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| - Ugh, I'm so tired. I didn't fall asleep at all last night, but when it became morning I went right to sleep. Then I had to wake up because I was going to go to the movies with my parents. I saw Starsky & Hutch... funny movie. When I got hoe all I wanted to do was go back to sleep. But my parents wanted me to stay up and doing something... something in my life. My friend called me and he came over and we hung out for a few hours. He wouldn't stop bitching at me. "You need to get out of the sunlight... it's good for you." Meaning I spend too much time in the darkness. I guess I acted werid in the sunlight...I ate a dry leaf. I feel so uncomfortable and paranoid in the sunlight. I just feel like everyone can see me and there is no place to hide because the sun is everywhere. My friend said that I acted completely normal in my house and in his house, but when we were walking back to my house I keep screaming, looking back and forth and hugging myself. I hate the daylight. I think I might need help or something... lol. It's all just madness. Farewell and goodnight.
the noose by a perfect circle
so glad to see you well overcome and completely silent now without himself
you cast your demons out and not to pull your halo down around your neck and tug you off your cloud but I'm more than just curious how you're planning to go about making your amends to the dead ... to the dead recall the deeds as if they're all someone elses atrocious stories now you stand reborn before us all so glad to see you well and not to pull your halo down around your neck and tug you to the ground but I'm more than just curious how you're planning to go about making your amends to the dead
... to the dead
with your halo slipping down your halo slipping your halo slipping down your halo slipping down your halo slipping down(repeated) your halo slipping down to choke you now | | |
| (Let this be the end of it for me. I am going to explain my points verses his.)
Some of you people that visits my site sometimes should know a person whose name is unknown but his Xanga is getting famous. (http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Amazin_Caucasian)
From his Xanga: If you can picture what it would look like if an albino, a vampire, and Calista Flockhart had a threesome, conceived a child, aborted it, and dipped the abortion in vinyl, you can probably get the gist of the Goth look. Your average North American Goth weighs in at about 90 lbs and looks as though it hasn't seen the sun in 666 days. Hair must be dyed either black, or some color not found in nature and worn either long, or spiked up using gelatin. The Goth is generally adorned in black clothing, which contrasts nicely with its pasty white complexion. The Goth uniform is usually composed of torn black pants, either jeans or vinyl, and the t-shirt of a band called "The Baby Eaters," or "We Eat Babies," or "We Dip Babies in Blood and then Eat Them" or something.
My response. A Goth can be ninetyor a hundred and ninetypounds, it doesn't matter how much they weigh. The hair color can be any fucking thing they want it to be. He makes it sound like there are rules and laws to be Goth. "The Baby Eaters, We Eat Babies, We Dip Babies in Blood and then Eat Them"? What the fuck? What does eating babies have to do with being Goth... we are Gothic not serial killer/cannibals.
From His Xanga:
How they act:
In a word: depressed. Why? We don't know. Goths may give you some reasons such as "life sucks," "no one understands me," or "I'm an outcast." This is bullshit. Of course you're a fucking outcast! That is the term we use for people who distance themselves from everyone else, freak out spontaneously and try to bite you when you get too close. Oh, and if you think your life sucks because nobody understands you, it's because you put yourself in that situation, jackass.
My Response: There are some people on this Earth that their lives aren't perfekt. Excuse us. Some of us may have never known happiness. Maybe some had it and then lost it. That's not our fault. Everyone has their own look upon the world. Some may find it beautiful and some might find it a form of Hell. None of it is own fault.
From His Xanga:
What they do:
Besides biting people, Goths have many wonderful interests. First and foremost is "dark, spooky stuff" like vampires and death." Just as a heads up, putting in some plastic teeth you got at Hot Topic for $30 does not make you a fucking vampire, even if your voice is really deep and you regularly make use of the words eternal, blood, and damnation, and EVEN if you spell it with a "Y" (vampyre). It also seems as though all Goths are wonderful poets and can often be found sitting in graveyards writing poems that contemplate death and vampires (vampyres?).
My Response: You the fuck are you to judge one on their inerests? Do we scare you in some ways? So what if we like dark and deadly things. You might like bright and pretty things... and that's weird to us. "Vampyre" is how it was first spelled. it's not our creation.
This was all based on one of his posts.. the most ignorant one. There are lots of thses types of posts on his Xanga, and there is no reason for them. He never explains why he hates Goths so much. We must scare the fuck out of him or he once got his ass kicked by one of us. To tell you the truth, this all makes me sick that someone could be so closed minded, scared and ignorant. To my us Goths are the least scared people in the world. We know the truth and we don't hide from it. Other people might be scared shitless of the truth and hide behind God and Jesus from it. In conclusion, there is nothing wrong with being Goth, there is nothing wrong by being interested in dark things. We are beautiful, aware and unafriad. Leave us alone, Amazin' Caucasian, try opening your mind a little. And this post was in no way of hatred, I just wanted to express my feelings toward it. | | |
| - - Friday, I went to the movies with my friends, we saw Eurotrip. It's not really my type of movie but it was really funny. And this was the first time I've seen my friends in weeks or months and so they had to catch up on their criticsizing. "Cut your hair," "You're an idiot for dropping out of school!" "We all got girlfriends now, what do you got." Oh, my Satan, just shut the fuck up and leave me alone. I'm not cutting my hair, if I stayed in school I would of killed myself or everyone else, and I am better off alone. Either I am better off alone or there's just no one for me, either way it's better. Saturday, and my Aunt who has been living with my family moved out. Finally, she does. It's been five or six months with her here and it was just annoying and it fucked up my plans. When she moved in, it was almost a week after I dropped out of school so all my plans had to wait. I would be driving now if she wasn't here. It's all to complicated and everything is all fucked up now. Sunday, hung out with my friend at another friends house. It was alright I guess, we just sat around and watched TV and ate. And watched the Oscars. That's about it... Monday was boring. Today was boring. Tomorrow will be boring. Farewell and goodnight. | | |
| - This day was crappy, kind of. It was too boring, but it never stopped raining. The day was dark grey... I never saw the sun. A perfekt day if only I hate someone to spend it with. I need a job or something... or just a fucking car and a liecence to drive one so I can fucking leave! I've been staring at my blue walss for too long and I need to escape... I don't care where I go... I just want to leave. There's only one good thing about never leaving home. I never have to see people. "I remain alone."
I was left a comment from someone you clearly hates goths. He seems to be expressing himself in a very smart way. "Saldy, i'm not the ignorant one. Just because goths don't like to see the truth to what they are doesn't make me unaware. By expressing my dislike for one group, I in no way express "how much hate [I] have for the world." I simply believe the world can do without goths or people like you. You are really ignorant compared to me. Goth is all about a bleak, dull outlook and appearance. Goth in no way involves cheerfullness and happiness and if you know goths like that, then they are not really goths. What I say is merely encouraging goths to envelope everything that is goth. Were they to kill themselves i'd say he really is a goth. When they say i'm goth and i'm not depressed at all that is shit. You're not a fucking goth. You're a wannabe goth who dresses in black and wears makeup. Congrats, now everyone hates you. The wannabe goths should kill themselves too. They are a bunch of pussies who should be dead anyway. They think they are being individuals? They are only following everyone who wants to be outcast. They are calling attention to themselves. Look at me i'm a goth, i'm soo depressed. Goths are all a bunch of assholes who are not really what goth is at all. They go halfway and think they are cool. They are not and never will be. I say go all the way. Kill yourselves and end everyone's pain in one quick go. We're all sick of your shit. Fuck you." To me, this deformed person, is confusing goths with Emos. And he has no reason to hate us so bad. He, my friends, is the ignorant one. Just because he's life might be perfekt in some ways... doesn't mean that there are some people out there that hate this fucked up world and wait it cruel destruction, I know I look forward do. But this fucking bastard needs to get over it and admit that there are Goths in this world. We, as in Goths, are beautiful...and you are exactly what's wrong with the earth. | | |
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