..To start out, I hate the feeling that I won't ever be able to have what I really want.Going after it, I'm relentless, but it doesn't get me any further. I'm not a person who wears my emotions on my sleeve. I think it makes you a weak person. In other words I think I can put on an excellent cover to hide what I'm really feeling from most people, even the ones who know me well. There's no point to complain about everything going on in your life, when most people don't give a shit. I take back ever saying I don't know what love really is, because there is only one person I have ever felt so much for. 
'Do you wanna run away together?'
I would say it was your best line ever.
Too bad I fell for it...
And I walked along,
Waiting for you to come along.
Take my tortured heart by the hand.
And write me off.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...
You forced me to become strong.
And I just cried, being weak.
And you think you know.
And I would like to think so,
But do you know that when you go,
I fall apart.
well..track is track! Once again I'm not having fun doing it, don't even know why I'm doing it. I'm seriously consdering quitting. I never quit things..but I think it would be more beneificial for me to do an individual sport, or just take a break all together, I think I'm getting burnt out..real fast.
I've been spending a lot of time with my friends lately, and actually different people too. I don't like to think of myself as being in a certain clique, as cliched as the typical high school teen. And I've been having a lot of fun. I've been trying to conduct my life with higher morals lately, in order to satisfy myself. I'm not worrying about anyone else, and it makes things soo simple. I think I'll stick with this.
*9 days until Stress Free SPRING BREAK*
-9 weeks ends next Wednesday, so I'll be working hard on trying to get those ol' grades up..espeacially math. I'll be lucky this time to get a 3.3..no kidding!!
......Yesterday, Nicole and I went out, we were going to go to Salvation Army and find some hott t-shirts..but it was closed..SO we hit up goodwill..I don't recomend it, not too great of a selection for all you bargain shoppers So we ate at taco bell and went to Gabe's and bought some silly tees.
`-FinaLLy gettin my hair cut Saturday, but I haven't decided on wether to get it colored darker or lighter?..hmm..tough decision! Let me know what you think, if you please.! Saturday night is the Annual March Malibu, not sure if I will be in attendance or not, but either way I need to know what to wear.
..Leave me with your thoughts
<3  miss you sis!!
  
..Just a few of my thoughts Today are desribed pretty well be these!^^ | 
) I haven't felt the greatest, but I've been doing a lot better making it to school the past few weeks. Everyone is acting completley immature and fake to one another. Everyday I hear, guess what she said TODAY, or she said this about you..aren't you mad!?..lol I dont care anymore, friends are nice to have..but not when its a reationship with fighting and two-faced people. I'll be a senior in I think 20-some days now..and I guarantee there will only be a select few I choose to associate with afterwards. People change, but ya just gotta deal. It's a fact of life i suppose.
Next year no more running for me, either softball or hittin the wieghts. I don't feel like I get any better, but I don't feel like puting anything into the sport. Basketball and Volleyball are different, track just really isn't my thing. I'm hoping to get a small scholarship or something like that to a D2 school if I'm lucky. I'm going to a camp this summer for about a week where college coaches are supposed to be. 
chels
BECKY..(calls) 
Then at 2 we make a battery run, and pass a few more of belpre's finest! Not making any plans this weekend, just doing whatever comes up. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you MARANDA LEIGH BAKER!! 17. <3! Everyone have a wonderful three days off!
Me...Chillin' on the Pool Table!
Ash..muh better 1/2 of course!
Chotsey..displaying the "V" power!
I think I'll give myself about a week break from ANY sports before I begin track. I think I'm gettin burnt out on all of it to tell ya the truth. Once again my grades SUCK, because I've missed so much school. blah, yes I already have another saturday school and we're barely 1/2 through the 9 weeks. 
