Currently Watching The Weather Man (Widescreen Edition) By Nicolas Cage, Michael Caine, Hope Davis, Gemmenne de la Peña, Nicholas Hoult see related

Wow. It's been a REALLY long time...

So it's 1:32am & I'm fucking bored out of my mind. I could really use a cigaret right now too. But yeah. I need a vacation...again, but I need money so that I can go on one. That's going to be interesting. I don't know how the fuck I'll be able to come up w/money in time for spring break, but we'll see anyhow. Sigh, I need to do something...now. Agh! I don't want to sit & watch another fuckin movie. Rar! Oh well. So yeah. Here's the latest. I have a ticket to pay for, spring break to afford, & concerts coming next month. I need a job. I thought my last interview went well too, but the fuckers haven't called me back. Assholes. Ugh. At least some good, care free holidays are coming up like St. Patties day. Yep. I'm going to forget my name that night. It'll be beautifull. Jesus, once I get my ass out of debt I'll be fucking happy. Right now I'm so fucking stressed out & the last thing I need is someone giving me shit for THEIR DRAMA. Good fuck! That's annoying. But yeah. No point to this other than me waisting time & being pissed that I can't go out for a cigaret right now. Ugh....

But yeah. That's it.

Peace.

Currently Listening The Marrow of a Bone By Dir en grey see related

DIR EN GREY SUMMER TOUR 07 W/THE DEFTONES!

YOU HEARD RIGHT. NOW WHO'S GOING? I KNOW I AM, BUT I WANNA KNOW WHAT OTHER OBSESSIVE FUCKER'S GOING CAUSE I MAY BE GOING TO THE SAME ONE AS THEM CAUSE I'M GOING OUT OF THE STATE TO SEE THEM. DONT KNOW WHICH ONE YET, BUT I'LL FIGURE IT OUT. IF YOU ARE GOING & YOU'RE GOING TO ONE OF THE FOLLOWING SHOWS, LEME KNOW SO WE CAN MEET UP & SHIT.

6/6/2007 Providence, Rhode Island -  Lupos - On Sale Now!
6/7/2007 Worcester, Massachusetts - Palladium - On Sale Now!
6/9/2007York, New York - Roseland - On Sale Now!
6/10/2007 Albany, New York - Wash Ave. Armory - On Sale Now!
6/11/2007 Niagara Falls, New York - Dome Theater - On Sale TBA
6/12/2007 Detroit, Michigan - State Theater - On Sale Now!
6/15/2007 Chicago, Illinois - Riviera - On Sale Now!
6/16/2007 Milwaukee, Wisconsin - Eagles Ballroom - On Sale Now!
6/17/2007 Minneapolis, Minnesota - Myth - On Sale Now!
6/19/2007 St. Louis, Missouri - Pageant - On Sale Now!
6/21/2007 Omaha, Nebraska - Sokol Auditorium - On Sale TBA
6/22/2007 Denver, Colorado - Fillmore - On Sale Now!
6/23/2007 Salt Lake City, Utah - In The Venue - On Sale Now!
6/24/2007 Salt Lake City, Utah - In The Venue - On Sale Now!
6/28/2007 Los Angeles, California - Gibson Amphitheater - On Sale Now!

Currently Listening 10,000 Days By Tool see related

After digging through all this bull shit, I've finally found a quarter

Tomorrow's friday! WOOOOOOOOOOOT! I've been waiting for this weekend for fucking every! I have dos(zwei) parties to attend on Saturday & manana I'm just gonna roll w/it. I'm gonna wear my rave-like get up w/my crazy obnoxious rainbow/neon colors & party! This week has gonna by soooo fucking slowly. But that doesnt matter now cause tomorrows Friday! WOOOOOOH! Oh yeah! And I've discovered some neu Japanese bands. D, BLOOD(have known about them, but just now gave them a chance), & Due le quartz. I'm sure their's another one, but I cant remember the name. But yeah. That's really baller. But yeah. I wanna do some crazy shit tomorrow. FIRE WORKS! I have two packages of un-used roman candles! Let's fucking go nuts guys! Yeah! But um, I'm planing on pulling a late night shindig cause I want to drive on bay area at 2 in the morning again when their's no fucking traffic. That shit rules! Omg, yes! So if ya'll need to spend the night, DO IT! But we're going to pull an outdoor all nighter-cause I said so & yeah. I dont know where we can use the fire works, but we'll sure as hell find someplace & it'll be GREAT. Yeah. I am pumped now. I havent played DDR in the past two days. That's not being fair to my daily work out. I need to do double time tomorrow. Yeah. Right after school. So I'm gonna call people & shit & we're gonna have ourselves a fucking party. YEAH! I cant fucking wait now. I'm going to be so anxious to leave tomorrow. Lol. But yeah. That's it.

Oh & finally. I LOVE ALYSSA LIKE A FIVE YEAR OLD LOVES KOOL-AID! Okies. BYE BYE!

Currently Listening Everybody Hates You By Combichrist see related

DDR Super Nova

So, I bought the new DDR Super Nova game which is sex. I was like muy happy because w/not being able to eat very much(do to my tongue ring) & doing that at leats 30 minutes a day three times a week at the least, I SHOULD loose some weight & yeah. Then after that 2 week period I'm going prom dress shopping. Woot! I better have lost some weight, otherwise I'll be so pissed. I'm for shizzle. I've never had to clean my teeth so much in my entire life. Lol. It sucks though cause I have all this good food around me that I cant eat cause it hurts. :( Oh well. I've only got two weeks to go & as long as I take some drugs I'll be okay. But yeah. Spring break was cool. Did some things I thought I never would do, but yeah. Tis aight. I think my tongue's either healing very well or getting gross. I hope to God it's the first one. I'll cry if it's infected. It shouldnt be thouh cause I've been doing everything I was suposed to do. Hmm, I want my macarroni now. Agh, food! I'm so fat, but of well. Ya'll will understand when you get your tongue's peirced. it sucks for the first three wees. Omg, it's terrible. I am excited about freaking people out tomorrow though. Lol. Yawn, myspace is taking to long to load up. Whatever. I just want to eat my mac n' cheese & kick back w/a movie up stus. That sounds dandy right now. I swear though, two in a half weeks from now I'm going to JB's Cafe & getting me some general cho's chicken & fried rice & I'm gonna be fat! Yeah, i'm not alowed to have anything spicy, salty, citrusy, or carbonated for at least three weeks. It's really hedero. But yeah. I'm gonna check on my dinner.

YAY! Food's ready! Lata!

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I hurt so bad. I cant breathe. Everything hurts. I'm drowning in my own tears. I want to leave, but I have no where to go. It'll only make things worse. I wrote my dad a letter, but I dont think he'll read it. He doesnt do the whole sad-teary scene. He just lets my mom handle it. God, I wish he would care. I wish he would give me a hug or something. Just say, "It'll be okay." even if it's bull shit. Just something that shows he knows that he's hurting me & thet he wants to help me feel better, but no. I gave him my letter that I wrote durring my mini panic attack & I said to read it now & he went to the bathroom. I want to scream at him so bad, but if I do, he'll see my tounge ring & he'll flip out even more. God I want to go for a run or something so bad. I just want to go for a walk. No, I dont want to drink or smoke my missery away. I just want to cry it out. I want to scream & shout as loud as I can, but I cant even if I was outside cause someone will end up getting mad or call the cops on me. I dont know what to do. I know what the problem is, but I dont know how to fix it. The problem is me. It's who I am. I am the problem. My family doesnt like the person I am. The only way they could ever like me is if I became someone who isnt me. But I refuse. I dont know how to be someone else anyways. Am I so terrible? Am I such a horrible person that I have to completly change just to maintain peace? I want to just get away, again. Yeah. Just came back from Florida & this is what I come home to. Wonderfull. I want to talk to my dad really bad. Fuck it. I'm going to do it right now. Bye.

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