It's late.
And I'm tired.
I can't sleep.
I miss everyone.
My family.
My friends.
My old co workers.
My boyfriend.
Seems like no matter what I'm always missing someone.
I really wish I could fall asleep on command like most other people.
Then I could finally just have an escape from this day already and start fresh tomorrow.
I have an ache in my heart.
Life is so bumpy.
And though God has never failed me.
I often feel like maybe life is a bit too bumpy to be worth going on.
I know it's more worth while to care and live life to the fullest.
But not always easy to do.
I like the telephone better than the internet.
I can get ahold of someone right then and there.
But unfortunately my phone is broken and I can't pay to fix it or pay next months bill.
I feel alone not being able to call my sisters.
I feel alone not being able to talk late when Petrs finally done his homework.
I feel alone not being able to text Raissa and Leah.
I feel alone with the few people I know taking off for the summer or going home to Africa to see their families.
I feel alone feeling like I'm standing in this one spot of my life while every one else whizzes by going to school, being promoted at work and becoming successful.
I feel alone not being able to have my mom and dad to run to when I need them.
I feel alone.......
Being alone isn't good for me.
It gives me the lowest low I could ever experience in life.
