mind off lots of things and it's fun =) and i DEF need to stay on tha team next semester to get away from stress u knw but my mom wants me to quit  but im not going toooooo hehe  college parties, clubs, chillen, whatever u wanna call it.. they're the best if u knw where to go and depending who ur with.. but there's not much to say about that.. same old same old hmm... extremely lots of drama throughout my whole freshman year like u wudnt believe.. extreme ups and downs to the point where i could not handle anything.. i dont wanna say it here but yah it was just that bad.. but hey they happened for a reason and im really happy that they happened because now i learned from them and i won't let them happen again and if it does happen again now i knw how to handle it.. i really can't stress enough on how much i've grown up.. i mean this has to be the first time in years or ever that i've stayed home SOOO MUCHH and i dun even have a problem with it.. i mean working 2 jobs.. going to summer classes.. hardly seeing my friends and seeing my peaches only once a week.. but u knw im fine with it.. i got my life in balance... ohh speaking of two jobs.. if anyone ever gets a mail or call from vector marketing/CUTCO DON'T DO IT!!! i went through fuckin extensive training and all this shit.. sold over $1,000 worth of their merchandise and got paid only 100$ which is shit to me soo yahh don't do it... this week is going to be an interesting week... peaches left for his cruise today soo im not going to be talkin to him for a whole week which is gonna suck  and i miss him already but wat else i newww i always miss him cuz i only see him once a week!!!!!  lol but in the meantime ill be studying everyday until thursday for my final... i have hospital orientation on tuesday cuz i need to start volunteering and then im gonna b applying for a hostess job at all these restaurants i have in mind cuz i need more money.... cuz stupid me didn't listen to my mom and peaches when they told me not to go get a portfolio done and stupid me did and stupid me paid fuckin too much money$$ i don't even want to say how much hereeee but yahh i need to pay it off before they find out.. soo there goes my modeling career for the summer that i wanted to do even though i fuckin knw wat agencies to go to and shitttt but watever shit happens right? well at least alot of people liked them but peaches knws that fuckin only 2 out of 16 of them are what modelling agenies are lookin for ::sighs:: it's all gooddddd  
 
 
 
 
 
 
well this summer is gonna b really different.. mostly working for money and volunteering.. im going to south carolina at the end of july soo im excited for that.. and i wuz supposed to visit my kuya in cali in august but now i cant cuz of my stupid impulsive decision expenses but yahh... still gotta save time for myself to chill with people and party every now and then but no biggieeeee.... life is good i can't complain... my life is really balanced for once and i got my priorities straight and i know what i want in life and i know more about myself and what life brings.. sooo bring it bitches cuz im ready  | 
