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things really bother me that i know i should be just shrugging off my shoulder lately its just so hard to get older it drives me crazy how we r going further n further....*sigh*

KAY well things r ok i guess. for rite now at least rite lol. well school today was school. i wasnt as late as i was yesterday...still late though. im getting better at getting up though. n i wasnt as tired as i was yesterday today THANK GOODNESS! so ive been thinking...in a year or so...maybe i will n start things over by then hopefully the past my be able to be forgotten...i sure as hell hope so. till then i just dk. my mom came n picked me up from school today...she brought me yummy food *yay* n i told her that i need $$$ so i can get my permit. she said she will have it to me by then end of this wkend at latest...so thats good. nothing much else. i have alot of work to do still for science n alg. i really dont wanna do it...cant school just END damn rite?

last nite i couldnt sleep so rey gave me sleeping pills...they made me sleep in so i was late to 1st blk. *tear* owell at least i got counted as there. school sucked as always i cant wait till its over

yesterday me n rey ended up not going to the beach...we were too busy sleepin lol. i got up at 4...n i was getting ready for church...but then my gma said she would take me to countryside mall...so i went to the mall. i feel bad for not going to church but im gonna go next sunday I PROMISE! at the mall i got 8 new bellyrings (they r so pretty) & 2 shirts one says "vote for pedro" & one is pink n kinda slutty but really pretty so idc wat yall think beotchs!

during 4th blk josh told me rob is dating this girl named jessica....wat an asshole..ima let him kno wat a lier he is sunday or if i c him b4 then ill do it then talkin bout some im not gonna date anyone at all pshhhhh w.e. it doesnt matter anyway but still. n the snow white play is gonna b performed like next week or something like that...ugh! i needa memorize my lines tonite i guess.

*wat would u do if u loved someone & they could care less?* have you ever had so much you could say about someone but your to scared to let it be known?*

so im thinking about starting modeling up again...but im not sure maybe ill start over the summer...i just dk! & i still havent got my lazy ass over to publix..eekkkk!  i went to subway today though YUM EAT FRESH!haha. xoxo

*so i just went n checked out a couple modeling sites that i might start up in again...im gonna need some really good pics that i can put online...ugh! thats crappy but im sure me n bree can get it done. well adios yall!

last nite i stayed the nite w. my moma. it wasnt bad...kinda boring. we went out to eat at Los Mariaches...then by the time she was done it was too late to go shopping so we went back to the hotel room. she had bought me drinks but i only drank one of them. it was good though. n my rose is sooo pretty n she gave me $100...usually she gives me more but i understand she doesnt have much rite now. in the hotel the bed was really uncomfortable. once again i got basically no sleep today. i had my mom bring me home at 7 so i could b here wen gma n ray got home...me n ray r supposed to go to the beach w. angie n her daughter today but im not sure if we r still going or not...we probably are. & im going to church tonite at 5:30...um thats about it. i never went up to publix...i really got to do that. n i got to take the test to get my permit too...im gonna c if i can do that during the wk w. sheena. um next wkend im supposed to go out to a movie w. kieth. n bree is away at her thing in orlando...i have to call her n c how its going. well love yall! xoxo

--I go to sleep to dream its *your* arms that hold me tight. When I lay next to *you*, it used to always feel so right.at times I feel so alone without *you* here even though i have other who are begging to be in ur place begging for me to erase *you*. there is no one for me to share my joy and pain and fear. my deepest thoughts were told to *you*. with *you*, I feel completely sincere and true. who else knows of my past who else expierenced it by my side late at nite? and still chooses to let this friendship last? I could never ask for someone better to be by my side. through the ups and downs, twists and turns of my life's crazy ride. id give *you* the world if i ever had the chance. or trade in all the riches for one simple dance. the simple things *we* shared are the most precious to me. more valuable than any fur or jewelry. the sound of *your* voice is stuck in my head all day long. I think of *you* late at nite wen i listen to myself breathe. my heart would surely stop if *you* were ever to completely leave. id be missing me, be missing my soul but most of all ide be left missing *you* even more than i do now. I go to sleep to dream its *your* arms that hold me tight. When I used to lay next to*you*, it always felt so god damned right. I used to wake in the morning to *your* ever sweet embrace. but  lately id be pleased enough, just to see be close enough to *you* to spend time w. *you* n be silently in love with *your* smiling face.--

--Friend: calls your parents by Mr.. & Mrs.
Best Friend: calls your parents w.e they want
Friend: has never seen you cry
Best Friend: has always had the best shoulder to cry on
Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best Friend: opens the fridge & makes herself at home
Friend: asks you to write down your number
Best Friend: asks you for their number
Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back
Best Friend: has a closet full of your stuff
Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best Friend: could write a biography on your life story
Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best Friend: will always go with you
Friend: someone who will bail you out of jail
Best Friend: someone sitting next to you saying “man that was fucking awesome”..............................breeyana is that Best Friend & always will be...i love you bree!!! thanks for being that best friend to me.--

--one day maybe a *guy* might realize he wants her love back...not wanting to hurt, the girl may said no...the boy  may cry to God & ask if it was really meant to be, why did he lose her? God will reply, my child, you didn’t lose her...you let her go--